It’s been three weeks since Jay hasn’t showed up in class lately, even if he did show up it’s only for a few periods and then he leaves early. Must be something very important but what could it be? One time I wanted to ask Jay about it he didn’t answer, instead he just left in a hurry. Not sure if he’s really in a rush or he doesn’t want to talk to me.

Today I decided to ask him again. When I was almost near Jay, Nichkhun stopped me just as before I could say a word.

“Just let him go” Khun said

“Why?” I asked him with a shocked expression

“Haven’t you heard? Jay is going to Seattle in a few months because he got a scholarship. He’s been called by the principal lately because they’re making arrangements for him” I was frozen. Didn’t know the truth can be as painful as this.

“But why he didn’t tell me? Did he tell you about it?” I asked Nichkhun

“He didn’t. Probably he didn’t want you to get upset or afraid if he’s gone” Khun answered. I feel so sad if Jay leaves because I can’t imagine what it would be like if I have to be separated with him, I like…Wait no, scratch that. I love how we spend time together and how his smile is like the bright sunshine after a rainy day. My days in school would be very miserable without Jay around, how many tears I have to shed when he leaves? How long do I have to wait until he comes back again? And how can I go on if there’s nobody that can catch me when I fall? The worst of all is how can I deal with Taecyeon? Because ever since I spend time with Jay, Taecyeon never bothered me. If there’s no Jay then Taecyeon might go after me again.

“Jay” I called him

“Ah, Yoon Mi. What’s wrong? Did I miss anything when I’m gone?” Jay asked me

“You didn’t miss a lot, about your trip to Seattle…”

“What about it?” Jay cut me off mid-sentence

“I was wondering if you’ll tell me and the whole class the date of your departure” I told him

“Yeah, you really should throw a farewell party around a week before you go” Khun added

“Of course I’m going to throw a farewell party with the whole class, but for my departure I’m sorry I can’t reveal it to you at the moment” Jay explained as we head towards our class. What a painful truth that I had to accept, even during my way home my mom kept questioning what’s wrong with me.

“Are you alright, dear?” My mom asked while she is driving

“Nothing mom” I answered

“Really? There’s gotta be something wrong with you; you don’t look too good lately. Are you sick?” I shook my head in response

“I got it! You must be hungry, right?” My mom guessed, again, I told her it’s not the answer

“Then what is it?” She asked

“It’s Jay, mom”

“What about him? Did you guys fight? I thought you were friends” My mom gasped

“No, I’m just sad because he’s going to leave soon” I told her while keeping my head down

“He’s leaving? Where is he going?” My mom asked me again however from her tone it sounds like as if she considers Jay like her own son

“He’s going to Seattle in a few months. I’m afraid if I’ll never get to see him again” I sighed

“It’s alright, dear. You can still talk to him right? Probably he’ll return here during the holidays. Just don’t think about it too much” My mom tried to comfort me on our way home, I bet she’s right. It doesn’t mean that he’ll be away forever; at least I know he’ll be back. The most important thing is I should keep calm and wait for him; I try to turn all of the memories we had together as something that drives me whenever I feel down. And as time goes by, I started to gradually move on from Jay without really forgetting about him. What I’m doing is trying to accept the bitter truth because I had to deal with it, it’s going to happen anyways.

A/N : Sorry for the extremely short update, I'm getting a bit messed up lately @_@