Karam stared out the window. He was glad that it was Friday and that meant he has the weekend to take care of his sick brother.

Why didn't he notice it before? Had he been spending too much of his attention on Seungho that he overlooked that his brother wasn't feeling well for the past few days? He shook his head. Better not step on dangerous grounds. There was no reason playing "What If..."

Slowly, Changmin's eyes blinked open. "Hyung," he called with his hoarse voice.

Karam turned to him. "Hey, baby."

“Hyung, what’s the time now?” Changmin asked softly, trying to sit up.

“It’s almost twelve.” Karam noticed the sweat on Changmin's forehead and flushed cheeks. "Time for a temperature check." Karam grabbed the thermometer from the bedside table and placed it in Changmin's ear. Beep!

"95.5, " Karam whispered. "Getting better, baby." He smiled. “Just wait for a while, hyung is going to bring your lunch. Hyung already prepared porridge for baby. We'll eat together, okay?” Changmin nodded.

Both of them had their porridge in the room. They had nearly finished their meals when the doorbell rang.

“It’s must be Seungho. He said he was coming over during lunch break," Karam said getting up. “Finish your porridge. Hyung will be back.”

Changmin felt a pang in his chest at hearing Seungho’s name.

Slowly he slid off the bed and went outside of his room. He tried not to make any noise. From upstairs, it was just the right time, that he could see Seungho was holding Karam’s hands and pulling him onto his chest. Seungho put his hand behind Karam’s neck and pulled him into a kiss.

He felt like dying every time he saw them together acting all cute. Why couldn't that be him? Why did he have to lose him so quickly? it just wasn't fair to him.

Changmin felt angry when his brother was with someone, like Seungho, who wasn't him. It felt wrong to him that Seungho was the one hugging Karam, kissing him, holding him. He wanted to do all those things, too. He did before and he would do it again in a heartbeat.

He wanted them to get back together. He wanted to be able to hold his brother, kiss his brother, hug his brother, just be with his brother.

Changmin wondered if they'd ever had . They couldn't be having . That was something that he and his hyung once promised that they would never do before they were married.

Changmin felt sick as he looked at the happy couple. He went back to his room and decided to take a long bath. Once in the bathroom, he removed his clothes and got under a cold shower again. The water felt so cold but he needed it.

And yet. He still felt his body burning. Burning with desire to have his brother as his own. He wanted to be his boyfriend. He wanted to beat the other guys to him.

He realized he was jealous. Jealous of the other guy who could intimately hug his hyung.

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Changmin twisted and turned in his bed. He couldn't make his eyes close.

"Hyung, I can't sleep. Can I stay here for a while?" He asked when he entered Karam's room.

"Of course," Karam replied.

Changmin got onto the bed,