Taeyeon's POV

Saturday: The Struggle.

I woke up from an uncomfortable slumber. The muscles in my back shriveled in ache from the stress that transferred from the incident that occurred. My slender hands traced over the pain that lingered through my body. This feeling was foreign to me - I always thought pain was just pain. However, this sensation set my soul in flames. My heart shuddered at the memory of the incident I tried to forget.

I scoffed at myself in recollection of my actions. The way I yelled at her, how I pushed her away, the hurtful words that left my mouth, the pain that emitted through her eyes, the desperation in our voices...

"I'm an idiot." I chastised myself. "A stupid drama queen." A sour laugh escaped my lips.

I ran my hands through my hair while questions such as, 'Why did I do that?' or 'Why didn't I say something else?' appeared through my head. Many more ran through my mind as I tried to find inner peace within myself.

Sunday: The Reflection.

The memory of the incident between Tiffany and me still lingered on. Everything I said, every action I did had a monumental impact on our friendship.  “Why did I do what I did? Why did I say what I say?” I scolded myself.

I was an idiot for falling into my whirlpool of emotions. Every time I interacted with this girl, thought about her, even to the point of looking at her, I could feel my barriers slowly breaking down. I could feel her stripping my façade of emotions to unveil my true and suppressed feelings bit by bit.

I couldn’t believe that I let her get to me. I let my feelings for the brunette girl get the best of me which caused emotional damage to myself.

But, because of my own feelings, I hurt her as well.

But why do I feel this way about her? It’s not like she is my girlfriend or anything. We’re just good friends. The best of friends. Close friends that care about each other. Even though we didn’t know much about each other, we’ve connected in a way that only Tiffany and I understand.

But, after thinking all these thoughts that I’m so sure of, I’m just…

Why?

Why does my heart still ache?

What is the reason?

What are my feelings trying to tell me?

As I sorted through my thoughts that racked through my psyche, I dropped myself onto my bed. A loud, excruciating, pulsating pain started to dance across my forehead. I closed my eyes to try and catch some sleep to alleviate my stressed head, but every time my eyelids closed the image of a heartbroken Tiffany appeared before me.

“Damn it!” I yelled a frustrated tone within my voice. I raised my fist to hit the dresser next to me to let out some anger. Tears trailed down my face, which only increased the pain of the headache to a higher level. After a few moments, I ran my hand through my long light caramel hair and exhaled deeply to calm myself down.

“I’m so confused. What do I do?” I fought through my cries. “Tiffany, I’m so sorry. I’m such an idiot. Please, forgive me…”

Monday: The Initiation.

School rolled on by as usual. The students went to their classes, ate their lunch, and socialized. Some were idle, busy, rushed, incompetent, but none of the less, normal high school students.

However, today as a student, I was feeling less than normal.

As I roamed the hallways I did my best to avoid eye contact with a particular sporty brunette girl. In classes, I sat in other spots to separate myself from her. I knew I was being a coward, but I couldn't handle the awkwardness and the pain that manifested in my heart.

During our shared classes, it took every amount of my strength and energy to not look at the elegant brunette goddess. As much as I wanted to converse with her and see that beautifully framed, elegant face before me, I couldn't. I wasn't worthy to lay my eyes upon a person like her. At least, not now. I needed to get things solved between us first.

The bell rang, dismissing us from our class. I gathered my things and quickly rushed out of the room, hoping I could avoid the massive influx of people crowding the door. I managed to squeeze my petite body through the roaring crowd and ran over to my final class of the day. "Thank goodness I don't have sixth period with Tiffany." I said reassuringly as I mentally patted myself on the back.

I entered my class, flushed with fever and covered in a thin coat of sweat. I threw my things on the table while I walked over to my spot. As I took my seat, I let my body collapse onto the table. A sigh of relief left my mouth as I tried to regain normal bodily functions. I was a bit unstable throughout the whole day.

My head continued to stay on the desk as the teacher taught his math lesson for the day. I was too stressed out to even pay attention to what was going on. In fact, I didn't even understand the math. I love it don't get me wrong, but it fascinates me how people can comprehend the concepts. Those people are like aliens to me.

I could hear the lesson coming to a close, so that meant we had some work time - well it's going to be free time for me - to try out the new math concept that were given out. I lifted my head up to see a walking teddy bear coming towards me. The bear pulled up a chair and sat in front of me, a table separating us.

"Did you talk to Tiffany yet?" The teddy bear kid inquired, relaxing into her chair.

I shook my head in response. "No Sunny. How am I supposed to? I've ignored her the whole day."

Sunny exaggerated a long sigh. "Well, ignoring her is not going to help the situation is it?"

"Ugh," I groaned. "I know. I'll have to talk to her soon and get things solved between us."

The danshin huffed at me and then turned to look at the clock. "You better get things done soon."

I nodded. "Yeah, I hope so."

"Well," Sunny smirked. "I know so."

She grabbed my arm and lifted me out of my seat. "What are you doing?" I replied in confusion.

"The bell is about to ring, let's head over to detention bro." The teddy bear kid pulled me towards the door.

"Why are we in a rush?" I asked.

"So you don't have to have an awkward moment with Tiffany." Sunny simply stated.

I became confused at the short kid's behavior. "But, don't you want me to talk with her?"

Sunny lightly chuckled. "I want you guys to get things settled between you both, but I know that now is not the time." She looked over me and smiled warmly. Her gentle stare sent shivers down my spine. It felt like the teddy bear kid genuinely cared for me and my feelings.

"How do you know that?" I stuttered.

She broke her gaze and focused on taking us to the detention room. As we arrived into the area, set our stuff down on the floor, and signed in our names the shorty looked back at me with her eyes penetrating into my own. It was as like she could see right through my emotions. "You're not sure of yourself yet are you?" I nodded in reply, not catching the hint that she was implying. "I thought so, I can tell just by looking at you Taeyeon."

"How did you...?" I said astonished. "It's like you read my mind or something..."

"I don't know." Sunny shrugged. "A shorty's instinct?"

Her comment made me chuckle. "And I thought I was cheesy... I still have a chance to grow you know?"

"Haha! I tell myself that I'll grow, but I never do. As for the cheesiness, I'm chalk of full of it." The teddy bear kid winked at me. "See you later! Tell Wooyoung I said hi."

"See you." I smiled lightheartedly in return as I made my way to the softball fields. I felt Sunny's kindness still linger around me. She was too cute. She really did care for me. She's a friend that I wanted to keep by my side.

A splurge of laughter left my lips and I couldn't contain it. She made my day a little better. My laughter ceased when I felt a pair of strong, toned arms wrapped around my body. I stood in complete shock. "What are you laughing about Taeyeon?" said the person behind me.

"Oh!" I yelled, suddenly feeling relieved when I recognized the voice. "Wooyoung! You scared me."

He loosened his grip around me and let me go so I could turn to face him. The raven-haired kid smiled awkwardly as usual and the only thing I could do was let out a little chuckle. "What's so funny?" He asked again.

"Nothing Wooyoung." I smiled. "I'm just having a good day."

"Really?" His eyes beamed of excitement. "Does that mean you talked to Tiffany then?"

I shook my head. "No, but I will eventually."

The puppy-eyed kid let out a laugh as he moved his hand to pinch my cheeks. "I hope so. I don't want to see you sad anymore okay?"

"Ow! Wooyoung." I said as I placed my hand on my face to rub out the pain.

"Ah! Sorry Taeyeon." He apologized.

"You're lucky that you're nice and cute Wooyoung." I pouted. "Or else I would have hit you."

The raven-haired kid laughed at my statement. "You're too cute Taeyeon." He smiled at me as he placed his hand into mine.

My eyes widened in shock at his sudden action. I could feel my cheeks start to warm up and my heart start to beat a bit faster than normal against my chest. "What are you doing?" I asked.

Wooyoung smirked at me. "Nothing. I'm just holding your hand. Isn't that what friends do?" There was hint of dejection and disappointment in his voice, but I ignored it.

"Come on," he said excitedly as he dragged me to the softball fields. "Let's get to work!"

"Okay!" I said with determination, even though I was feeling suspicious about his sudden change of behavior. "Let's go!"

Tuesday: The Affirmation.

I attended to my normal schedule as the day rolled on by. The classes were so-so, the lunch was bland, and the socializing toned down quite a bit. That was just for today though, I hope.

The brunette tried to initiate some contact with me, but the feeling of uneasiness overcame me. I ignored her for the second time today by sitting in different spots in our shared classrooms and maneuvered my way and out of her sight in the hallways. I was being a bit childish, but I wasn't ready to face her yet. When will I be though?

As I finished up detention I headed over to the front of the school and waited for my parents to pick me up. I took out my music player from my bag and inserted the earphones into my ears to block out the rest of the world. I immersed myself into the song that flowed through my head. Habitually, I sang the lyrics to myself:

"This separation is already enough for me, why haven't I heard from you?~"

Unknowingly, I felt a pair of hands wrap around my body. They started to sway me back and forth to the rhythm of the music. "You have a nice singing voice." The person told me. Out of instinct, I placed my hands on top of their arms and quickly pulled them off my body. I turned around to see a disappointed brunette girl standing in front of me with her arms wide open.

I took the ear buds out of my ears and stared at the athletic girl in front of me. I was definitely startled. "Tiffany," I said, my voice shaky. "What the heck? What was that for?"

She placed her hands by her side and fixed her gaze towards me. Her serious stare sent shivers down my spine. As much as I missed looking her face, I suddenly felt scared by her dominating stare. "Now you talk to me Taeyeon? You've been ignoring me for the past four days. No calls or texts? What's up with you?"

"I just," I stuttered. "I, well..."

"Well, what?" Tiffany responded.

I took a long, excruciating gulp. The built up guilt from the past few days was getting to me. It was now or never to explain myself. I dropped my things to the ground and wrapped Tiffany into my embrace. Shocked, the brunette girl slowly placed her arms around me and reciprocated the action. We both could feel our bodies meld perfectly into each other like a how the right key fits into its proper lock.

"I'm sorry for the way I acted towards you last Friday Tiffany." I apologized, my hands pulling her towards my body. "I acted like towards you, a cold-hearted drama queen who caused an unnecessary mess."

The brunette moved her hands in a circular motion on my back in attempts to comfort me. "It's okay." She responded. "I understand why you did it."

I shook my head in defiance as I weakly smiled at her actions. I continued on with my speech to make amends with her. "It's not okay. I was way out of line. What I said to you was very harsh and I know that I can't take it back. I really care for you which is why I said those things. You're a friend that I really cherish and I don't like it when others make my friends upset. I especially don't like seeing you that way. I know that we don't know much about each other, but there is just something about our bond that is different from everyone else. I know that I haven't been a good friend to you lately. I hurt you and I continued to do so by ignoring you for the past few days. I just didn't know how to approach you and go about it. But now that I've been given this chance to talk to you I can finally apologize. I'm sorry for what I did to you Tiffany. I just hope that we can just bury this in the past and we can still be friends."

Tiffany slightly pulled me away from her body, still holding on to my arms trying not to let me go. She looked into my eyes with sympathy and compassion which warmed my heart. "You're forgiven." She kindly said. I lightly smiled at her and rested my head on her shoulder. "I can't stand not talking to you. Don't ignore me again okay? I missed you too much Taeyeon."

"I missed you too Tiffany." I smiled, looking into her eyes. "I missed you so much."

"I still can't believe you ignored me for four days." She smirked at me. "How can you ignore this face?"

I playfully scoffed at her. "You know that I can't resist that face."

She winked in response. "I know you can't. I'm just irresistible."

I gently shoved her. "Whatever. You're so full of it."

We shared a relieving laugh together as a familiar silence enveloped around us. I missed this. I missed us. I reached for her hand and intertwined my fingers into her own. She chuckled at the sudden interaction and then looked over to me with her angel-like gaze. I loved the way she looked at me. It brought a feeling of comfort and warmth within me. That feeling welcomed the brunette girl to break down the walls and enter into the depths of my guarded heart. I didn't understand all these emotions that overwhelmed me though, but I did understand one thing from it. It was something that I didn't want to admit to myself, because if I did, then I wouldn't know how to handle it.

"I have to apologize as well." She stated, breaking the comfortable silence and my thoughts.

"What for?" I said in confusion.

"I didn't mean to push you away Taeyeon." She began. "I'm just used to handling problems by myself. I really do appreciate the fact that you have my back and you'll always be there for me... But..."

I nodded in understanding. "I know Tiffany. You have your own battles to fight. I can only help so much with any problems you have, but in the end it's up to you to make the decision and solve them yourself." She looked at me, bewildered at my statements. I continued on. "Look, I'll be here to comfort, listen, and console you. My job is to be your friend, your best friend preferably, but not your parent. I'll be here for you through thick and thin though, because..."

My cheeks began to turn a different shade of red. I looked away in embarrassment. "Because what?" Tiffany said in confusion. I shook my head, keeping my gaze fixated on something else. "Taeyeon!" She lightly yelled at me while shaking me back and forth. "Because what?"

I pulled up all the courage to look at her straight in the eyes. I could feel my heart beating against my chest. Suddenly, I understood the meaning behind my suppressed feelings. I wanted to admit them to the brunette right away and without thinking my mouth ran on its own. "Because Tiffany..." I stuttered. "It's because I.. I-I lik-"

A blatantly loud car horn was heard in the distance, interrupting my sentence and from me finishing my thought. I sighed in disappointment of the situation, but also in relief of almost confessing my unsure feelings. I looked over to Tiffany and sadly smiled at her. "That's my ride. I have to go now."

She came to me and draped her arms around me, encasing me in her embrace. The brunette moved her soft lips over to my ear. Her warm breath against my skin raised goosebumps all over my body. The situation seemed familiar. I chucked at the memory of us being close and personal like this. "Are we good now?" She whispered. I nodded my head in response, feeling her lips graze against my ear. "Good, I don't want us to be mad at each other anymore."

We slowly pulled away from our embrace, letting the feeling linger a bit longer than normal. Then out of nowhere, she started to move her face closer to mine. Feelings of paranoia started to accumulate within myself. What was she up to? I closed my eyes, scared of what was going to happen. I stood in shock when I felt her lips press up against my cheek. I opened my eyes to see her pull her lips away from me. She smiled and waved goodbye as I proceeded to walk to my ride with a dumbfounded expression. As I entered the car, the voice of my dad greeted me, which calmed my racing heart. "Taeyeon, welcome!"

"Hi Dad." I smiled as I situated myself into my seat. I looked over to the window and saw Tiffany waving at me. I returned the cute action which made my heart race again.

"Is that the Tiffany you keep talking about Taeyeon?" my dad inquired.

I looked over to him and said, "Yep, that's her."

He happily huffed at me, "She's really pretty, your friend Tiffany."

I nodded my head in agreement. "She's more than that. She's nice, sweet, smart, understanding, wonderful..." My heart started to flutter at the words that left my mouth. I turned my head to look at Tiffany before we left. "She's everything that you look for in a friend. She's perfect."

"Well, maybe I should get to properly meet and get to know this perfect friend of yours. Your has been dying to meet her too." my dad told me in a matter-of-fact tone.

My eyes lit up in excitement. "Really Dad? She can come over to our house then?"

My father nodded his head in approval. "Yeah, why not? It's about time you brought a friend of yours over. Frankly, I'm getting tired of your brother's friends. It'll be refreshing to see Tiffany over."

I kissed my father on the cheek. "Thank you Dad! Oh! This is awesome. I have to text Tiffany right now."

He laughed in return as he drove us home. "Anything for you Taeyeon."

I pulled my phone out of my bag and proceeded to text the brunette girl.

"Hey Fany! Are you busy sometime next week?"

I waited for her response. A few minutes later my phone notified me of a message. I opened my phone to look at the text message. It read:

"No, I don't think so Taengoo. Why?"

"My parents invited you to come visit us! They want to meet you."

"Really? Wow, that's awesome! I haven't even met your parents and they can't resist my charms!"

I laughed in response. "HEY! FULL OF IT. That's what you are. FULL OF IT."

"You know you it’s true."

"I kind of find that hard to believe." I attempted to be witty.

"Hey! That's not nice."

"Well, you deserved it."

"You know how much hell you put me through by ignoring me? I was so lonely and bored. Do you even know how much I missed you? I missed my Taengoo's company."

I suddenly felt a little sad. I quickly replied: "I'm sorry Fany! I won't do it again, I promise!"

"I don't believe you.”

I scoffed at her text. I laid the line here. "Fine then, you can't come over."

"What?! But, I wanted to. Don't your parents want to see me?"

"Too bad. You lost your chance."

"Taeng! Come on... What can I do to pay you back?"

"Ice cream!" Was the ultimatum I texted her.

"What about ice cream?"

"You have to buy me some ice cream."

"Eh? Me? Buy you ice cream? Why?"

"I paid for both of us at the bowling rink and we didn't even go bowling. I want my money's worth. So, ice cream it is."

"Ah, fine fine. Ice cream it is."

"Yay! Thank you Fany! Ice cream!”

"Whatever Taeng. Hey, I have to go. I'm kind of driving right now. I'll text you later though."

"Alright. Be safe! Wait, you're driving and texting? WHAT ARE YOU DOING? DO YOU WANT TO DIE? Ugh, Fany. Be careful next time. Text you later though! Goodnight! And don't forget my ice cream!"

As I closed my phone and put it away my dad and I finally arrived home. I grabbed my things, got out of the car, greeted my family members, washed up, and finally relaxed into my room.

"Ugh." I sighed loudly. "What a tiring day." I squirmed around in my bed, trying to find a comfortable spot to sleep in. As I closed my eyes, images of the brunette girl appeared before me. I smiled at the thought of her. I was amazed at the affect this girl had on me. Suddenly, I felt my body start to flush with fever. I placed my hand over my heart to feel it beating rapidly against my body. Then I slowly moved it closer to my ear where Tiffany's lips gently grazed. Finally, my hand somehow made its way to my face where I was kissed by a beautiful pair of lips that belonged to a certain sweet, gorgeous, and athletic brunette girl.

"She kissed me..." I whispered, only audible for me to hear. "Aw man, that was payback from last time wasn't it?" I pouted at the memory from the first time I kissed Tiffany on the cheek. "She scolded me about that last time, but still..."

The corners of my lips started to form upward at the memory of Tiffany's actions. "She kissed me..." I muttered. "...And I liked it."

All of a sudden, I remembered what I was going to tell to Tiffany when we were making amends. Feelings of embarrassment and frustration overcame at words that almost left my mouth at that moment when I was blinded by my emotions. "You're crazy Taeyeon! Why would you do that?" I chastised myself. "You don't even know if you do. You're not even sure!" I tossed and turned in my bed, hoping to shake these feelings away. No matter what I did though, they wouldn't leave.

I looked up to my ceiling and stared at it in realization and shock of my feelings.

It explained all questioned I asked myself, all the feelings I felt, and all the emotions that overwhelmed me.

I just didn't want to believe it though.

"Oh god…" I said in disbelief. "I think I like Tiffany."

Author's Note:

Hello Readers! :)

In all honestly, this was a hard chapter for me to write. Ugh, it took forever for me to write this. 

Oh and the song lyric Taeyeon is singing is from the popular TaeNy Duet "Lost In Love". Yes, I looked up the english translation. xD

It helped me focus and finished the chapter. Take a listen! They are so beautiful live. Here's the "Song of the Chapter": http://youtu.be/Y0ciaYedC8Q

Sincerely,

PandaJR :D