Chanyeol’s body stiffened upon hearing what Baekhyun said.

He could felt the perspiration in his palms.

“I…”

Chanyeol could not bring himself to say it out.

“What? Go on.”

Baekhyun encouraged as he scooted closer to Chanyeol.

Chanyeol felt as if there was a knot in his throat and tears had gradually welled up in his eyes.

Damn, why did I even agree to say it?

Chanyeol thought to himself.

He turned his head away.

Baekhyun knew that Chanyeol was not willing to reveal his secret out.

“Fine. I shouldn't expect much from a person that I barely knew.”

Baekhyun gave up and smiled sadly as he stared at the photograph in his hands.

Once bitten, twice shy.

Why didn’t he learn his lesson yet?

How can he believe a person that he barely knew?

Out of anger, Baekhyun suddenly tore the photograph into pieces.

The sudden actions had startled Chanyeol.

He looked up and to his surprise, he saw the redness of Baekhyun’s eyes with tears trekking down his cheeks.

“Baekhyun…

Chanyeol called out trying to touch Baekhyun’s arms.

“Back off.”

Baekhyun said as he flinched.

He glared at Chanyeol with tears in his eyes.

I must not cry.

Baekhyun thought, trying his best to hold back his tears.

He felt betrayed.

Chanyeol wouldn’t say his secret.

Baekhyun thought to himself as he saw the sad expression on Chanyeol’s face.

“I…. I just can’t bring myself to tell you…”

Chanyeol explained.

He knew he had promised to say it.

“Then? Hah.”

Baekhyun laughed.

“I’ve should have learned my lesson. Why am I so stupid?”

Baekhyun crouched to the ground and brought his knees closer to his chest.

“Why am I so naïve? I should have known…”

“No. No.”

Chanyeol squatted down, reaching to Baekhyun’s eye level.

“I’m sorry. Please don’t cry.”

Chanyeol went forward and hugged Baekhyun tightly.

Chanyeol did not know why his heart cringed as he saw Baekhyun cried.

He was confused and yet was curious why he felt that way.

He could not deny that he had an unusual attraction towards Baekhyun and when Baekhyun revealed that he was a gay just now, Chanyeol felt relief.

“Okay, I’m going to say it right now.”

Chanyeol whispered into Baekhyun’s ears as Baekhyun calmed down.

Baekhyun nodded his head as his head was still buried in between his knees.

He was a bit surprised that Chanyeol hugged him tightly and he felt as if his heart was about to explode. His heart was beating fast. Baekhyun knew that his ears must have become red.

“I’ll only say it once.”

Chanyeol whispered again, sadly.

Baekhyun sat still on the ground, waiting for the next sentence that Chanyeol was going to say.

“I have a high chance of dying.”

Chanyeol whispered, as he held on to Baekhyun tighter.

“Huh?”

Baekhyun lifted his head.

“Ugh.”

Chanyeol groaned as he leaned backwards, holding onto his chin.

“Sorry, sorry.”

Baekhyun apologized as he touched Chanyeol’s chin.

Chanyeol looked at him with his eyes wide open.

Baekhyun was near him. Very near.

The milky white skin was tempting him, as if telling him to plant a kiss on it.

The beautiful lips were just in front of him.

Pink.

Chanyeol held back his breath.

Those plump, pouty lips.

He felt his heart racing fast.

“Are you alright?”

Baekhyun asked as his eyes fixated on to Chanyeol’s chin, titling it up, reaching to his eye level.

He did not know that his actions had made Chanyeol excited.

Just as he looked up, all Baekhyun could see was the lips of Chanyeol.

Chanyeol was looking up at the ceiling.

Damn.
Chanyeol cursed.

The next moment he knew, those lips that he desired had pressed on his lips.

Chanyeol looked down with his eyes side opened.

Baekhyun was kissing him, with his eyes closed.

Chanyeol could felt those arms sliding up, towards the back of his neck.

He knew Baekhyun was pushing him closer to Baekhyun.

Chanyeol lips parted as Baekhyun started his bottom lips.

He could not help but to have his hands at the back of Baaekhyun.

He pulled Baekhyun and had him in between his legs.

Baekhyun’s lips tasted sweet.

That was Chanyeol knew as he responded back the kiss.

Baekhyun’s tongue entered the hot cavern of Chanyeol’s mouth, teasing every corner.

Baekhyun knew that there was no turning back as soon as he had his hands slided beneath Chanyeol’s shirt.

He forced himself to break free from the kiss and he was glad at what he saw.

The flustered Chanyeol with the swollen lips.

Both of them were panting.

Baekhyun just looked at Chanyeol, as if waiting for the permission for Chanyeol to allow him to continue.

But all Chanyeol did was staring right back at him.

Baekhyun frowned.

That was not what he wanted.

“I said, I have a high chance of dying.”

Chanyeol knew that he was ruining the mood but he knew that he had to say it out.

Baekhyun glared back at him.

Chanyeol brought him closer and had Baekhyun to sit on his lap.

He had his arms around Baekhyun and pushed Baekhyun’s head near his chest.

“Can you hear this?”

Chanyeol asked.

Baekhyun nodded.

“It will stop beating, eventually.”

Chanyeol said as he sighed.

“My red blood cells are weird. How do I explain this to you?”

Chanyeol sighed again.

“Many of the transplant had failed and I’m tired of having any expectations towards the surgery.”

Chanyeol continued as he had his fingers running through Baekhyun’s hair.

“But…”

Baekhyun wanted to speak but Chanyeol hushed him.

“Just stay like this. Please.”

Chanyeol pleaded.

Chanyeol really liked the atmosphere at that moment.

He did not want it to go away.

“Please.”

Chanyeol pleaded as he nuzzled against the neck of Baekhyun’s.

Baekhyun could felt the breath against the neck and slowly he could feel that Chanyeol was trembling.

Then he felt the wetness against his skin.

“Baekhyun ah…”

Chanyeol sobbed quietly, burying his face against the neck of Baekhyun.

Baekhyun placed his hands on the Chanyeol’s back and patted.

He did not know what to say.

Those words were piercing through his heart.

Those words spoke of what Chanyeol called "secret".

Those words which he held back just now.

Baekhyun regretted.

All he knew was he should just let Chanyeol cry,

cry all the sadness away.

May be Chanyeol would feel better.

And may be,

himself too.