“wake up sweet heart you have school” you heard your mom saying and trying to wake you up “I’m tired..” you whispered tiredly “but you have to go its your last year honey” “I know” you whispered and coughed “omo… do you have a fever?” “I don’t know…” you sat on your bed, she putted her hand on your forehead and gasped “omoo you’re hot” she checked your neck “your neck is hot also it’s a fever! You’re not going to school or to l.joe again” she went to bring some medicines “mom..” you coughed, mom came with the medicines and breakfast “eat your breakfast first so you can take your medicines” “I don’t want to eat” you said in a low voice because you can’t talk a lot “sweet heart look at you.. its not good for you to do all of these so just eat quickly, I’m going to do breakfast for myungsoo”

School

“byunghyun” mr.kim was taking the attendance “he didn’t come today” tiffany replied “is he sick or something?” “he’s broken” she smirked “I’m going to call his parents later now let’s start with our lesson” *I’m regretting it now* kai thought

“did you see l.joe’s face when he was mad?” changjo said “yeah he was pretty angry at her but why?” c.a.p was confused because he can say that he loved you more than anyone in this world “do you know why jiyeon?” chunji asked “no… _______ didn’t answer my calls last night and I’m worried about her” “I’m worried about l.joe.. we know when he can’t control his feelings what he do..” “just drinking all night” they nodded and sighed

l.joe

he heard his phone ringing it was from his father “byunghyun… why on earth you didn’t go to school today?” “because I’m sick” “CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE BEFORE I CHANGE YOUR ADDRESS” *he means he will take the apartment* “but dad I’m really sick I’m not lying” he heard his dad sighing “just this time byunghyun” “okay..” “and I told you to take care of yourself” “I’ll take care by my own” then they hanged up

“because I have no one to take care of me..” he sighed and went to drink another beer.

You came to school the next day but you didn’t see l.joe

“I hope he’s fine now” you held your books to your chest and headed to your locker, you saw kai heading towards you “don’t you ever talk to me again” your shoulder pumped into his shoulder “I want to explain what’s happening!” “THERE’S NOTHING TO EXPLAIN” you shouted “but its unfair to me” kai wants his friendship back “and do you think this all is fair to me?” tears walled to your eyes because this is just too much to handle “I know its unfair and I know you want to punch me in the face but listen to me” “I don’t want to see you again” you headed to your locker again and he sighed while watching you walking away “I lost her..”

 *I need to talk to tiffany* and the mention of her she appeared from nowhere “well well well… see who’s here the breaker and the cheater and the liar, my oppa trusted you a lot you made him blind” you ignored her because you were putting your books inside your locker “I don’t know how he liked a like you tsk tsk tsk, poor hi..” you didn’t let her complete her btichy words and pushed her hard, she pumped into the lockers behind her “what did you just do?” she hissed and pushed you harder to the lockers but you couldn’t take the pain that hit your back so you fell on the floor “!! Your place is under my shoes” she was about to kick your stomach but kai hugged you “KAI!!! Do you want me to kick you?” “I don’t care” he hugged you tighter “what’s going on?” Mrs.Jung was watching you all “______ just tired she hit her back by mistake and fell on the ground” tiffany said that excuse “are you ok ______?” Mrs.jung asked but you were crying without knowing, you didn’t know what to say *am I ok?* you asked yourself *I’m stronger than that but I can’t…* you thought “can you walk?” mrs.jung asked “yeah..” you whipped your tears and stood up “thank you kai” you whispered “I just want to say I’m sorry” he said to you, you didn’t reply and looked down “see you later..” you walked away *did she forgive me?* he smiled to himself

You spent your day with jiyeon but you didn’t see teen top, she said that l.joe didn’t pick up their phones and didn’t allow them to come to his apartment, they started to worry.

After school you ate your lunch because of your medicine, yes still you have fever but you didn’t skip school today “here’s your medicine” your mom handed it to you “take care of yourself _____-aah” she your hair “don’t worry mom” you took your medicine and remembered what jiyeon said earlier *I just need to explain everything to him and check on him* you thought “mom..” you called her “yes dear” “can I go to l.joe?” “NO” she shouted “but mom..” “I said no enough _____” “mom” you sighed “go to your room” she just said that “fine! But don’t check on me because I want to sleep plus don’t I’m taking my medicine so don’t come and check on me, I want to take a long nap” “just go to your room young lady” you took your medicine and putted in your bag then headed to your room

“what should I do now?” you really wanted to go to l.joe because you’re going to be crazy worrying about him “what if he was sick or anything happened to him?” you’re now thinking about bad things happening to him “I should go” you nodded to yourself and opened your window “how am I going to jump from here?” you looked down “I will try” you slowly get down but you slipped and fell on the ground “I’m fine” you whispered “that was close” you stood up and took your bag “I’m coming byunghyun”

When you arrived his apartment you saw a pizza deliver on his door so you thought about something “excuse me! I ordered it and this is my apartment” you gave him money “give it to me” he handed you the pizza and walked off, *ok next step* you knocked on the door “pizza” you said and when he opened the door you quickly stepped inside his apartment putting the pizza on the table “what are you doing here?” he glared at you, seriously you were scared because you saw all beer bottles and the smell of his apartment since the party, you stared at him, he was broken you can read his eyes saying ‘I don’t deserve it’   “byunghyun” “I TOLD YOU DO NOT CALL ME BY THAT NAME AGAIN” he shouted and coughed “are you ok?” you putted your hand on his forehead but he slapped your hand “I’M FINE” he shouted again and sat in the sofa coughing “no.. no you’re not fine at all” “and why do you even care if I’m fine or not? Its not your business anymore” he’s breaking your innocent heart by saying that, since you brought your bag with all medicines inside you already prepared for it, so you took out the thermometer “say AAA” you wanted to check his temperature “why would I sa….” You shove it in his mouth even if it was funny but no one laughed no one teased no one looked at the other.

You took it from his mouth and it was 39oC “byunghyun… we should take you to a hospital” “I wont go” “then eat your pizza” you stood up to bring the pizza from him *why do you care about me after I kicked you out?* he thought “eat” you opened the pizza but he looked at you “what?” you looked at him “nothing..” he ate his pizza “you wonder why I’m doing this right?” he nodded “do you trust me?” he didn’t say anything and just chewed his pizza “I don’t think so” you played with your fingers you were broken because l.joe don’t trust you and he thinks that the messages were true

“can I explain?” you asked and he shook his head “as you like” you said while taking the medicines from bag, tears walled to your eyes again but you don’t want to cry again *you’re strong you’re strong don’t cry* you thought “l.joe…” *I’m calling him l.joe again* *It sounds strange hearing her calling me l.joe again..* he thought “I know you will reject the idea but i don’t want you to die because of this fever” you said handing him the medicine “so please drink it” you handed him water also “take care of yourself l.joe!” you grabbed your bag to leave, “but because you’re dump for not realizing that the person who gave you my phone that day was tiffany!! You’re dump for not realizing that she sent those messages because I never say baby to anyone! But thank you for not trusting me L.JOE” he was speechless, no words came to his mouth *why god didn’t give me a brain to think?* he thought “______” he shouted but you already left “aish” he opened the door to follow you when he found you walking and whipping your tears he ran to you and back hugged you

“I’m sorry..” he whispered, you didn’t reply and looked away trying to stop crying “I’m so dump i…” he tighten his grip “I’m speechless” you tried to remove his arms from your waist but you couldn’t “don’t leave me” he sobbed a little “I lost them all and I don’t want to lose you also” he removed his arms from your waist and looked down he don’t want you to see his tears “I’m stupid dump everything! Please hit me” he grabbed your hand and placed it on his chest “hit me” you hit him once, twice, third, fourth and the fifth was hard, you sobbed “hit me more take all your anger on me” he sobbed but you covered your mouth because you were crying hard and sobbing “do you trust me now?” you said while sobbing “i.. do trust you” he said “you just said you don’t” “I DIDN’T” he shouted you looked away “but you didn’t reply” you said and tried to stop crying *I can’t watch you crying because of me _____ stop it* he hugged you to his chest and placed his chin on your head “I trust you believe me!” he your hair “I’m sorry! I mean it from all my heart so stop  crying babe” you missed hearing him calling you babe, even if it was for only one day, you both loved each other a lot, he kissed your head “I won’t break your heart again” he said and patted your back

You pulled from him “aigoo still crying?” he said and whipped your tears away “my baby” he hugged you again and laughed “I’m not a baby” you smiled