December 8, 2013

Dear Diary,

Me.

Him.

We.

The boy with the fiery eyes.

He's finally mine.

No words to express my happiness.

Is this a dream?

-Do Kyungsoo

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December 9, 2013

Dear Diary,

It wasn't a dream!

I still can't believe that this is happening.

We're officially a couple.

We hold hands.

We kiss.

We walk together to class.

He even made me lunch.

And walks me home after work.

I want this to last forever.

Can it?

-Do Kyungsoo

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December 10, 2013

Dear Diary,

With this much happiness,

Consequences are bound to come right?

Truthfully I was floating on cloud nine

I forgot that I could fall.

It wasn't a huge fall, more like a trip

But it reminds me that this

This can't last.

Are there really such things as miracles?

If so can it happen to me?

-Do Kyungsoo

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December 11, 2013

Dear Diary,

I'm falling for him.

No scratch that.

I've fallen for him.

And as much as I'm happy with him

I...

I...

I don't know what to do.

It...

It keeps happening more frequently lately.

The black spots.

My vision going in and out.

I just pass them off as headaches but,

but I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.

What do I say?

What can I say?

I love him too much

I don't want to loose him....

-Do Kyungsoo

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December 12, 2013

Dear Diary,

I don't know how much longer it..

My vision will last..

I sighed putting the pen down and ran a hand through my hair. Giving my self a second to regain composure, I looked to the side to find the strip of Kai and I when we had went to the amusement park together. Picking it up with a shaky hand, I placed the strip in front of me, examining it with a small smile. Kai thought it would be a great idea to shove me into the booth and take pictures, which would have been fine with me if we were both practically soaking wet. Stupid water rides. Running my thumb over his face a chuckle escaped my throat.

"Dumb ."

Shaking my head, I placed the strip back down and looking back down at the paper, pain shot through me and I brought up my left hand clutching my eye. Groaning, I did what I did every other time, I just let it passed. Sooner or later it would stop, the pain usually only lasting for a minute or two. Once it did, I took a deep breath and brought down my hand clutching the desk. Getting up, I was about to leave when I felt something vibrate. Looking around, I noticed my phone on the desk vibrating and I clutched it in my hand looking at the screen.

Jong Jong

I smiled at the familiar icon. Swipping so that the message opened, I gave a second for my eyes to adjust before reading it,

Kyungie~ I miss you...

Are you coming tonight??

Doe eye lover<3

I couldn't help but laugh at his little icon.

He's so greesy.

Smiling I texted him back and shoved the phone in my pocked heading down stairs. On the last step, I turned towards the kitchen and a person popped out making me jump.

"Jesus!"

"Yah! Don't say his name in vain."

Calming my own racing heart, I scoffed.

"Did I scare you?"

I shook my head looking at the woman,

"No, you just gave me a heart attack that's all."

"Oh well if that's all..."

Said woman was walking back into the kitchen and all I could do was stare dumbfounded before finally follwing her. Placing my hands on the island, I watched as she went back and fourth between the fridge and the counter, placing ingrediants ontop of one another.

"Um mom, what are you doing?"

She didn't even glance at me and instead began opening packages and wraps, throwing them into the sink. Turning on the water, she then began to rigorously wash the vegtables muttering,

"I'm making food, what does it look like?"

I smirked at her playfullness,

"I'm going over to hang out with the guys later remember?"

She nodded, turning off the water, and shaking the vegtables ridding them of the excess water and placed them on the counter.

"Yeah I know, but I got to eat also, remember?"

She finally turned towards me with a smile and all I could do was laugh,

"Ok first sassy and now witty, what did you do to my mother?"

She threw her head to the side and I followed her gaze spotting a book. Walking over to it, I picked it up reading the title,

"Independent woman 101,"

"Wow they make books on just about anything huh."

She nudged me and we looked at each other before both breaking out in laughter.

"I'm not the only one who's changed."

I looked at her,

"Me? How so?"

She started chopping up the vegtables a smile on her face,

"You seem to be a lot...happier lately. I know it's been hard lately since..."

I looked down at the book, placing it back on the counter,

"But truthfully, I think this is the most I've seen you smile ever. Want to tell me what's suddenly changed?"

I tapped on book biting my lip,

"Nothing really just... I've made new friends."

She stopped chopping and jumped up, swiveling around and smilling at me,

"Ah yes, the group of young boys that you introduced me to the other week. They seem lovely especially that one young boy, what was his name...Jong..Jong In."

I looked up at her,

"You mean Kai?"

She smiled snapping her fingers,

"Yes him. It gets so confusing with all these nick names. Yes, Kai. I've noticed that you two are really close."

I tried to hide the blush that was eating its way to my face,

"It...its..nothing really..we just..we just..clicked."

She nodded,

"I'm glad honey, we all need someone we can rely on."

Turning back to the vegtables, she went through a bag shuffling around before sighing.

"Hm, I guess I didn't buy any."

I tilted my head towards her,

"Forget something?"

She turned back towards me with a small frown,

"I guess I forgot to get some radishes at the market yesterday."

"Want me to get you some?"

She shook her head,

"Sweety you don't have to do that for me. I can live."

I shook my head,

"It's nothing big, besides I wanted to get some fresh air anyways."

Trucking towards the door, I grabbed my jacked off the hook and threw on my shoes my mother following in toe.

"You sure it isn't to much? I can go with you?"

I just opened the door smiling,

"It's fine. I'll be back soon."

Already walking away, I turned when I heard the door open and watched as my mother in her slippers and apron waived at me,

"Be safe. I love you."

I smiled giving a small wave back,

"Love you too."

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The shop gingled as I walked out the door, shifting the bag in my hand to make it more comfortable. Walking down the street, the wind began to pick up and I clung the jacket around my body wishing that I had grabbed more then a windbreaker before leaving earlier. Looking around, I took in a deep breath thankful for the breath of fresh air. Shifting my gaze from one side to the other, I took in all that was the city. The tall buildings, all the signs, the lights, the people. All the things that I once considered annoying and an inconvience,

I was going to miss it.

Sighing, I continued down the street, glancing at my watch for a quick time check. I sitll had an hour and thinking about the time I would get home, to get ready, and head over to his house, it should be perfect. Coming to a stop at a cross walk, something must have gotten out because soon it was flooded with people. The one thing I could never get used to in the city. The continual crowds of people. Crowding together, I tried to keep my gaze upwards towards the walking sign, but with the pushing now going on, my gaze kept shifting around. Trying to keep calm, soon the blaring of the horns and people yelling filled my ears making me cringe. As my gaze kept going around, the flicker of the lights didn't help and soon I was starting to feel light headed.

No, not now.

I willed myself to calm itself, but everything was happening too fast. My heart began to beat faster and my head was beginning to swim. I l looked up and was thanking the heavens when the light had turned green signaling for us to walk. Feeling something vibrate in my pocket, I fished out my phone noticing the familiar icon.

Jong Jong

Taking that as my cue, I quickly stridded forward, the same time answering the phone,

"Hello." I groaned

"Kyung you alright?"

I could hear the worry in his voice, so I tried my best to cover it up.

"I'm fine."

I answered, but it was too late. I felt that familiar pain making its way to the back of my head, shooting up through my skull. I brought up my free hand clutching my head and knowing that I couldn't really just stop in the middle of the street, I tried my best to continue walking.

"You sure, you don't sound alright. Is it another headache?"

With my gaze going in and out, I groaned slowly putting one foot in front of the other.

"Yeah, but it'll fade soon."

However, the pain wasn't fading. If anything it was intensifying. As I walked, my legs seemed to slowly come to a stop, my body unable to handle it. Grunting out loud, I felt myself lean forward, my other hand coming up to clutch my head. Feeling my skull about to exploded, I drew in a sharp breath my legs dropping underneath me. I hit the pavement with a loud thud, and watched as the bag broke its contents spilling out.

"Kyung, what was that noise?"

I tried my best to quickly pick up the radishes, but as I reached for one, my vision went black in one eye. Wimpering, I clutched my eye, my heart pumping too loudly drowing out watever Jong In was saying.

"Kyung."

Unable to breath, I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned seeing people looking down at me with concern,

"Sir are you alright?"

I couldn't answer only nodding. I went back to trying to grab the radish when the pain shot through me again, this time making me drop the phone.

"Sir? Sir are you alright?"

I can't take this.

It hurts.

It all hurt too much.

Closing my eyes and clutching my head, I felt my body slowly loosing itself and soon I was falling towards the darkness, my ears filled with voices of all the strangers around me and the voice on the phone.

"Kyungsoo!!"

Was the last thing I heard before I gave up,

letting darkness take me.

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I'm sorry I haven't updated in so long... truthfully I was busy and then I got writers block making me lazy. Please don't shoot me. Ok you can shoot, but don't kill me or else I can't write the rest. Anyway, I know this is kinda short, but there will be more to come, I promise. Please, please, please comment. It's the only way for me to know what you guys think of my story. So PLEASE, don't make me suffer. Thanks, love you all who are sticking with me even though I'm being a slug, and even the silent readers, I see those view counts :) Till next time my lovelies~