There's a little story behind this poem. this was based of um, fanfic, yes. n yes, cheesy, as heck. lol. about a guardian angel who fell in love with the girl who was in love with the boy he's looking after(ok, the focus of the story was the girl...i just worded it so that everything could fit in one sentence), so a reader wrote a poem in response to the fic from one of the characters pov...and since i was so touched by her response and attention, i replied to her poem with another poem from diff pov, written almost spontaneously without much thinking/looking at the tenses/grammar...argh...can we stop talking the grammar already? ><...i at it. fine.

i don't even know if the title should be,,,forget it...i hate grammar

so, if we're talking poetry style/formats, i guess this is somewhat the shallow/lame ver of Dramatic Monologue?

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Angels live beautifully
Angels sprinkle joy on Earth
Angels don't cry
Angels are perfect
Well...
i'm no angel, then
i'm no Mr. Perfect
no matter how much i tried to be
no matter how much i wanted to be

From the beginning till the end of time
i know that only he remains the first
i will always be the second
i will always only be his shadow
a shadow who only lived for him
until you appeared
you made me realize
a smiley shadow is not what i long to be
a thousand wonders in paradise is nothing
compared to the one thing forbidden
love.

Still...
i wouldn't mind
being his replacement
as long as i could see you smile

i'm willing to lose my wings
i'm willing to be forbidden from paradise
i'm not afraid to be hurt
for,
before i knew
i fell in love with you
a feeling more beautiful than Eden's serenade
a feeling more painful than tortured souls in hell
blissful suffering