December 6, 2013

Diary Of A Boy Going Blind

Thankfully, that night with Suho did not turn into an awkward one. After the whole incident, he polietly took me home, walked me to my front door, and wished me a goodnight. He didn't press the subject further, and didn't ask who the person was that my feelings were directed towards. Truthfully, I was expecting at least something to give away his anger or discomfort or disappointment, but if he had any he didn't show it. I mean it would be one thing if he put on a fake sappy smile of some sort, but he seemed genuine, and I think that made me even more confused. But it's been two days since that incident and if anything we got closer to each other instead of further. So here I was at lunch with all the guys, sitting in an empty classroom. We were scattered about, in a random circle somewhat, little groups of two to three talking to each other. I was sitting in a desk myself, face to face with Suho, and we were opening our lunch boxes chatting. I watched Suho peeking at my lunch so I rose an eyebrow,

"See something you like hyung?"

He looked from the food to me with a small smirk,

"I see a few things I like."

I felt myself blush as I hit him on the arm,

"Yah. Don't say things like that."

He just looked at me sternly,

"I was talking about the food."

My face dropped and he looked at me before bursting out in laughter.

"I'm kidding D.O oh god, your face is priceless."

I pouted and he just pinched my cheek.

"So what do you have?" He asked the subject quickly going back to the food and I felt myself laugh.

"You and your food hyung."

He shrugged,

"Food is precious."

We looked at each other again before going into Lord of the Rings mode, mimicking the whole 'my precious' scene, again cracking out in laughter. Hearing someone walking up to us, we turned and greeted the stranger welcomly,

"Lay. What up?" Suho smiled and I also smiled,

"Hey."

Lay looked from me to Suho,

"Hey guys. You seemed like you were having a good time, so I thought I pop by."

Suho nodded, grabbing a chair and scooting it towards us,

"Sure. You're always welcomed."

He smiled, plopping down in the chair.

"Thanks."

He then rested his hands and head ontop of the chair and looked between me and Suho. Suho and I just looked at each other before looking at Lay. Lay noticing this shook his head,

"Don't mind me. Talk freely."

"Um ok." I said and I turned to Suho,

"So about later this week."

Lay quickly jumped in,

"Ooh, what's going on later this week?"

He wiggled his eyebrows and Suho just looked at him,

"My uncles funeral."

Lay quickly shut his mouth and looked at us with wide eyes. We both looked at Lay before Suho looked at me and a smirked formed. He turned to Lay who looked like he was about to cry and patted him on the shoulder,

"We're just messing with you Lay."

Lay jumped a bit and looked at him blinking,

"So you're uncles not dead right?"

Suho sighed,

"He dead, but we had his funeral last year."

I hit Suho,

"You're scaring him. Stop joking."

Lay looked at Suho, and Suho laughed. I took action turning to Lay,

"He's just being a jerk don't mind him."

Lay looked at me,

"So he's not dead right??"

I nodded,

"Yes Lay, no ones dead. He was just joking."

Lay nodded in understandment before frowning at Suho,

"That's a cruel joke man."

With that he got up and left. We watched as he walked away and I turned to Suho who again was laughing,

"You're so mean. Look he's petrified now."

"Ok ok, fine. I'm sorry."

I smiled,

"Sorry that he can't take a joke."

Oh gosh.

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For the rest of lunch we all just hung out and soon, too soon in my opinion, the bell was ringing and we all sighed in unison. Cleaning up, we fixed the classroom up leaving in groups. Still cleaning up, I looked around and noticed everyone had already left, just leaving me and Suho. Suho noticing my lack of movement looked up also and sighed,

"I think we just got ditched."

I nodded,

"Yeah I think we did."

He just shrugged walking around the desk towards me,

"Well that just means more time for us."

I looked at him as he walked closer and closer,

"Suho?"

He towered over me, before bending down and grabbing me,

"Yah! What are you doing?"

He spun me around and I laughed hitting him,

"Yah! Put me down."

Spinning me a few more times, he finally put me down. With my feet touching the floor, the impact of spinning finally caught up to me and I swayed backwards. Suho shot forward, catching me, and pulled me back up, a little too forcably, and my chest pressed up against his. I blinked a few times and he looked at me worriedly,

"You alright D.O?" He asked and I blinked again my vision dancing with black spots.

He cupped my face,

"Kyungsoo?"

I felt my vision finally clearing up and I looked at him noticing how close he was making me turn beat red,

"I'm fin-"

I was cut off though when we heard the sound of coughing. We both look and I drew in a breath when I saw the boy with the fiery eyes standing there looking at the two of us. I placed my hands on Suho's chest, lightly pushing him away. Suho just looked at him,

"What up Kai?"

I blinked at Suho who acted oblivious to what the scene probably looked like to Jong In. Or if he did, he acted like he didn't care. Kai just looked at Suho, then me, making me look down, before looking back at Suho,

"Just wondering what was taking you guys so long."

Suho just turned towards me,

"D.O here wasn't feeling so great."

With this the boy quickly stepped towards me,

"Really? You ok kyungsoo? Was it another headache?"

Suho just stepped next to me patting me on the back and Kai looked at him,

"He's fine. Right D.O?"

I looked from the two before nodding,

"Yeah. I'm alright."

They were still looking at each other and not liking the tension I started to walk towards the door,

"We better hurry, class is going to start any minute."

I didn't wait for them as I walked out of the classroom.

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I didn't like whatever weird tension was going on between Suho and Kai. I thought it was just that once at lunch, but for the rest of the day something was definitly going on between the two. What it was, I totally did not know, and if I did, then I sure didn't know what to do. But now it was after school and I was working. Making a drink at the espresso machine, I looked over at the cash register where the familiar dancer stood with a smile on his face, placing in a customers order. I looked him up and down,

Nothing seems off.

Then why were they acting so different.

Did something happen between them?

I shook my head, trying to finish the drink and over shot the espresso, making it spill on my hand. Wincing from the pain that quickly followed, I wipped off my hand and finished the drink, handing it to the customer,

"Have a good day." I smiled.

The customer gave me a smile in return walking away. Going back over to the machine, Jong In called out the order, and I grabbed a cup starting yet another drink. After a while, the rush left and noticing the relief of customers, I started to clean up knowing that it was important to keep the work area organized. Grabbing a towel, I started to wipe down the counters and winced when my hand started to hurt. The dancer quickly noticed and came over to me.

"You alright Kyungsoo?"

I just nodded,

"Yep. Just a light burn."

He looked at me, before grabbing my hand making me wince again in pain from the contact.

"Kyungsoo! Look at your hand. This isn't a light burn, it's blistering."

I tried to pull my hand away from him,

"It doesn't hurt." I lied.

He looked at me,

"Oh really?"

He grabbed my hand again, this time pressing down on it and I yelped in pain,

" Kai. That hurts."

He looked around at the calm cafe and took my arm, dragging me to the back,

"What are you doing? What about the customers?" I stated as I was pulled into the back room.

"They can wait." He simply replied, shoving me into a chair.

I just looked at him shocked and watched as he walked over to the cabinet pulling out a first aid kit. Coming back over to me, he squatted down and laid the first aid kit on the floor, clicking it open. Looking back up, he grabbed my hand and all I could do was watch.

"Besides, how are you supposed to make them drinks if your hand is injured."

I sighed, a small smile creeping to my face as he started to treat my wound.

"Jong In." I said and he looked at me.

I just smiled,

"Thanks."

He coughed going back to my hand,

"What are friends for right?"

My smile twitched and I looked down,

"Yeah, friends."

He looked up noticing my sudden change,

"Does it hurt?"

I shook my head,

"No it feels a lot better."

Once he was finished, I smiled jumping out of the chair. He almost fell back from my sudden movement, but I didn't pay head, and walked out,

"Well thanks." I simply stated going back to work.

Walking out from the back, I went back to the espresso machine and when situated, I looked up and a second later, the door opened up again, the dancer walking out. He held a face I couldn't quite take in and I just watched as he simply went back to the cash register. Soon the familiar gingle of the door opening rang, and I looked up as a new customer walked in. As they walked up to the counter, I watched as Jong In immediatly beamed, this time though it didn't seem quite as right.

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"Have a great day. Feel free to come back whenever." I smiled at the last customer, walking to the door and switching the sign from open to close.

Taking a breath, I wiped my forehead, another successful work day. Turning around, I looked up to find the dancer already finsihed cleaning and walking to the back room coming out just as quickly without his uniform and now with a bag in hand.

"Oh, you're already finished?" I asked and he just shrugged,

"Yeah I got to go."

He started around me, and not liking the feeling of this, I reached out grabbing his arm. He stopped turning and looked at me to my hand on his arm,

"Wait." I said unconciously and he looked back up at me,

"Is everything alright? Did, did I do something?"

He just frowned,

"What's going on between you and Suho?"

I tilted my head,

Why this question again?

"Nothing why?"

I watched as he sighed, breaking his arm free from my hand,

"I gotta go." He stated and with that he pushed the door open and walked out.

I just stood there for a second not understanding why he just left so suddenly. Finsihing the cleaning, I placed my apron on the rack and walked back to the front shutting off all the lights. Closing the door and locking it, I made my way to the bus. Once the bus arrived, I jumped on and walked to the back sitting down. As it made it's way, I sighed.

It feels so empty.

I looked around the bus. It felt so different without him here. I was so used to him walking me home after work, that it became just a normal habit, and now that he wasn't here, it felt so....

Wrong.

The bus came to a stop and I got off walking the rest of the way home. Shoving through the door, I walked up stairs and went to my bedroom. Trugging my backpack off, I headed to my desk and quickly went to work on my homework. After what felt like an eternity, I closed my last textbook, yawning in the process. Looking at all the books that laid on my desk, I spotted my journal and just sighed standing up. Turning off the light, I went over to my bed and passed out.

Not in the mood to write.

 

 

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Sehunnie99
#1
This story was amazing...... T^T so sad yet so good......
mylovelywookie #2
Chapter 15: Wah. It is just a bit sad that he gained friendship when he is about to go blind, but nonetheless, good and lovely.
rizzmore
#3
Chapter 15: So touching. This is love. Thankyou for let us know this beautiful story, thankyou
tokyboboy #4
Chapter 15: I swear it's like I was watching a movie
And the end it's so perfect and emotional because soo's gonna be blind ㅠㅠ
Kaisoo is live
I really love your story it's beautiful and I'm sad it ended ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
Thank you authornim
winternoona
#5
Chapter 15: My feelings.. Ahhhhh.. I'm sooooo sad it ended.. :(
This story is so beautiful.. I can relate though I have a friend who has glaucoma and she said that she does not want us to pity her.. That its not right that we say that it says its gonna be alright coz we will never know how it will feel.. I guess she's right.. And I can understand her more by reading your fic.. :)

Thank you authornim!!!!
BookofDefense
#6
This story was amazing!! So many feels!!! I loved it!! ^________^ <3 <3 <3
Marooshka
#7
It's soooooooooo amazing. U made me cry alot. But it's been a wonderful story and I thank u for writing it ^-^ I loved it soooooooo much :)
taking-tea-with-kpop
#8
Chapter 15: Gorgeous! I loved it!
kawaiihope #9
THIS WAS SOO GOOD. GOD BLESS YOU