A/N: The song for you - First Love by Utada Hikaru | After listening and reading the lyrics to all the songs in xoxo, I’m sorry to say but Don’t Go is not my favourite song, it’s Baby Don’t Cry. | I don't feel like formatting the story much anymore, I don't know what was I thnking when I started it lololol.

*Must Read: The reason why Baekhyun was chosen to be the lead. | Not really a must but I hope you do.

“The first time we met face to face was in this room,
this spot, I hope you remember.”

“I do,” Baekhyun said. His eyes were glued on me as I spoke,
giving me his full attention.

“I still remember you wanted to practise the piano,
and there I was blocking your way.”

“What exactly were you doing anyway?”

My eyes started to look all around the room,
I just couldn’t look at Baekhyun as I told him my story.

“I wanted to listen to the sound of piano.
That day was my first day training in SM.
And I miss someone terribly. How I wished I had him with me.”

“Who exactly is he?”

“Someone very important. I met him on the first year I came to Korea,
which wasn’t too long ago. He wasn’t Korean too,
so we got along well being the foreigners in class.
Along with two other girls, the four of us became best friends.
I liked the guy, and the other two girls know it too.”

I stopped to gather my thoughts.
I had so much to tell,
yet no one has ever paused their lives momentarily to listen,
but Baekhyun kept silent even as I didn’t go on.

Then I continued, “That boy, he’s the sweetest boy I’ve met after you.
He stayed up all night talking on the phone with me when I fought with my parents,
he accompanied me walking around outside till the sun sets
because I didn’t want to go home, and he baked cookies for me on my birthday.”

“So I’m sweeter than him, right?” Baekhyun laughed.

I smiled too, but the smile deceased the moment I carried on.
“My favourite thing about him was that he knew how to play the piano.
One of the other girls, she could play the piano too.
Once after I heard that girl play the piano,
I went home to ask my parents if I could learn the piano too.
I got rejected flat and even gotten a whole evening of scolding.
I told them about it, and obviously they couldn’t do anything about it.
That day after school, I still remembered clearly, he dragged me to the school’s hall.
The hall was empty before we arrived.
Then, he got me to go over to the piano.
I never knew he knew how to play the piano,
until he sat down and started to play a song.
He told me that he would play the piano for me when I want to hear the sound of piano.
And from that day on, he really stayed back almost every day to play it for me.”

“Romantic guy…”

I smiled again hearing Baekhyun praise him, because it meant I have good taste.

“That boy, was he your first boyfriend?”

“Boyfriend? I wish he was.”

“You mean, you guys just liked each other and never got together?”

I pursed my lips for a while and thought about whether I should tell him the rest of the story.

“If you don’t feel like going on, it’s alright. Anyway you’re not feeling very well.”

It was Baekhyun’s care and concern that made me decided to be totally honest with him.

“You were from the same school as me right?
On the graduation day, everyone wanted to take photos with all their friends.
And some romantic souls confessed to the girls they never dared to in the past.
I was wondering if I should do the same,
and the piano girl told me I should.
I went to look for him all over the celebration grounds,
and I finally found him. I found him near the row of lockers nearest to the school’s office.
He was there, there with the other girl in our clique. The girl who I think of as my best friend.
The two of them were just done making out, and she had her arms wrapped around his shoulders.
I was furious at that moment, in fact, my blood was boiling! I was so mad.
I told her that I liked him, and she went to date him.
As I was about to go over, I heard him say,
‘We’ll go celebrate our 5^th month together tonight, alright?
Meanwhile, I hope that kiss is able to keep your battery charged till then!’ Then I…
I…”

I found myself unable to go on. Tears started to well my eyes,
and Baekhyun immediately ran for the boxes of tissues we placed
at the corner of that room for us to wipe our sweat.
The opened box was empty and he threw it on the ground.
Hastily, he picked up a new box and wanted to open it,
but because he was in a rush he couldn’t get it done right.

“Ugh! Give me a moment!” Baekhyun said.

I took a deep breath and carried on, I just wanted to finish the story as soon as I could.

“Then I turned around and walked away. He likes her so much!
How could I ever separate them?
She wasn’t wrong, love was. No one can stop it when it comes.
Just like how I couldn’t stop mine when it came!”

I burst into a sobbing fit and Baekhyun tossed that box he was trying to open aside and ran back to my side. 
He hugged me tight and kept telling me to not cry.
But how could I when I just thought back on that day?
That day, that scene remained vivid in my mind even after so long,
just that I didn’t think about it.

“It’s alright, it’s all over now, right? Don’t cry over it.”

“How can I not?! Being in SM just reminds me of him more and more! And talking to you too!”

Baekhyun then raged.
“I don’t care if it was a past promise made between you two or what,
you are here alone now, why are you still thinking of him?!
You drew the relation yourself!
Being in SM, becoming a trainee, debuting soon, all these are new chapters of your life!
He is just a memory and the past now!
You were given this chance to enter SM to start all over again.
And this is your chance to prove your worth,
make him regret not choosing you!”

“You won’t understand! Him and I—”

“I won’t understand?
You don’t even know what I was like before debut!
I also have someone I can’t forget, even after dating someone else!
I got myself into SM just to prove my worth to her and I succeeded!
Here you are, in SM because of me.
You told me I was your motivation to be here, you told me you admired me.
Why aren’t you thinking of me instead?!”

“Why should I be?!
You only became important to me after I knew you personally.
Before that, you were just a role model!”

Baekhyun released me and we both looked at each other.
It was his turn to have his eyes filled with tears.

“But you meant so much to me.”