“I should the one who’s nagging not you.” I pouted.

He was laughing at me and patted my head, who was pouting when suddenly,

“EHEM!” someone’s voice come up, made me jump in shock. We both stand up immediately. 

It’s Yunho. He looked at both of us. Luckly, no hold hands. Just patting.

You know I’m not ready yet to let him know. And I wish he was the last one to know, okay even I know it’d hurt or make me feeling guilty in the last then tell him but now he's standing there, looking at us like he was a police and we both were victims. Okay correction not looking but glaring.

“I was just searching for you because I wanna tell you about what Mom just said on the phone a while ago, because you weren’t in your room so I guess you were somewhere else and going to ask the boys to help me to find you, when they just realized someone just gone too.”

We gulped.

“Nah, now both of you should explain every single thing I saw in detail I guess.” He smirked, good he’s smirking. It made everything gone worse.

“Who wanna start? Yoochun? Jihye? Or should I make a decision from what I saw that you both...”

“Dating. Yeah, we are.” Yoochun proudly said as he held my hand, interlace my finger in every space of his each fingers tightly.

My eyes widened, as big as a bowl. Yunho too. I looked at him, our hands and Yunho. My heart was beating super fast like in minutes it’ll immediately jumping out of its place leaving me life-less. Is it have to be this soon? Everything? Suddenly have a boyfriend tried to hide it, then suddenly my brother there to watch everything and caught us in action?

Yunho tried to calming him self, but I guess he can’t. Still no sound. He just tried to keep on breathing and mouthing to himself. Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale. I can see his mouth keep saying those words.

“YOU BOTH WHAT?” Finally he caught three words to come up.

Yoochun still keep calm he holds my hand tighter, “We’re dating, Yunho.” He wasn’t using the honorifics.

“...........but.....dat...tt.....tt....ii...nn..gggg.....” Yunho shuttered.

I’m feeling guilty for my brother, why does he feel that shock just because me dating his best friend for years? I look at Yoochun, I smiled, letting go of his hand and go approaching Yunho, I smiled at him, sneaked my hand around his arm.

“Common oppa. Don’t be to much. I’m not going to marry soon or something. Just dating with your best friend. You're not okay? Is it wrong?” I asked him. Feeling wrong it's actually wrong dating him. I'm not even sure with my words.

“Nothing wrong? Right nothing wrong...... It's all wrong, I'm okay with the fact you're dating my best friend, Just...”

“Just? Just what?”

“I just can’t believe my little sister has a crush now. She’s now grew up. Being cute. Loving someone. Being loved. And more.” He said. "And more? Do you know who am I? Who are you? Who are him?"

I smiled. Letiing go his arm. “Don’t be too much. I’m almost 20. I’m not a teenager anymore. And yeah I know who are you, who is he and who I am.”

“Don’t say you can give your sweet, caring and cute little sister to others? Even me?” Yoochun added as his hand hugs around my neck.

Yunho smiled. “You’re my bestfriend for years already. I know who you really are. I know how matture you are. And I know how’s my little sister. She won’t choose the wrong person. But it's about who are we, Yoochun. We're not even a normal person. We're different because we're DBSK."

Yoochun smiled, blank smile. "I know who I am. I know who she is. And I know we are DBSK. I know everything.  And I know it's kind of wrong about this. But what just happens well I just can't stop this. I will just fight for this right now, and I hope there's nothing weird will happens, but don't worry hyung. I will taking care of your sister more than I'm taking care of my self you know me, right?"

Again I smiled at his words. “Thankyou oppa Thankyou very much and Yunho-oppa, thankyou for you two. Yeah, hope everything is alright.” I said, I feel my eyes already watery right now.

•••

They happily chit-chat. I watch every single thing from away. Silently.

I don’t know why I should feeling like this. I should be happy for them. Not feeling like this.

I sighed. Did I jealous of him cause he got her? Did I love her?

I still can’t believe the fact. They’re dating. Okay I’ve thought about it before but now. Even Yunho looks happy for them. Why can’t I?

I can’t even understand my own feeling. I’m feeling rejected. By someone I don’t know.

I just understand something. It’s jealous over someone.

I guess. I’m in love with Jihye. Again, I guess.

Just a short update, sorry I'm super busy yesterday and today so can't updating much T.T I'm sorry I will updating more tomorrow! Thankyou for reading and all the support ;D