A while after the exo boys got comfortable with mingling with us girls, 
Baekhyun came over to me.

He asked,
“May I borrow you from the crowd?”

I wanted to reject him, but Jinchan had to in.

“Sure! Take her!
Take the useless maknae.”

“Hey!” I said and elbowed Jinchan.
Jinchan laughed and pushed me to Baekhyun.
I held onto Baekhyun to prevent myself from falling down.
Baekhyun grabbed my wrist and pulled me away from the crowd.

I was slightly drunk
(I really didn’t know the sunbae-s could drink),
and I could feel myself burning.
I couldn’t take alcohol, I didn’t know how to!
But I didn’t want to turn sunbae-s down.
Walking straight became tough for me too
and before we reached our destination,
I tripped over myself. I know, it was really stupid,
but I was half drunk, so forgive me?

Thankfully Baekhyun was holding onto me.
He pulled me up and asked, “Are you alright?”

“I’m fine.”

“Walk properly!”

“I wish I could. I’m slightly drunk.”

“But we’re not there yet!”

“Where exactly do you want me to go?”

Baekhyun just smiled at me.
He then squatted down in front of me.

“What are you doing?”

“Get up. Who knows how long you would take just to walk to the music room.”

“I’m fine, I can walk on my own.”
I said and walked ahead of Baekhyun.
The sudden quick movement made me dizzy
and I leaned against the wall.
“I really am drunk…” I mumbled to myself.

Baekhyun then came over and scooped me up with his both arms.
He looked so tiny and his arms seem fat,
but he was able to lift me up so easily.
He has muscles hidden underneath.

“Yah! What are you doing?!”

“You forced me into resorting to this!”

“Put me down! People might see!”

“Everyone’s gone other than the staff, we’re safe.”

“The staff might—“

“They won’t! Stop worrying and just relax.”

I bit my lower lip and looked at his face as he walked.
Then I noticed that he was doing the same thing too,
biting his lips. I stopped biting mine,
strangely feeling shy from doing the same thing as him.
I had no idea why I felt that way.
Was I falling for him?
I doubted that. I only saw him as a friend,
and nothing more. But the way he was treating me
was way over the border of friendship.
Maybe that was the reason why I was feeling shy.
Or it might be the alcohol.

We reached the music room and he placed me down.
He then grabbed my wrist again and pulled me over to the piano.
He made me sit down and he squeezed up the chair with me.

“What do you want to do?”

“You’re a fan of exo right? Let me play you a song in our upcoming album.”

“No! I want to wait for the release date.”

“It’s all way in June.”

“Oh… I don’t think I can wait that long.”

Baekhyun smiled and started playing the piano.

“What’s the title of this song?”

“Butterfly girl. I think you’ll like this song.”

I smiled, “Butterfly?”

Baekhyun grinned and said,
“I’m slowing down the tempo. I don’t really know this piece well yet.”

“Sure.”

“Your small wing movements bring my attraction to you
Your hand gestures seem like you’re telling me to follow you
Your earnest eyes and your silent stories whirled together that night.”

I smiled hearing his voice.
It was really nice and calm. Smooth and gentle.

“I lost myself and my one and soul in your deep image
Completely drunk in your body movements that I forgot to even breathe
You sit lightly like a waltz and I can’t take my eyes off you
My eyes naturally follow you with each step you take.”

I was really starting to enjoy myself when Baekhyun stopped.

“Why did you stop?”

“This song reminds me of you a lot.”

I raised an eyebrow. “Me? Why?”

“You don’t show yourself much.
You just do things people ask you to,
or things that benefits others.
You give me this weak and mysterious feeling,
making me want to protect and know you.”

I smiled shyly and looked at the piano.
I couldn’t tell what Baekhyun was trying to convey.
I asked myself whether Baekhyun liked me, but then I thought that it wasn’t possible.

“That’s why you asked me to see you as an older brother?”

“I asked you to see me as an older brother?”

“Didn’t you? You told me to call you ‘oppa’ right?
And ‘oppa’ is how girls address their older brother right?”

Baekhyun laughed and said,
“How long have you been in Korea?!
You’re so silly that I feel like punching you so badly.”

I sulked. “Sorry.”

“Why are you apologising now?”

“For being silly…”

Baekhyun laughed even harder and slapped his forehead. 
Silence then fell between us for a while. 
I was a bit dizzy and felt like going back already.

“Oppa, I feel like going back already.”

“Now?”

“Yea… Must be from the alcohol.”

“Wait, actually there’s something I need to tell you.”

“What is it?”

Baekhyun took a deep breath and said,
“Remember I asked you if you’ve watched our interview in Thailand?”

I nodded and said,
“Yea. I went back to my dorm that day and watched it.
Why?”

“I talked about a special person,
right?”

“Yea. And you haven’t been in contact
with him or her because you’re busy, am I right?”

Baekhyun pursed his lips together, and I noticed it.

“Why? What’s wrong?
What about that person?”

He released them and opened his mouth, but nothing came out.

“You miss the person? You miss him or her, don’t you?
And you want to talk about that person to me, right?”

Baekhyun turned to me.
“What… How did you even think of that?”

“Just a guess. So am I right? I am, right?”

“Somewhat.” Baekhyun said and sighed.
“I not only miss that person. I think of the person a lot.
And there’s no way I can get that person off my mind.
The worst part is I don’t know what that person is thinking.”

“You didn’t contact that person?”

“I did, but that person doesn’t seem to open to me.
And I thought we were close.”

I turned over to him.
He was looking at the piano, at his fingers.
Baekhyun had always been cheery around me,
this was the first time I've ever seen him so serious and sad.

“I hate it when the people I trust don’t trust me.
It makes me feel like as if I’m the only idiot feeling close to the other,
while the other person just sees me as a normal friend.”

I thought for a while and asked,
“Do you think we’re close?”

Without hesitation,
he replied, “Very.”

“Then let me tell you a story.”

Author's Note: 

Congrats exo! Congrats on your first win! 
Though I'm not able to get my xoxo album before my birthday
(only able to get it tomorrow evening), 
I'm really happy that exo won first! 
This is the best birthday gift from exo (lol), ever.
May this win lead to many more! 

Renea xoxo 
(ohmijaaa | ohteefifteen)

P.S. 'Don't Go' has got to be favourite song heehee