Donghae POV

I took a cup of coffee and sat in front of the television to distract me for a little bit but it didn't help. Once again I looked at the clock. 7.58 pm. Eunhyuk and Hyoyeon should have met for an hour now.

Whether she had come? Wouldn't he already been back, if not? Or was he waiting for her for an hour? This thought made ​​me sad.

Why did Eunhyuk make ​​so much effort for Hyoyeon's heart and not for mine? Why couldn't he love me? Unintentionally, I had to think about whether he would love me if I was a woman. Was that his problem? Didn't he just want to be gay? Wouldhe love me then? Even if I was the right gender?

Should I just give up on Hyukjae or try to convince him that it would be good to love me? Of course I liked the second option a lot better, but how should I do that? If I still played for Eunhyuk that it wouldn't matter for me, if he loves me back or not, that wouldn't certainly do anything better.

I would rather push him even more in Hyoyeon's arms. But wouldn't I do that too, if I would adhere on him all the time?

The ringing of the phone interrupted me in my thoughts (what was perhaps even better). Without paying attention to who actually called, I answered it. "Hello, Lee Donghae?"

"Donghae? Say, has Hyukjae finally surfaced? I call him a thousand times everyday, but he never answers" Eunhyuk's mother asked. She sounded worried, but also slightly angry.

"Oh, hello, Mrs. Lee. Yes, Eunhyuk has resurfaced and returned, he's also back to living here again" What would it also made a sense to lie? She was only a mother which was worried about her son.

"What? Really? Then tell him that I'm coming over now! I have a bone to pick with him!" I winced as I heard the sound of her voice. She really seemed quite angry. I knew that she liked Hyoyeon quite a lot and she didn't find it funny how Hyukjae had hurt her.

Aside from the fact that his parents had paid a big part of the wedding.

"N-no, Mrs. Lee. Eunhyuk isn't here. He's meeting Hyoyeon" Should I regret I said these words? Or was it just right?

"He.. He is meeting Hyoyeon? How come?" His mother suddenly sounded quite subdued.

"He wanted to reconciled with her.. or possibly even more.."

"Really?" Suddenly, Ms. Lee sounded pretty pleased which caused a small stitch in my heart. So she didn't want me to come together with Eunhyuk, too..

"Well then it's okay.. I already thought that.. Well, it doesn't matter anyway.. Let him know that I'll come today evening. And then, my dear Donghae, it's your shot, too. See you tonight, bye"

"Bye" I said and hung up. Since Eunhyuk was gone, his mother called three times a day on my cellphone and also on the house telephone (and probably even more on Eunhyuk's cellphone).

When I made the mistake the first time and answered the phone, I must listen to a long tongue-lashing. When she was done, she said that she would talk to me about it again personally.

Since then I could talk to her normally in the next calls. But if she would come here, I would willy-nilly have to listen to a lecture.. One, that perhaps was even more worse..

The door opened and as I saw Eunhyuk came in, all my previous thoughts were forgotten. Immediately, I rushed up to him and stayed just scarce ahead of him.

"And? Spill! What happened?"

"Wooow, I just came home and you're asking me about what happened, wait a second" Eunhyuk laughed and I took a step to the side so he could take off his shoes and his jacket. Suddenly the time seemed like in slow motion and I stepped nervously from one foot to the other. I couldn't and didn't want to wait.

Excruciatingly slowly Eunhyuk took off his jacket. When he was finally finished, he went into the living room and I followed him.

"Now tell me, how did it go?" I scrambled, trying not to sound too curious, although I was clear in my mind that he knew that I wanted to know everything absolutely.

"Well.. she came.." I already felt how the imaginary knife penetrated my chest. From now on, I was scared about every single word that would come from his lips.

"And we talked. She had let me explain everything.. Then she said that she would think about everything again. She said she would contact me and that I know what it means, if she didn't get back to me. Then she went.."

I heaved a sigh of relief. Only now I noticed that I held my breath. Although she hadn't turned him down, but she didn't go back to him, so the odds were good..

Stop.. Did I really wish that Hyoyeon would break Eunhyuk's heart, even though I knew that he loves her? As mean as it sounded, but that's what I did. Damn it, I wanted Eunhyuk for me.

"Eunhyuk.. can't you really imagine being with me?" Were those really my words? They had to be, at least I recognised my voice. But why did I say that?

"Uhm.." Eunhyuk looked irritated to the ground and I best slapped my face. ".. I already told you once.. I just have.. amicable feelings for you.. and I'm not even gay.."

"Are you really sure that you only have amicable feelings for me? Didn't you might just be afraid of being gay? How will the others react? What your family and especially your parents will say?" Why did I said that afresh? What's my angle?

"Donghae, it's.. it's not like this.." Hyukjae was getting quieter and quieter, while he furthermore stared at the floor. I couldn't bear it anymore.

Without thinking, I rushed up to him. In surprise, Eunhyuk raised his head and tried to retreat, but I was faster, took his face in my hands and pressed my lips on his.

Eunhyuk froze for a few seconds and we remained in this position, until I felt two hands on my shoulders and then realised how I was pushed away by force.

I released Hyukjae and staggered back slightly. Not a second later, I saw Eunhyuk rushing beside me and when I turned around I just could see him disappear with a loud door popping into his room.

I just stopped and stared at the closed door.

And once again, I could only ask myself: How could I do that?

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Yeaahh kiss kiss kiss.. okay, it was just a little and Eunhyuk didn't want it but come on it was EunHae :DD
I hope you liked the chapter ^^ Thank you for reading <3

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:OOO EUNHAE!! YEAH!~ Smooch smooch xD I hope everything goes well for them :3