Eunhyuk POV

Overwhelmed I rushed into my room, locked the door and threw me, with my face down, on my bed. Did that really happen? Did Donghae really.. kiss me?

Why did he do that? I thought he would have understood that I have no interest in him. I thought he would try to accept it.. But by no stretch of the imagination I would've expect this.

Did he want to ruin our friendship? If he would go on like this, he would probably destroy it sooner or later. Not that I would want that, but it would probably happen..

But fortunately I could truly say that I didn't like his kiss. Not even just a little bit. Indeed his lips were pleasant soft and the dominance with which he had kissed me, hadn't felt as bad, but.. there was no chance for me to like it.

If I would have liked (which I definitely didn't!), would that mean I'm gay? Actually yes, right? If a man enjoyed it when another man kissed him, he had to be gay. Why should he otherwise like it?

But why did I ever worry about that? It didn't please me so, so it could indeed be all the same to me.

Or .. Did I just try to dissuade me that I liked it?

"Are you really sure that you only have amicable feelings for me? Or is it that you might be afraid of being gay? How others will react? What would your family and especially your parents say?", Donghae's words resounded in my mind. Was he perhaps right with this assumption? Was I just afraid? Wasn't it just friendly love what I felt for him? Did I just try desperately to convince that to me?

But.. I loved Hyoyeon. That was one thing I was completely sure with. But could you love two people at the same time? Maybe -

A knock on the door interrupted me in my thoughts. Was that Donghae? Otherwise, who else would it be?

"Eunhyuk?" This was clearly Donghae's voice. But I didn't want to talk to him.. Once again.. I remained silent.

"Listen.. I'm sorry, that.. you know.. I kissed you.. That shouldn't have happened.. It was an accident. I was out of my senses. I'm so sorry. I'm always ruining everything. I didn't want to beset you. Can't we just forget it?"

I wasn't sure, but I knew that half way through his little speech, he started to cry. I didn't want to know that he was crying, but I also didn't want to talk to him.

Unconsciously, I began to with my thumb over my lips. When I realised this, I quickly pulled my hand away. I wouldn't easily forget this kiss. Since I could try what I can.

Would Donghae easily forget it? If he regretted that he kissed me?

So, that he regretted it on the basis of my response was clear, but I meant if he regretted it by itself? Or did he enjoy it? Did I want to know if he enjoy it? Definitely yes. But did I want to know it because it demanded my ego, or because I liked him? More than a best friend ..?

But actually I wanted to be with Hyoyeon. So why the idea to be together with Donghae suddenly didn't seem that bad? Maybe I should try it with him just once?

"Hyukjaeee ~" Came it softly from the door and I heard someone slowly sliding down on the wood. Donghae was indeed still at the door. I had totally forgotten him because I was so absorbed in my thoughts.

But if I was honest, I still didn't want to talk to him. What should I say as well? 'Let's just forget the kiss?' or 'I'm just not sure if I feel something for you, so let us try it?' That both wasn't good. I had to challenge it more diplomatic.

First I had to talk to him ever again. That might actually not be that hard. But what should I say? I decided not to think about it too long and to improvise easily.

"N-no it's okay.." I stuttered and suddenly the soft whimper on the other side of the door stopped. What next? I waited for a reaction, but he was silent. So I decided to talk further. Just as I took breath, he began to talk. Relieved, I exhaled it.

"R-really?" He sounded really desperate.

"Yes.. I'm sorry, too" I replied, standing up. I walked slowly to the door, stopped in front of it and put my hand on the room key, which was still in the lock. I just wanted to turn it around and thus open the door, but I decided otherwise, went back to the bed and sat down, with my face in my hands.

"Nah! You don't have to apologize for anything" Donghae said. "You did nothing wrong. It's all my fault. Everything happened because of me. And now I have even destroyed everything further because I kissed you. I know that you're not gay, and I really try to come to terms with it, but.. please forgive me" Donghae began to cry again.

I quickly got up, unlocked the door, opened it and saw a tearful Donghae sitting in front of my feet. Confused, he looked up at me, but I said nothing, just grabbed him by the arm and pulled him to his feet just to enfold him firmly in my arms.

"I've already told you that I have forgiven you. You mean so much to me. You're my best friend" I whispered softly. Donghae also took his arms around me and I could feel that he was smiling.

A hour later, Donghae and I were sitting in the kitchen, laughing and eating a salami pizza. Finally it seemed to go better with us two and we were able to laugh together again.

Although we mostly didn't really know what we should talk about, was the atmosphere pretty good.

"I can't understand that you've never eaten a pineapple pizza" Donghae laughed. "Next time we'll eat one"

"Donghae?" I asked softly and he looked at me quizzically, while a cheese thread hung out of his mouth. I swallowed hard. "Let.. let us try once.."

"Now?" Donghae looked bug-eyed at me. "Are you still hungry?"

"N-no.. I didn't mean that.." Even if it was hard for me, I looked him in the eyes. Should I really say it? On the other hand, I really wanted to try it. Why did my mind suddenly change? Because of nervousness, I began to tremble slightly.

"I.. I mean, this thing.. with the relationship.."

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Woaa, I can't believe that I already translated 10 chapters.. O_O
Hehe, so what will happen next? Will Donghae say yes, or will he be too scared about getting hurt?
And what is with Siwon? (He'll be back at chapter 12.. and Yoona will join the story in this chapter ^^)
I hope you liked this chapter (:
Thanks for reading <3

Alice here! I'm sorry I took so long! Some things happen and I couldn't do it until now >.<

:O AKSHGLAKSHLKHFKLAS OMGOMOG -Fangirls- I wonder what's going to happen later on! :D