a/n: I had actually posted this already last week (?) but as you know, AFF had problems

I'm waiting for the missing files to be retrieved but jotwins0424 told me to post this again so here it is XD

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Chapter 7

Kwangmin’s POV

It’s 6:00 in a Saturday morning but the household was awake because we would be leaving for our winter trip to Gangwon-do. Our family owns a small villa there which is intended for winter trips like this. My parents bought it even before we were born. I’ve been there only once with my uncle. I was supposed to go with my family but as usual, they need to stay with Youngmin for his treatment. My uncle volunteered to accompany me and did his best to give me a fun winter vacation. However, I refused his offers to ski and to do other stuff and just decided to read books the whole time. This will be the very first winter vacation I will have with my family. And I have no freaking idea what to do.

Minwoo, Jungmin-hyung and Hyunseong-hyung were all here too. We’re just lounging in the living room as we wait for the others to finish their preparation. My mom was giving orders to the maids and caretakers while my dad was arranging his paper works that he will be leaving to my kind uncle. Youngmin and Donghyun-hyung are still in Youngmin’s room and I don’t know what the hell’s taking them too long.

 The four of us decided to place our baggage in the van first. After I settled mine, I went inside the vehicle, brought out my iPad and stuffed the earphones on my ears. Since it was really early, I couldn’t help but fall asleep within a few seconds.

I woke up inside a moving vehicle. I was probably in a deep sleep I didn’t notice that the van was moving already. My dad was driving while my mother was sitting beside him. I looked to the person beside me and let out a small gasp when I saw that it was none other than Youngmin. He was a bit startled too because of my reaction.

“Oh Kwangmin, you’re awake,” my mom must have heard it too. “You can sleep some more since it’s going to be a long ride.”

“N-No, it’s okay. I’m not sleepy anymore.”

“Alright then. Boys, just tell me if you’re hungry and we’ll stop by to eat.”

“Yes auntie!” My friends said from the back. So our position was: My parents on the front seats; Me, Youngmin and Donghyun on the second row; Hyunseong-hyung, Jungmin-hyung and Minwoo at the back. Great.

Youngmin nudged me and I felt electricity ran though my spine. I looked at him and saw that he was handing me his iPad. He had typed a message on the notes app.

“I’m sorry if you didn’t want to sit beside me. The hyungs and Minwoo sat at the back first and Donghyun-hyung is not comfortable sitting in the middle so I had no choice. I will ask the others to switch places later if you want.”

I looked at him again and saw that he was looking down with a sad look on his face. I got irritated by this and snatched his iPad from him. I erased the note and typed a new one.

“I don’t care so stop fretting about it.”

I placed it on his lap and turned towards the window.

“How sweet, the twins are exchanging notes~” Minwoo suddenly commented and now, everyone was looking at us.

“Really?” My mom joined, “What are you two talking about that you can’t share with us, hm?”

“Nothing!” I immediately grabbed the iPad back from Youngmin and deleted what I typed. “Minwoo you can shut up now.”

No one dared to speak again but I can see that they all had those stupid smiles on their faces. Ugh, it’s Youngmin’s fault. He’s always worried that I might get angry at him. Honestly speaking I think I’m quite kinder these days, right? I should have been punishing my family more seriously.

“Are you cold?” I turned a little to my right when I heard Donghyun-hyung ask Youngmin.

“Uhm…a little.”

True enough, I saw that Youngmin was shivering a little even though he was wearing warm clothes.

“I brought extra blankets,” my mom said. “But it’s at the back of the van. Minwoo, can you try getting it? It’s at the blue bag.”

“Sure thing auntie.”

“I actually have a blanket with me,” I blurted out without thinking.

“Y-You’ll lend me?” Youngmin stuttered a little and I’m not sure if it’s because he was cold or because he was talking to me.

“I just don’t want to trouble Minwoo,” I grabbed my backpack to search for the blanket. I always feel cold during long rides too especially now that it’s winter.

“Wow Kwangmin! Since when did you start caring about me?” Minwoo asked with fake joy.

Why does this boy love putting me into trouble? “You’re our guest so I’m being nice today.”

“Are you sure that’s the reason?”

“Yes. Now if you don’t shut up-”

“You’ll throw me outside the van, okay, okay. If you say so~ Youngmin is getting colder you should give the blanket already.”

I gave him one last glare before taking the blanket out of my bag. Youngmin’s eyes widened when he saw it. I suddenly realized that he was shocked because it was a Pikachu blanket. Very manly Kwangmin. Very manly.

“You still like Pikachu?” he asked while smiling.

“Is there a problem with that?”

“No! Of course not. Thank you…” he wrapped the blanket around himself and sighed contentedly. He must have thought that I got irritated again. I had actually asked that because he might think I’m very childish or uncool. Anyway, why should I care about what he thinks?

We stopped by a restaurant to eat our lunch and then we continued on our destination. But before we entered back into the van a while ago, Youngmin asked discreetly if I want him to exchange seats with the others.

“I told you already I don’t care. Besides, you have my blanket so you should sit beside me,” …that was my genius answer and I do hope he bought that.

It didn’t take long before we arrived at the villa. My friends were at awe when they saw it. It wasn’t that big but the structure of the lodging is really elegant. It also looks warm and cozy inside. There were two old couple caretakers who greeted us and helped us with our baggage. This old couple is the one taking care of the villa when none of the family members are here.

“Wow Kwangmin. It’s really nice here,” Hyunseong-hyung commented.

“Yeah…it’s been years since I’ve last stepped here.”

“Young master Kwangmin,” the caretakers bowed to me and I did the same. “We will show you and your guests to your room.”

The master bedroom was of course given to our parents. There are three guest rooms with different sizes. The largest which has three beds was given to Minwoo, Hyunseong-hyung and Jungmin-hyung. The smallest which has one bed was given to Donghyun-hyung. I gulped when I realized what will happen next.

“Young master Kwangmin and Youngmin will be sharing this room,” the old man gestured towards the medium-sized guest room with two beds.

Youngmin looks like he was waiting for my violent reaction.

“If you want I can exchange-”

“Please excuse us,” I told the caretakers before pulling Youngmin inside the room then closed the door. He looked really surprised. “Why are you like that?!”

“W-What?”

“Why do you act like I’m going to hurt you everytime you speak to me?”

He swallowed nervously before answering, “B-because you never liked me. And I don’t want to burden you any further. You were always lonely because of me right?”

I felt like someone punched me hard after hearing him say those words and looking at those now teary-eyes. I backed off one step, thought of the best thing to say, but my mind was disarranged.

“You don’t have to exchange rooms with anybody not because I want to share this room with you but because I simply…I simply don’t care about you. I’m not the little boy who would push you and say mean things about you anymore. But…I hate you just the same,” I walked past him and left him alone in that room with a really heavy heart.

Youngmin’s POV

After Kwangmin left, my shaking knees gave up and I fell on the floor. The tears that I’ve been holding fell uncontrollably from my eyes.

Why are my hopes always crushed like this? Why is it a hundred times more painful everytime he rejects me? Why do I keep on fooling myself when I know that it’s hopeless?

At around 3PM, Donghyun-hyung knocked on my door. I didn’t realize that I was lying on the floor for two hours already.

“Youngmin, are you sleeping?”

I slowly stood from the cold floor and opened the door for hyung.

“I thought- oh my God! Youngmin! What happened to you?”

He cupped my face and I couldn’t help but cry again, “Hyung…you said you’ll comfort me right?”

He went inside the room and led me to sit on the bed. After that, he hugged me and allowed me to cry a river inside his arms.

“Hyung…I knew it was hopeless. He will never accept me.”

“Just give him time Youngmin. I’m pretty sure he’s having a hard time too. I saw him a while ago and he looks upset. Like his conscience is eating him up.”

I chuckled a little when hyung said that, “You’re kidding right?”

“I’m not! I know Kwangmin looks upset most of the time but this time, he looks really bothered. Maybe he wants to accept you already but he just can’t forget about the past easily.”

“Hyung…you always know what to say.”

“Of course I do! Now, you know what to do right?”

I removed myself from him a little and looked at him with a confused face, “What do I do?”

He laughed and ruffled my already messy hair, “Seriously Youngmin! You should just act normal around him. I noticed that you’re really apprehensive to talk or approach him. If you act like that then he won’t forget about the past.”

“Oh…you’re right hyung! Thank you!” I cannot help but hug him again at that time.

“Now fix yourself because the others are planning to explore the place. Your father said we’d go skiing tomorrow.”

“Really?! You’re going to teach me right?”

“Of course! I did promise you that.”

Hyung really knows how to make me happy. If only I can keep him forever by my side.

Our parents decided to stay inside the villa to rest and to have a chat with our caretakers. The six of us went outside to have a walk and to see the surrounding places. It’s my first time being here since it was hard for me to travel when I was sick. I had always wanted to go here with my family.

“Kwangmin! I thought you’ve been here already yet you don’t know where to go!” Minwoo shouted at Kwangmin.

“I told you I never left the house! Of course I know nothing about this place!” Kwangmin retorted.

“Don’t worry Minwoo,” Donghyun-hyung intercepted. “I’m quite good with directions so we’ll never get lost. Besides, isn’t it fun to explore places not knowing what we’ll discover?”

Minwoo suddenly became like a timid lamb, “You’re right hyung.”

I saw Kwangmin rolled his eyes. After discovering Minwoo’s not-so-secret crush on Donghyun-hyung, I’m always having the urge to pull Donghyun-hyung beside me everytime the two of them get close to each other just like now.

“Hyung!” I tugged on his coat.

“Yes Youngmin?”

“I want to go inside the café, can we?” I pointed towards the small café we happened to pass by.

“Sure! Do you guys want to come too?”

“Of course!” Jungmin-hyung replied and the others followed as well. Kwangmin rolled his eyes for the second time before following lazily behind.

We entered café and it looked even nicer inside. Unlike the cafés in the city, this one has a live singer performing mellow songs which the customers seem to enjoy. The aroma of the different coffee flavors gives off a peaceful ambiance too. We all took our seats just near the singer while Donghyun-hyung orders for all of us in the counter.

After the singer finished his song, there was a round of applause.

“Thank you for liking the song. By the way, I would just like to greet these new handsome faces who had just entered our café and they’re sitting right there.”

The guy pointed towards our table and I was surprised when everyone looked and clapped at us. Some girls were giggling too and agreeing to what the singer had said about us being handsome.

“Thank you so much for coming here. Now, I wonder if any of you can sing?”

Minwoo suddenly stood excitedly, “Oh! Oh! My two hyungs over here are members of our music club!”

“Minwoo!” Hyunseong hyung tried to pull him back to his seat and probably stitch his mouth shut but it was too late. The crowd was cheering already and besides, Jungmin-hyung looks like he wants to sing too.

“Come on Hyunseong! Let’s sing our favorite song!”

“No! There’s too many people!”

“But you sing at school too!”

“It’s different!”

Minwoo and Jungmin-hyung had to use all of their strength to get Hyunseong-hyung to stand. Jungmin-hyung went excitedly towards the live band while Hyunseong-hyung followed with a ‘What have I gotten myself into?’ expression on his face. Jungmin-hyung gave the title of the song to the band and they all smiled because they know the song. The singer passed the mic to Jungmin-hyung and gave another one to Hyunseong-hyung. The band started playing and Jungmin-hyung started the song. I think I got goosebumps right after hearing his voice because it was really beautiful.

No matter how long it has been, I know
I emptied out a part of my heart
Though my heart hurts, though it still hurts
I can’t forget you and I look for you again

I felt my heart being squeezed after listening to the first part of the song. I looked at Kwangmin and remembered the time when I was in America to receive my treatment. The moment that I left the house I was already missing him. Even though we never had a happy childhood I really loved him whole-heartedly. I never blamed him because I know we were both in pain. When we were apart, I felt really incomplete. And even now when I’m hurt again because of him, I can’t help but to feel the same way.

I wrote to you every day and at the thought of you being happy to see me,
Countless nights were spent alone and awake
As I touch the letters in my pocket that I was going to give you
As I draw you, who disappeared, as I shout of to you, who might come back

After every painful treatment I would try writing to Kwangmin to forget about it. It was one of the things that kept me strong when I feel like giving up. But then, I know that I can never send it to him. I wonder if he had read the letter that I had given him before I left. Perhaps he threw it already without even reading it. Every night, instead of praying to get well, I prayed to see him again. I prayed that if ever I will not survive this sickness, I asked for a chance to see him one last time.

I was so lost in my own memories the rest of the song became like a blur to me. I didn’t notice that the song ended already until the audience gave them round of applause as well and expressed their satisfaction. Jungmin-hyung and Hyunseong-hyung bowed and thanked them. Hyunseong-hyung didn’t look like he was constipated anymore.

When we stepped out of the cafe, a cute teenage girl ran towards us followed by her friends. She looked really shy but her friends pushed her towards Hyunseong-hyung.

“Uhm...sorry if it’s sudden b-but...my name is Jiyoung and...I just want to say you were great a while ago!” She was blushing deeply now.

“Thank you! My friend Jungmin and I really love that song so we practiced it a lot.”

“Oh really? What’s your name by the way?” She seemed to have gathered confidence after Hyunseong-hyung replied to him in a friendly manner.

“I’m Shim Hyunseong and these are my friends...” Hyunseong-hyung introduced each of us but the girl only concentrated on him. I noticed that Jungmin-hyung is starting to get impatient but I’m not really sure since I have never seen him in a negative mood.

“Uhm...if it’s okay with you, can we be friends?”

“Sure!”

After Hyunseong-hyung said that, her friends squealed a little. Jiyoung suddenly took out a piece of paper and wrote something. “Here’s my number. Call me if you need a guide around the place. I can show you every part of the village!”

“Thank you! That will be nice.”

“See you around!”

They left giggling and patting the girl, Jiyoung, on the back.

“Look Jungmin! She gave-”

“Let’s go Minwoo!” Jungmin-hyung pulled Minwoo and I can definitely say now that he’s irritated. It shocked all of us because Jungmin-hyung never gets angry. Hyunseong-hyung followed after them.

“Hey Jungmin, is something wrong?”

“There’s nothing wrong Mr. Popular.”

“Wait, don’t tell me you’re jealous because the girl approach me and not you! I can give you her number if you want.”

Jungmin-hyung stopped walking immediately which almost caused Minwoo to slip on the ground. “Seriously Hyunseong! You’re so...ugh! Don’t talk to me!” He pulled Minwoo again and walked faster.

“What did I do?!” Hyunseong-hyung turned towards us this time.

Kwangmin sighed and continued walking, “Seriously hyung...”

Donghyun-hyung chuckled and I seem to get it now.  

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The lyrics in italics is Boyfriend's "One Day" and I'm sure you all know that already ^^

translation credits goes to pop!gasa

btw, i would just like to share some of my "otp" shots on Hallyu Fest last July 28^^

Jo Twins

DongWoo

JungSeong...it's the closest that i can get to this pairing T_T i'm sure jeongmin's not looking at hyunseong anyway but i can pretend right? lol

and because i like DongYoung too :3 it's from my fancam which i have trouble uploading >:( 

thanks for reading~!!