I woke up with the worst sense of dread. I didn’t want to get up at all. I finally managed to get myself up and get ready for the day. I stood in front of the mirror and just stared at myself. I sighed, “Kristen you will enjoy today. You will not make Yixing feel bad. You will smile and be happy. This isn’t over yet. Fighting!” I said to myself. After doing that I did feel better. When I left out of the restroom I noticed Liz wasn’t in her bed or in the room as a matter of fact. I got scared thinking maybe I am late but then she walked into the room with two coffees. I smiled and sigh with relief. “Here I figured you could use this,” she smiled at me as she handed me the coffee. She just stared at me for a long while. “Do you wanna talk about it?” she asked. I looked at her and gave a chuckle, “No. If I do I’ll get sad all over again.” “Okay.” I guess she understood. “Come on let’s go wait for Lay.” We got up and went to the lobby. While waiting I actually started to get excited for the day.

    When they pulled up Lay got out of the car and opened the door for us. This day looks like it’ll be good already. We got in the car and so did he. “Good morning Lay-oppa,” Liz said. “Good morning Lay-ssi,” I said with a bow. “Good morning.” He said back with a smile that showed off his dimple. I smiled bigger. “We are going to get breakfast first then we have a long trip ahead of us.” He said with an apologetic look. Liz and I just looked at each other and said okay. So we ate and were on our way the trip was kind of long but not as longs as I thought it was going to be. It was actually nice. When then arrived at Seokguram Grotto. It was beautiful. It was surrounded by nothing but land. It was a sight to see. We had to do a little bit of hiking and Lay again apologized to us about it. It was worth it though. When we finally made it and went inside the Buddha statue was so amazing. So was the artwork that was there. I was awestruck by everything. Lay and I started talking about everything in there. I don’t think Liz liked this part too much. When Lay noticed that Liz wasn’t talking with us he changed the subject and got Liz talking with us. He was so sweet. I honestly can’t tell you who was the sweetest Lay or Xiumin. My phone went off. I jumped so hard and looked at it. It was Sehun. I apologized to Lay and excused myself to talk to him for just a bit. I know it was rude of me to do that but I hadn’t talked to Sehun yesterday except for when I text him. When I got off the phone with him I went back in and saw Liz and Lay taking a picture together with the Buddha statue. I walked over and said, “My turn.” Liz smiled and said okay. I took a picture with Lay and then with Liz and then all three of us took a picture together. We stayed there for a couple of hours before we left. The ride back to Seoul was faster than the ride there.

    The next place we went to was some of the royal tombs of the Joseon Dynasty. We went to the ones that were around Seoul. they were all beautiful and breath-taking. I enjoyed being educated on Korean History, maybe it was because I was with Lay. Liz was actually enjoying herself. She was taking pictures of everything. Lay and I would join in and take pictures with her. We had a very nice time. The day seemed to go by so fast though. Lay was very interested in everything we did. He was enjoying himself. When he was telling me about something, I wasn’t really listening to him I was too busy staring at him, I grabbed my camera and took a picture of him. In this picture he was very serious because he was in the middle of a sentence. He never looked cooler or more handsome to me then right in that moment. This was something else he liked instead of music and dancing. The picture did throw him off a bit. After we left there we went to eat. I was enjoying this day with Lay so much. I really didn’t want it to end but the sky was already getting dark and we had one more place to go.

    Our last destination was Changdeokgung Palace. I had no problem with all the historical things we did today and Elizabeth didn’t have a problem with it either. I know I’ve said this about everywhere we went but this place really was beautiful and awe striking. I was in so much I my mouth dropped open. Lay chuckled a bit. When I heard him I closed my mouth and blushed. Great I just made myself look like a babo in front of Lay. The place was amazing. I really liked the garden in the rear. I seemed to have gotten myself lost there. I sat there for a long time not realizing that Lay and Lizzy weren’t with me. I didn’t know until they came for me. It was time to go then. I was sad and really wanted to cry. The whole time I was sitting there I was thinking that today was a really great day and that we only had one day left of this week then everything would be over. I thought it was time to go back to the hotel. I got up with a heavy heart. I really wanted to cry. We got in the car and were on our way. I layed my head back and closed my eyes this was the only thing I could do to not cry. It felt like we were driving for a while before the car stopped. “Kristen get up,” I heard Lizzy say. I opened my eyes thinking we were at the hotel. I got out sad and then realized that we weren’t at the hotel. The driver handed Lay a bag. I was wondering what was in the bag. I looked at the sky it was pretty dark and it was pretty late. What could Lay be up to? I know that it is time for us to go back to the hotel. Liz looked as shocked as I felt. Lay asked us to follow him. We did. We went up to a hill. When we got to the top there was a picnic set up and waiting. I smiled and so did Liz. This really felt like a date. “Since I am the last person before you pick tomorrow I wanted to do something special for you. I have prepared some fireworks and floating lanterns,” he said with a sheepish smile that showed off his dimples. “Thank you Lay. This means so much to us,” I forced myself to smile and not cry. I know I’m a cry baby. Before I could think or react to what I was doing I hugged Lay. He looked shocked and surprised. I backed away quickly, “sorry.” “Thank you so much oppa. This is the best day ever,” Liz said with a huge smile. She teared up a little bit. Lay handed us our lanterns and gave us both a marker. “Write a letter on the lantern or a wish that you have,” Lay said to us. I closed my eyes and took a moment to think about what I wanted to write. I opened my eyes and decided what to write. Liz was already writing and Lay was just closing the marker he was using. I wrote, ‘I wish this trip wasn’t ending. I’m just getting to know these wonderful men. I am sad but I hope it won’t show. I wish I will be able to see them again like this.’ I sighed and looked up. Lay was watching us with a smile on his face. I looked at Liz and she just got through writing. “Let’s send them away,” Lay said. I smiled, “Yeah.” On the count of three we all let them go up to the heavens. I wish that I could seem them again not as a fan but as a friend. “Sadly we do have to get you two back to your hotel,” Lay said with a sad smile. “Yeah I know and that ,” Lizzy said. “Is it okay if we get a hug?” I asked. Lay hesitated for a moment then smiled, “Of course.” Lizzy hugged him first and then I did. We hopped back in the car and were on our way. When we got to the hotel it was a bittersweet feeling. We said our goodbyes and went to our room. We just looked at each other not sure of how we are feeling. I sighed, “So how do you think tomorrow will work?” “I don’t know.” “What if we don’t get to choose a person each. What if we have to choose together?” I asked a little worried. “Well let’s pick now,” she said very calmly. “How about to be fair it’s not someone we like. What I mean is that you are biased towards Tao so it can’t be him. I am a little biased towards….Kris….so it can’t be him. Okay?” I didn’t want to tell her but I had to be fair. “So Kris is your fave huh? Okay deal.” She smiled. “How about we do it the old fashion way. She picked up the hat we had been using. I smiled, “That’s a great idea.” We put the names, except for Kris and Tao’s, back in the hat and mixed it up. “You pick,” Liz said handing me the hat. I took a deep breath and grab a piece of paper. “Let’s see who destiny has in store for us,” I smiled. I opened the paper and giggled a little. “What who is it?” Liz asked anxious to know who I picked. “It’s Chen. We would get a second date with our sweet sweet troller.” I smiled again. I had a really nice time with Chen. It would be nice to spend more time with him. “Okay now that we have chosen let’s take our baths and get ready for bed. Tomorrow is the biggest day.” I gave a sad sigh. “I know. I’ll take my bath first.”