It has been about one month since the day I dated Jaejoong, and has also been about two weeks since I last talked to Donghae. Although the "breaking up" message was sent by Donghae, me and Jaejoong didn't break up. Jaejoong asked for my explaination about the message he got, I didn't lie. I told him the truth, I know he was deeply hurt by it, but yes, I don't have the guts to do anything about it.

Now, I'm sitting beside him, as he drives me to a place to celebrate his friends' 23rd birthday. Everytime he took me out, he would always hold my hands like all new-couples do. I doesn't feel normal to me, since I've been friends with him for years, and we held hands as friends. I asked him why he wouldn't let go, but he wouldn't answer.

"Oppa, is it really far from Seoul? It has been about an hour, but we haven't arrived yet" I said to Jaejoong

Jaejoong smiled at me and rubbed my head, "Don't worry, sweetheart. We're going to be there pretty soon. Are you tired?" he asked

"Aniyo.." 

"Just sleep. I'll wake you up, when we're there. I know you get sleepy easily when you're travelling long distances" he smiled and kissed my head

"Oppa, why do you like me this much? I hurt you.. I kissed another guy when I was with you" I said slowly, "Aren't you supposed to be mad at me?"

"I don't think I have a reason for that. I just love you, you're different to the other girls I know. That's what makes you special. When you admitted you kissed Donghae, I was broken inside, I was dying for days. But I asked myself whether I really should feel that way, but I guessed I shouldn't. Your feelings were quite unsettled by that time, so it was normal for you to get confused and tempted" he explained 

"If I give you a chance to say your wish, just one wish to strengthen our relationship. What would you ask for?" I asked

"I'm not sure. Give me some suggestions..." 

"Maybe quitting the training with SM Entertainment? or maybe going on the next stage of relationship with you?" 

"Aniyo. I wouldn't ask for that. The only thing I have in mind, is for you to stay with me, that's more than enough" he said, "Don't think about it too much, just rest for now"

I stared at him and held his hands stronger, "Oppa, why didn't you tell me that Donghae tried to harm you?" 

He suddenly pulled the brake of the car, "Don't tell me you heard that from Donghae himself?"

"Why? But he really did tell me about it..." I bit my lower lips

"What's his point of telling you that? Okay, here is an explanation. I called your phone and he answered, I asked him where you were, and he told me you went to his house and he kissed you and blah blah" Jaejoong said, "Do you think I wouldn't kill him if he said in front of me? He tried to pissed me off!" 

"But I don't think you have to meet and fight with him. It's a problem between me and Donghae, its my fault that I didn't break the kiss or the hug. But.. seriously.. it's really childish for you to fight with him just because of my phone.. or probably because of that surprise kiss" I complained, "and I don't know why you hid it from me..."

Jaejoong exhaled loudly, "So you're expecting me to just stay quiet although he kissed you? He knows you're my girlfriend, but yet he still did it! I was just fighting for our relationship, I wasn't trying to act childish or selfish!" 

"You could ask me whether this is the right way or not.. this is seriously stupid! I tried to stay quiet for a while, trying to figure out why you fought with him. But I couldn't find an answer that's why I'm asking you now.." I said

Jaejoong let go of my hands and grabbed a drink.. He didn't say anything and stayed quiet

"Oppa, I think we better cancel our dinner plan. Let's go back to Seoul" I suggested

Jaejoong nodded and hugged me, "I'm really sorry, you! I didn't mean to act reckless or childish. To be honest, I was really jealous and afraid that you actually liked him, not me" 

"It's alright, and I'm sorry we had to cancel the plan" I pouted 

"Don't worry. We can just find a restaurant in Seoul and talk about our relationship"

"Aniyo. Let's just go to a park somewhere near" I suggested and leaned my head on his shoulder

No matter how bad my life is, I am always thankful to Jaejoong who treated me extremely well, despite the fact that I neglected him for quite a long time. He spent a lot of time and effort to attract my attention. Although the way he treated me make me feel a bit insecure, I am glad that he loves me. 

"Oppa, Oppa! Let's just stop at that park over there!" I pointed

"Araso, you" he smiled

We got down the car and hurriedly ran to the bench, "Oppa, I ran faster than you!" I teased

"Aniyo! I'm going to catch you~" Jaejoong sang and chased me, "Got you!" he back-hugged me

I turned to him and hugged him back, "Oppa, I didn't know what was on my mind when I neglected you and betrayed you. I feel so stupid now" I said

He touched my lips with his pointing fingers, "Sssh! You're not stupid, you're clever enough to make me stupid. I see noone but you" he said

I held his hands and he lead me to the bench under a huge tree, "Here, we could see the moon and stars easily. This is the only thing I love about the dark sky. This is probably the best moment I ever had" he smiled 

"Aniyo, don't sit! Let's just stand and observe the stars.." I said to him as he placed his muscular arm around my waist, "Oppa.." I called

He looked at me and faced him, he's around 20cm taller than me, so I had to raised my head to see him clearly, "Close your beautiful eyes.." I said to him as I caressed his cheek

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I placed my hands on his shoulder to balance my body as I tip-toed, I leaned forwards and came closer to him, "I love you.. I really do" I whispered to him and kissed his lips gently

He opened his eyes and smiled, "I never thought I'd get a kiss from the girl I love, under the stars.." he began to take control of the kiss, "No one should touch you, ever again!" he laughed

"Arasoyo, Oppa!" I said and continued with the kiss

"What a beautiful night.." he said