Eunhyuk POV

Satisfied, I stood into the kitchen and did the dishes that were left from dinner. 15 minutes ago Siwon had gone out for a breath of fresh air and a little walk.

I had tried to sleep in his room again because I still felt very tired but I simply couldn't turn my mind off, I decided to take a bit work of from Siwon. After all, he had given me his apartment to stay in, his clothes and his food, so I was able to calm down a little bit. It was time for me to return the favour.

Siwon had gracefully accepted my offer (even if he first didn't want to because he said I was his guest) and finally said that he wanted to go for a spin around the block, if I didn't mind that.

Of course I didn't, so I was alone in his apartment now and already planned on how I could make myself more useful once I had done the dishes.

So engrossed in the dishes, I first didn't notice how the door bell rang. Only during the second time had I realised. Totally confused to who that might be at half past nine in the evening, I dried my hands and walked to the door.

Without even thinking that anything bad would show up, I opened it and what, more specifically whom, I saw, made a huge shock to me at first. It was in fact the person I would have least expected here: Donghae, my best friend. I would never have expected he would dare to come to Siwon.

If Siwon had came home and see Donghae in his apartment..

I shook my head to try and not run away from the topic. I just wanted to slam the door at Donghae's nose when I realised that he had put his foot between it.

I had waited too long to think of my next move. Donghae had won, meaning I probably had to listen to what he had to say. He wasn't looking at me but instead just stared at the floor. In marked contrast to me, I could hardly turn my gaze away from him. We were silent.

We were silent for a long time, just standong there. Donghae looked like a thrashed puppy and the longer we stood there, the more I felt guilty. Of course, he shouldn't had told me he's in love with me like this in the church, but how could I just abandon him?

Couldn't I perhaps reported to him at least once to tell him that I'm fine? Couldn't I had written him text message at least? I couldn't help it. If he was really here, he had obviously went through a lot of trouble to find me and come to me, I couldn't just get rid of him again. Even though I still didn't know what I feel for him.. Although it looked as if I had just broken his heart..

"Come in" I finally broke the silence. He looked at me surprised. Obviously, he had not expected this reaction.

"R-Really?" He stuttered slightly, I noticed he was trembling. Was he nervous? Was he really so afraid I would do something that would hurt him?

"Of course. You don't really think I would slam the door in your face, if you went through all that trouble of coming to me?" I replied, hoping he didn't notice that I had wanted to do that.

But suddenly his face changed, he looked pretty determined. He looked up and stepped purposefully into Siwon's apartment. Would that probably mean trouble?

I followed him into the living room where he turned around and looked me straight in the eyes, which intimidated me a bit. I stopped about three metres in front of him.

For a brief moment, we were silent again, until he began to speak.

"Eunhyuk.. I'm sorry.. I should never have done that...I know that, but I couldn't help it. To see you standing there destroyed me internally and suddenly the words came out.. I couldn't just watch...now because of that, I have destroyed your life.. At least in terms of Hyoyeon.. And anyway, I'm sorry.. I shouldn't had fallen in love with you.."

One moment.. Did he just apologised for falling in love with me?

"No.. For the latter, you don't have to apologise.. You can't determine whom to fall in love. Honestly, I feel a little flattered....I shouldn't have ran away, but I was just too overwhelmed with the situation. I'm sorry.. and what I'm also sorry about.. Donghae.. I'm not gay and I love Hyoyeon.."

The whole time I saw his face, he looked as if I had just stabbed him with a knife in the stomach. Had I really done the right thing? After all, I was not sure of my feelings. There will surely be a reason why I ran away, right? Or I was just overwhelmed? He nodded slowly.

"Okay, anyway I always knew that you were straight.. Can we please forget the whole thing?"

"Of course, you're still my best friend" I replied, smiling and gave him a forgiving hand.

This gesture obviously hurt him but he forced a smile and accepted it.

"Enough already!"

Donghae POV

Fortunately, Siwon didn't live right in the town, so it was not difficult for me to find a parking lot next to his apartment. I got out and slammed the door. Maybe a little too loud, but I was full of energy and couldn't be more energetic.

I needed a moment to find the house with the matching number. When I noticed it, I strode purposefully towards it and finally stopped in front of it. I took another deep breath. That I would ring wasn't a question, finally, I wanted to talk to Eunhyuk and now this is where I could (hopefully) do this, I wouldn't retreat.

However, what I was afraid of, was an encounter with Siwon himself.. How would he react if I would stand before him?

I knew that he hated me. Everyone knew that, since he made ​​no secret of it, even if I never really got his reasons.. After my action at the wedding.. Would he freak out?

What caused me even more worried, was Hyukjae.. What if because of what he experienced now would end up him hating me and never wanting to see me again? What if I find out I have destroyed our friendship? Wouldn't I rather prefer continuing to live in uncertainty as it would go further, than to know that it was all over?

No, I didn't want that. That's why I rang the door bell without further hesitation.

I felt that in the next moment I could slap my face. I had acted too hastily, after all, I didn't even know what I should say. Now I didn't even have time to concoct the right words.

To stay calm, I closed my eyes and prayed in thoughts that Siwon would not open the door. When I heard the soft click of the door, I knew the time had come and opened my eyes, just to see Eunhyuk appear in front of me. Relieved, I exhaled. It started good..

Inconspicuously I gained a foothold. First we were silent, and that not just short. I wanted to try to interpret his view, but I didn't dare to look at him. It tortured me.

I wanted him to say something, but nothing happened. However, I didn't dare to say anything myself.

"Come in" Someone broke the silence and I looked up in surprise when I realised that it had been Eunhyuk's words. Was he serious?

"R-Really?" I stuttered, I ashamed of my own behaviour. Not only was I stood like a picture of misery in front of him, no, now I even stuttered and to crown it all up, I also began to tremble slightly because of excitement.

"Of course. You don't really think I would slam the door in your face, if you went through all the trouble of coming to me?" He replied, smiling and even if that smile looked pretty fake, I took some courage and went without further concerns into Siwon's apartment.

I turned around and looked him in the eyes. The fact that he had provided a safe distance between us, gave me a little bite, but I would stand my ground. Not now, as I had come so far. For a moment I wondered what I should say, but then the words just came out of me.

"Eunhyuk.. I'm sorry.. I should never have done that...I know that, but I couldn't help it. To see you standing there destroyed me internally and suddenly the words came out.. I couldn't just watch...now because of that, I have destroyed your life.. At least in terms of Hyoyeon.. And anyway, I'm sorry.. I shouldn't had fallen in love with you.."

Full of hope, I looked at him, but I also felt fear. The fear that he would end our friendship now.

"No.. For the latter, you don't have to apologise.. You can't determine whom to fall in love. Honestly, I feel a little flattered....I shouldn't have ran away, but I was just too overwhelmed with the situation. I'm sorry.. and what I'm also sorry about.. Donghae.. I'm not gay and I love Hyoyeon.."

BAM. There was it. That sentence, which felt to me as if someone rammed a knife in my stomach. Why did I have some hope? I should have known that I have no chance.. I should have kept it as a secret forever. Now that it happened, I was all the time afraid of. Had I destroyed everything now? Or was our friendship still savable? Indeed would have trouble dealing with it, I'd rather be just friends with him, as to lose him completely..

Could he imagine that? To live without me? I began to nod slowly.

"Okay, anyway I always knew that you were straight.. Can we please forget the whole thing?" He smiled softly and I knew immediately that his smile was genuine.

"Of course, you're still my best friend" He handed me conciliatory his hand.

Damn! Why did he do that? Can't he hug me? Would that have been so hard? I had to suppress my tears. This impersonal gesture hurt me. I forced myself to smile and shook his hand. I wanted to go home.. and I wanted him to go with me..

"Enough already!"

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So, here's a new chapter.. It really took a lot of time to translate it.. I don't know why, but it felt really hard for me >.<
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