I upload chapter 09 on the same day so if you didn't read it you can go to this one first. In my country (germany) it's 2.59 am and I'm tired as hell so I didn't read this chapter means there could be a lot of error and non existent words be inside that chapter :))

Okay this is really bad. Today I don't have to go to the bar they said I should rest a litle but that wasn't good for me 'cause I wasn't tired at all. Yesterday I had to go to the bar and was tired not only that but I was calm after singing my heart out so I didn't have the time to think about Minho much. Today I don't have anything to do so my mind wandered around and all I was thinking about was Minho's body...

"Get a hold of yourself Jinki"

"but when I think about..."

"Stop it right now" I talked to myself 

"His chest was so..."

"I said STOP" I hit myself just to stop all the imagination in my head. I thing I have to go to a mental hospital. I decided to cook something for me and clean the house afterwards I went grocery shopping eventhought the fridge was still full with food. It was my own way to get other thoughts like 'what carrot would be the best' and 'oh I like the peppers in the other shop more'. I paid for the food and made my way home on the way I saw Minho with a girl they were like all over each other at the traffic lights which were red right now so I couldn't move and suddenly there was a pang in my chest 

"Hello" I smiled at them. Minho looked shocked but the girl didn't mind

"Hello Jinki oppa" she smiled back. If you wonder why that girl knows my name it's simple. I'm popular too but I hate it so when I was a freshman and all the girls were after me I got so mad at them that they decided to stay behind the scene and watch me from there. They even wonder if they can confess their love to me a view are bold and try it but I rejected them of course. "What are you doing here ?" she smiled at me

"I was grocery shopping since my fridge was empty"

"Oh what about your parents ?"

"They are working in Japan" she nod in understanding. Finally the lights turned green "I'm going now. Have fun you two" I gave them one last smile and walked home

"When we arrive at my house we will" she shouted back and there... Another pang. I held my chest and walked faster. Bring your mind off Minho wasn't really sucessful Jinki. I sighed. At home I put the food away and went into my bedroom falling into my bed and decided to sleep earlier so I could rest like Leeteuk wanted me to

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The way he looked at me, the way he put his hands on my cheek, the way his lips felt on mine, the feeling of his muscular chest on my hand, his tongue that explored my mouth that everything felt so good and the last. His pleading voice saying 'Don't go' totally melted me. I wonder how is lips would feel on my skin it would be amazing for sure and his hot breath giving me goosebump all over my body but suddenly everything disappeared and all what's left is that girl being all over him. I became unable to breath and my chest hurt so much  

I opened my eyes sitting shocked in my bed people would after a nightmare. I wouldn't really say that was a nightmare maybe something between dream and nightmare. I panted and sweated 

"What the hell was that ? Now I'm even dreaming about him ?" I hit myself for the second time that day "Come to your sense Jinki come to your sense"

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I will never skip work again no matter what Leeteuk says. I was even more tired. After that dream thing I didn't sleep a wink and made lunch at 3 am. I went to school at 7.30 like everyday I saw Luna and gave her the lunch

"Tell Jonghyun and VIctoria that they can share it I'm not hungry" she eyed me weird

"Not hungry but you don'T even know if you are hungry afterwards "

"I know that I won't be able to get anything down" I said and waked away. In school I met Victoria giving her her morning kiss and greeted Jonghyun afterwards going to my class. When the bell rang that told us lunch break began I didn't walk into the cafeteria no, I went to the rooftop and sat down on the floor. I spent my lunch break there not able to face Minho and I was right I didn't want to eat anything. Soccer practice went better than I thought

"Jinki where were you at lunch ?" Jonghyun asked 

"I had things to do. You enjoyed the food ?" he smiled while nooding cutely. I laughed at his behavior

"That's good then" I looked behind him to see Minho flirting with his fangirls and another pang in my chest... When does this stop already. I looked away trying to forget this image of Minho flirting. I wanted to get my things out of the locker room seeing Minho again. This time making out with another girl and I can say she wasn't one of the fangirls from before, nor the girl that clung first time Luna spoke to him, nor the girl in the library or the girl from yesterday no, it was a different girl and yes, you guessed right another pang in my chest. They noticed me

"Sorry for disturbing" I said simple taking my things. "have fun you two" with that I went out going straight home

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"Leeteuk hyung I know you wanted to help me but please don't give me a free day again" I said as soon as I saw my boss

"Why was it so bad ?"

"No" yes "But I realized that I'm nothing without work so please keep me bussy" he laughed and nod. That free day was hell. I would rather work 24 hours than staying home and thinking about Minho all day

That was my day for my next three weeks. I made lunch, went to school, gave Luna the lunhc, giving Victoria her morning kiss, saying hello to Jonghyun, going to class, lunhc break at the rooftop alone, soccer practice, talkind with Jonghyun and Victoria, seeing Minho making out or flirting with a girl everyday another one, getting a pang in my chest, going home and making homework, change my clothed and eat something, going to work and sing and the last one going home to sleep. That was what I did everyday and everyday the pang in my chest got worser but that wasn't even the highlight. The highlight was the trainings camp and that was next week and I thought I could avoid Minho sucessful but who had thought it wpuld turn out this way ?

 
I'm tired .... Thanks for supporting my fanfic <3