~jonghyun mind story~

how may yaers wa it again? 14? 15? wait it was sixteen years. in a few days it will be sixteen years, the day he was born. sixteen years a few months later after that day

we lost him out of sight. that guy got angry at me and key. telling us that we where bad parents. now i'm agreeing with him but back then we where just afraid. when key

got pregnant we got kicked out of our family. we where afraid we couldn't take care of our child. we didn't had a choice but take mr lee's offer. we would have kept contact

if we didn't got into a fight with that guy. when we lost our child key had a breakdown. he got afraid lossing me too. i never left his side. i never cryed because it will hurt

key even more. i had to be strong, for him. after a few months key recoverd slowly. one day i recived a letter. it had pictures of our child. mr lee wroght that he would send

us photo's so we could see him grow up. whene i saw those pictures that was the first time i had cryed. the first time that i feld the depresion that caused keys breakdown.

but i had to keep strong i can't show him this photo it will cause a break down for him. not now i will wait until he was ready. until that day i would sufer alone for him.

~jonghyun P.O.V~

"appa!" "uncle jonghyun!" i heard voices yell. my eyes widen in a second. "what wrong what happend? fire, a kill or did somebody bully you guys." i looked at the middle school

boys. "no nothings wrong with us but what wrong with you? you where crying" chansung said. i fall back on the couch. "god guys you gave me a heartatack. never ever

do that again understand. don't worry i was just thinking about something in the past." i coverd my eyes with one of my arms. sundally i felt a weight on my tummy.

when i pulled my arm a bit away i could see taemin pout. "what wrong taeminie?" i patted his head. "i'm hungry but umma said i couldn't come in the kitchen and i needed

to ask for the ummas if i wanted food." taemin pout was really cute. he gots it from key thats for sure. "where are the bottums then?" 'they went out." chansung said

putting his head on the table. "well i can't make something big or key will kill me. any way have any of you guys drink anything seen you are back?" i stud up after taemin had

climbed of. the 5 students shock no. "come on guys ok what do you all want?" Chansung: "cola" Minho: "the same." Jess and Ryeowook: "lemonade!" taemin was thinking

hard. "taeminie do you want banana milk?" i saw his eyes lighten up. "how come you got banana milk? i thought nobody liked banana milk." "thats because uncle jonghyuns

habit. some how he always buys banana milk. lately he also buys big ones." ryeowook said looking at his work. "ryeowook have you taken you medication yet?"

"yes i had taken it! i telling the true" i heard him say. i hope he did. i walked back with tray with drinks and some small snackes. "this are the only snackes you guys can get.

the bottums going to kill me if i give more." i said putting the stuff down. "why is appa afraid of umma?" taemin asked nibbing at on his chip. "because they are scary if they are angry."

the others agreed. the students went back to there school work and i did my homework. i eyed ryeowook carefully. 'he doesn't look well did he really took his medication?'

i got my answer minutes later. ryeowook stud up and walked a few step, before collapsing. taemin and jessica yelled and minho and chansung panicked. "minho calm

down jess and taeminie. chansung get some stuff." i ordered the the did what they where told. i quickly grabed my phone and dailed a number. a few minutes later

and a docter was standing next to ryeowooks bed. buys calming down the kids the docter came to me. "he going be ok. luckly you where quick he. whene was the last

time he took his medication?" "the last time was in the morning. we didn't got the see him at lunch so i don't know if he took it." the docter shock his hands. "then the last time

was breakfast. it was wors because of not taking his medication for so long." i thanked the docter and let him out. taemin and jessica where sobbing and chansung and minho

where scared a bit and looked worried at me when a enterd the room. "next time see if he takes his medican ok? the shock was worse because he had it only in the

morning." minho and chansung nodded. taeminie and jessica where still sobbing in shock. i went to the kitchen and took a frying pan and some other stuff.

a half a hour later and i made something. "minho can you help me? chansung if taemin and jessica are still sobing bring them to the table." minho entered the kitchen

and his eyes widen at the food. the others widen to eyeing the food. "you made it uncle jonghyun. maby we should check if its not poison." "yah very funny chansung

i have done some cooking class after that time. but key doesn't trhust me anymore in the kitchen." i took a bit showing that it was not poison. i didn't die so the trhusted it.

i took some food on a plate and went up stairs with a box. "ryeowook you have to take you medication now." i sat on the egde of the bed and putted the plate on the

nightstand. "where did the food came from?" "i found someleft overs." i lied. ryeowook nodded before closing his eyes and opening his mouth. "here is the rest.

i'm going down now you now what to do when you want something." i stud up and walked to the door. "o and yeah the food aren't left overs i made it." i saw ryeowook eyes widen

and chuckeling i went down stairs. taemin still handed touch his food. "what wrong taeminie you where hungry. you didn't even touch you banana milk." i looked at

his full glass. "is ryeowook going to be ok?" i smiled softly. "don't worry that boy is sometimes so stuborn that this happens. pleas just eat ok and stop worrying."

taeminie took a bit and then he brighten up. "omo appa this is really good." everybody chuckeld at the cuteness of the youngest. after finishing the food and done

doing the dishes. everybody except ryeowook where in the living room. jessica was lying in the chair sleeping. minho and chansung where sharing the couch sleeping.

and taeminie head fallen a sleep resting his head on my lap. i was watching T.V when the door opend. "we are back." "shhh they are sleeping." i putted a finger infront

of my mouth and then pointed at the others. "what happend. and where is wookie." leeteuk asked looking around. "that stuborn boy didn't take his medicion and got

a atack. the kids got a bit stressed and now have finnaly relaxed." leeteuk nodded before grabbing kangins wrist and went up stairs. key went sitting next to

me resting his head in my shoulder. "o this guy is henry." onew pointed to a guy standing behind him. i raised a hand and waved a bit before resting my arm around

keys shoulder. "we should make something. they are probaly hungry." nichkhun said. "i made them already something." i got glares from the bottums. "you where in

our kitchen." all the bottums said in unsiuon, leeteuk joined in to. "don't worry he didn't burn down the kitchen this time and the food was great." minho said strachting a bit.

"did we wake you up minie?' eunhyuk said walking to his son. minhos looked at eunhyuk before falling his head feel back again. "so tired!" minho yawned. "go back to sleep

i will bring you up." donghae said and took his son bridel-style up. jaebum did the same. "you can put jessica in our bed room onew henry." kangin offered.

henry took jessica and i picked up taeminie bringing him to the room i shared with key. we came back down and the bottums where sitting in the livingroom.

i sat next to key and kissed him deep. "yah guys go do that in you own room." "sorry can't do jaebum taeminie is sleeping there." i smiled devils kissing keys neck

afterwarts. "isn't taemins birthday coming up?" i stoped and looked at nichkhun. "yeah thats right." onew answered. "we should celebrate it." leeteuk said happly.

i took key in a big hug. i was afraid key had to think about the past. "it would be a good idea don't you think jjongie." a relieve left my body. "yeah we should. its is on a saterday."

"what about the water park. they say it will be hot." henry said. "yeah taeminie loves the water parks. you should see his smile." onew dreamed of a bit. "yah onew

now we have to be patient and see it saterday. so mean!" nichkhun winned. jaebum had to laugh and he hugged his lover. "what about presents? what do we get?"

that was a good one. "we have until saterday. lets now worry about dinner." key said stopping the akward scilent. "yeah good idea go bottums make us some food." donghae

teased. everybody agreed. "he we are not slaves." eunhyuk pouted. "papos!" the bottums said at the same time. "i love you too." the top said in chorus hearing the lover laugh.

"ok guys do something good and wake up the kids." key came in with the spatula scary in his hand. "kangin leeteuk asks if you can look if wookie is strong enough

to come down stairs." we all went up and went to the kids. "taeminie are you awake." i heard some sobs. "taeminie why are you crying?" i switch the light on. walking to the bed

i saw taeminie hugging his legs. "is it still about ryeowook don't worry he is going to be fine." taemin shock his head. "what wrong taeminie tell appa the story." he sobed louder

and i went tp hug him quickly. "you know appa. the parents i have now you know, for a quite few years already i have the fealling he isn't me real parents." my eyes widen.

"i don't know why but i just don't fit in." taeminie leaned against me. a patted his head. "don't worry taeminie even if they are not you real parents they still love you."

taeminies body relaxed. "appa can i ask something?" "sure shot out." "the baby on the pictures is that the reason why you where crying. my eyes widen.

"wich photos are you talking about." i asked nerveous. taeminie grabbed some pictures from the nightstand. "ok yeah. that was the reason i was crying. to tell you the true

and don't tell key ok? this child here is the son of me and key." a scilent felled the room. "sixteen years agou we lost sight from him. the people taking

care of him sended some photo's of him once in a whill. whene we lost him key had a breakdown and reciving the first letter key wasn't recoverd fully yet. so i didn't show

him the photos. i only know about this, so keep it a secret ok i have to tell key about it." taeminie nodded and hold out his pink for a pinky swear. i chuckeld and wrapped my pink

around his. "come its dinner time. lets have something to eat. you onew henry and jessica are staying over." taeminie stud up and followed me down stairs where everybody

where sitting around the table. "taeminie you birthday is coming up. how about we go all to the water park?" key asked. a smile apread on taemins face. "really?"

"just to cute. yeah of course." eunhyuk said. we had a great talk and all. every bad thing happend today was soon forgeten. every sad moment where cleared with laughters.

that day is closing up. that day sixteen years ago will be coming. maby that day wil finnaly recorver keys pain. maby that day will finnaly bring a happy family.