"Jinki are you okay ?" I was still leaning against the wall trying to calm myself when Victoria saw me. I got panic but it faded after I thought about a excuse

"Y-yes, there w-was a mouse and I got s-s-scared" I said and she chuckled 

"A mouse ? Didn't know you were that scared. Well I will protect you" she helped me up "You calm down a bit ?" I nod "Then let's go"

"Were do you want to go ?"

"Let's go to the Han River and eat ice cream or something like this"

"Okay. Let's go" I said and we walked to the Han River. My chest hurt from the guilt feeling. What did I do just now ? Responsing to his kiss but the worst is still the fact that my heart beat fo him... I have to controll myself. We arrived at the Han River and I bought us some ice cream

"Jinki..." we looked at the sky. Since it's summer the sun is probaly up for another hour 

"mh ?" 

"I'm sorry" I gave her a questioning look

"For what are you sorry ?"

"I'm sorry for forcing you into that relationship even if you like someone else..." her eyes became sad

"You don't have to be I agreed to be your boyfriend after all" 

"But still I'm thankful that you treat me with so much love and care..." I took her into my embrace carassing her head. "I'm not worth your care. You are loving someone else and still you try to make me happy" she sniffled

"Don't cry" I'm a bad boyfriend you know. If you knew what I did just a minute ago would you hate me ? I'm sure you would... I thightend the embrace and she clung to me as if her life depends on it. I felt like crying too but I hold it in not that I rarely cry I just don't want other to see it.

"I'm sorry too" I told her 

"You don't have to be it's not your fault. You can't force your heart to love someone I know that" that wasn't what I'm sorry for but it was part of it... We stayed like this enjoying the sunset not even bothering to say a word

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That's why I love singing I can forget everything that happen on that day. I just hope Minho won't come to the bar today. 1 am and I went off from stage walking to the bar

"Can I have a glass of water please ?"

"Here" Eunhyuk smiled and gave it to me. "Okay cutie what's wrong with you ?"

"Why you always have to give me so gross nicknames ?" he laughed

"Don't know but you didn't answer my question"

"Nothing is wrong. I'm perfectly fine" I gave him a fake smile 

"You know Jinki with your fake smile you can ease anyone but not us and you know that. You aren't okay and I can see that" he's right I can fool Luna with my smile even my parents but not Eunhyuk and Leeteuk eventhought I know Luna and my parents my whole life and my bar friends only two years

"You're right why did I even try ? But anyway I'm not going to talk to you about my worries" I said simple 

"You are mean" he pouted and I laughed

"Hyung don't pout it looks weird" he made a lot of other weird faces and I laughed like a maniac. I arrived at home at 1.30 making my homework and went to bed afterwards without food this time. I just didn't feel like eating. I laid in bed cursing myself about the event from the afternoon

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Of course I made lunch for Minho again and of course we sit at the same table

"Eat I'm not hungry" I gave Jonghyun and Victoria my food 

"You sure ? Not even a little bit ?" I shook my head. I just don't feel like it right now

"Weird. Normally you would eat a lot as if you didn't eat in days and afterwards always dessert. You always skip breakfast only to be able to eat more of the school desserts" Luna said

"No breakfast ?" she imediately took the chopsticks in the hand with food on it "You need to eat Jinki. Open your mouth" she's cute. I chuckled and opened my mouth 

"But I'm really not hungry" my mouth was full with food and they laughed 

"You look so cute right now" Jonghyun pinched my cheek. I behaved as if nothing happen and just didn't look at Minho not one time. We laughed more but we were interpruped. My cell phone rang

"Hello" I didn't look at the caller ID. Minho sits at our table so no need to

"Hello Jinki" a soft voice said. A voice that always managed to ease my worries. I closed my eyes and let the voice flow inside my head. When I opened my eyes a smile was plastered on my face

"Hello mom"

"Did you get the money we send ?"

"Yes, I got the money"   

"You paid the bill ? Enought food in the fridge ? The house is still standing ? You're healthy ? Why aren't you saying anything ?" she panicked and I laughed

"I paid the bill, I have enought food in the fridge, the house is still standing, I'm healthy and how am I supposed to say anything when you talk without a break ?" 

"I'm sorry but I'm glad you're fine" 

"Yes, I'm fine but what about you and dad ?" 

"Everything is fine here we have nice neighbours and we have great jobs. A little tyring but good. The only negative thing is that we can't see you..." I could already see her pout

"Mom don't pout. Old people shouldn't do that it looks creepy" 

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN WITH CREEPY ? ONCE WE GET HOME I WILL SHOW YOU WHAT LOOKS CREEPY" I laughed but didn't stop teasing her

"Oh you gonna pout for me ?"

"LEE JINKI" I couldn't breath anymore. It's so funny to like this

"By the way how come you call ? You should know that I'm in school right now"

"Oh yeah I was so excited to tell you. Your father and I get a one week leave so we will come back in that time"

"Really ?" I got excited "When ?"

"In two month"

"That's great" I smiled to myself

"Don't smile it looks creepy" what now ? payback time ?

"My smile doesn't look creepy" she laughed 

"You're in school which means Luna is somewere near give her the cell phone" I gave Luna the cell phone

"Your mom ?" Jonghyun asked and I nod. Luna and my mom made her typical girl talk and she gave me the cell phone back

"See you in two month okay ? I love you" 

"Yes, see ya. But really you need to get so cheesy ?"

"WHAT'S SO CHEESY ABOUT TELLING YOUR SON YOU LOVE HIM ?" I laughed again. I know I shouldn't tease my mother like this but... It's so much fun

"Everything but I love you anyway" 

"You're so cheesy" she said and i laughed. "Good bye Jinki" 

"Bye" I said and hung up

"You called her pout creepy ?" Luna asked and I shrugged my shoulders 

"She was like 'oh we can't see you' and then she was like 'pout' and you know how much I love to " we both laughed

Two month maybe I can forget the whole Minho thing now that my parents come to me Maybe I can...

I realized that this fanfic won't be that long. It will be lesser than 20 chapters. BTW the next few chapters are as short as this one but still hope you enjoy it :))

meandmyeslf: In Minho's POV you will see how long Minho played or if he's playing :)

laurachoileto: "the kiss was woooooohu" I see that as the kiss wasn't bad xD

christinatheartista: In chapter 13 you will fin out who JInki's secret crush is... :)