A/N: My new oneshot after a long while. This is a plot that my friend shared with me so erm, I twisted the plot a little, really little, and it turned out like this. I haven't tried writing this way before so I hope this is not too bad?

Well, I must say that I don't think that this is a good one. I appologise in advance if someone wasted their time reading this low fic. Well, I did gave a warning here right? =P But really, I am sorry for not being able to write this is a better way. I don't even know if this story makes sense. Also, sorry for my bad english.

When my friend gave me the plot, it's a really nice one to be serious. I feel like I ruined it somehow >_> It's as if I failed my readers and my friend. But yeah, I tried, so please don't kill me~

Yeah. And I forgot to add that I used B.A.P's It's all lies and coma and also B2ST's I am sorry for some reference.

Warning: This is not a happy fic. Read at your own risk. I've warned you. 

Other than that, Enjoy~

I stumbled into my room laughing at myself as I tripped. Someone got hold of me and I looked up, hoping it’s you but I sighed when I saw another familiar face after yours. “Dae, you went to drink again? You should stop torturing yourself like this…” He said and I pushed him away. He is my best friend, he stayed with me even after you threw me away like trash.

My best friend is Youngjae. We have known each other since middle school. He always stayed by me no matter who threw me away. Yeah everyone threw me away, just like you and he is soon going to be the next one.  I am just something that everyone throws away after a while.

All those words you said are nothing but lies. I felt tears rolling down my cheeks again but I am too numb to wipe it away. I laid onto my bed, letting the tears run down as I thought of you, our memories. Our memories that I can’t erase. Memories that I don’t have any confidence in erasing.

I don’t know why those memories are still stuck with me. I am lost in this maze filled with our memories, everything is becoming blurred but only you remain clear in my head. I wished that you would be here to pull me out of this painful maze. But you are not. No matter how much I wished, you will never come back. I am stuck in this darkness, please hold me tightly just like how you did previously so that I could escape. Just like a cheap , I can’t stop wishing for even a moment that maybe, you would just come back to me.

Why did you throw me away like garbage? A question that has been on my mind but after a while, I stopped thinking that way. Why can’t I do anything about it? A new question that was in my mind currently. I laughed at myself weakly. I am just so useless. Not being able to do anything about my life. I can’t even forget you even when you are gone.

My heart stopped when you left me. Without you being by my side I am as well as being dead. Thinking about living without you suffocates me. It hurts so much without you that I don’t even want to think about it, thinking about it makes me go crazy. Your scent that seems to be around me makes my heart feel like it’s going to explode.

Even when I struggle to escape from this maze, this nightmare, I can’t. I am still in that same spot where I am stuck at since the start. What can I do? We loved, I loved, and you were my everything. I still want you, want you to hold me, want you to tell me it’s just a prank, and tell me that you still love me.

My heart is burning up and I can’t take it anymore because it feels like I would die. I slashed my arm deeply, watching as blood flow out from the wound. Maybe I would really die this time. I can’t move in this darkness, I can’t feel anything as the tears fall down. Please come back to me so that I could wake up and escape this dark and painful maze. Please don’t go.

I stood there, watching his tears fell down his perfect face. I can’t do anything about it so I just stood still, watching you cry. You begged and begged for me to come back to you. But I just ignored it. Not being able to look at your crying face anymore, I turned away, leaving you alone in the alley. My heart felt like someone was stabbing it continuously as I walked away, hearing your pained voice calling out for me. I ignored it and practically ran away from you.

I am a jerk, a coward, a fool. Whatever you want to say, I deserved it. I am a jerk. I stood there looking at you cry. I left you there alone in the alley as you cry even though I knew there were times where thugs gather there, not caring about your safety. I broke all the promises I made. Hurting you more than anyone else. When I said that I would protect you forever.

I knew you the best, I knew you better than anyone else. We loved each other so you would be suffering right now. Even knowing that, I did nothing. Just because I was told not to. All that I am saying now are nothing but excuses. I could have done something to stop you from dying slowly from the inside. But no, like a coward I am, I decided to do as I was told to and let you suffer alone.

I turned off my phone when I am out with another girl, annoyed by your constant calls. Your calls that reminded me that you are still suffering. That I am the one who caused your sufferings. I lied to myself that I didn’t see that, I didn’t receive any call from you. Calls that you made, begging for me to go back to you. All of these things shouted at me that I am just a coward. Yeah, and like a coward, I escaped using some excuses that I gave myself.

I shouldn’t have save the words ‘I love you’ but said it more to you. Even if I was tired, even if I am lazy, I should have run to you because I missed you. Why am I regretting now? Why didn’t I know back then? You are so precious to me. Will you at least listen to my excuses? Will you hold my hand again? I hope it’s not too late to bring you back. I am not used to anything without you, you know me better than anyone else. I hope you haven’t gone too far away that I can’t reach you.

If you could grab my hand again like nothing happened, I want to heal all the deep wounds in your heart. I will treat you well, don’t leave. Because I love you, don’t leave. But it’s too late for these regrets, you are already too far away.

At that time, I didn’t know about unconditional love. I am such a fool. To hurt you like that just because of some simple challenges. I knew that there would be challenges. I knew that it’s not something that the society could accept, including my parents. I knew it but I allowed my parents to separate us without even putting up a fight.

It was my fault, so it’s only right if I get some punishment. But… Isn’t this too cruel?

Daehyun…

I am sorry…

Will you forgive me?

Can I have one more chance with you?

Do I still have the chance to see you again?

If yes, will you welcome me when I reach?

Will I be able to go to heaven to meet you?

Or will I be sent to hell as punishment?

 I took a step closer to the edge of the rooftop. I smiled, feeling my pulse weakens as my vision blurs. I looked at the mess that I have created with the wound on my arm. They would probably have a hard time cleaning it later… I took another step, now smiling at the thought of maybe, just maybe, I could see Daehyun again. I felt my conscious slipping and I fell forward, letting the wind embrace me.

Daehyun,I am sorry. I really love you.

Gukkie hyung… I opened my eyes and saw Daehyun. He mouthed some words. Tears pricked my eyes and I closed them, preparing for death with a contented smile. At least, I apologized… Thank you, Daehyun…

A/N: I left the ending open so you can imagine it however you wish to. So yeah. Thanks for reading~ I hope you can comment maybe?