I am no longer a girl.

I can stand for myself.

Can I?

For the last several years, it was all about being warm and sweet.

It was all about being a Girls' Generation member.

It was all about being Choi Sooyoung's bestfriend.

Choi Sooyoung's secret lover.

I feared myself more than anything else.

I feared myself more than the thought of losing Sooyoung.

And now that I am not part of Girls' Generation,

 I fear myself; I fear everything.

What's worse is I still miss them.

A lot.

END.