Breathe

The Night and the Fae
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The town’s bookstore was filled with calm. It was exactly what a library should be like, but this one sold you the books. She turned to thank Momo for bringing her here when school ended, but was stopped by the look in her eyes. 

“I mean this in the best way possible,” said the vampire. “But you are such a nerd.” Momo poked her cheek. 

Dahyun laughed. “You’d know why if you felt the same thing I did.” Then it dawned on her. “Perhaps you can.” She held out a hand. 

“Really?” Momo didn’t hesitate as she put her hand in Dahyun’s. If she was reading her expression correctly, there was only trust in her eyes. It both warmed her heart, but also reminded her that she was still hiding so much. What would the girls say if she told them everything?

“Wait,” she said before closing her eyes. Going into the emotional world, she took hold of some of the calm. She let it blossom. Then she passed it to Momo. She heard her sigh. Wonder accompanied the newfound peace. 

“Wow.” 

Dahyun forced her eyes to become brown again, then she opened them. She saw that Momo had also closed her eyes. She wore a serene smile on her face. Dahyun knew then that she never wanted to forget this moment: watching someone she trusted wholeheartedly experience a piece of the emotional world. Her recent realisations about feelings only strengthened the value of this moment. Her eyes burned at the possibility that it might be fleeting, but she let herself enjoy this warm feeling. Let herself enjoy this time with Momo. 

“Okay, I get it.” The vampire grinned. It was such a bright expression that Dahyun had to return it. “Now, let’s get what we came here for.” Their hands were still connected. She liked it. 

Momo dragged her to the section titled: Fiction. It had taken all of lunch today for the girls to explain to her what that truly meant. She had had some understanding for it, especially though literature class, but it still took her time to wrap her head around it. Nayeon and Jeongyeon had been very much in favour that she just accept that it was made up. Tzuyu had been adamant that she learn what science fiction was (apparently not all scary). 

“You never told me what story type you like,” Dahyun said. Her voice was barely a whisper, but she knew the other girl would be able to hear it. 

Momo looked back over her shoulder. “It’ll surprise you, but I really like romance.” 

Her eyes were pink. Dahyun still didn’t know if that tied her closer to desire, or if it was just a coincidence. She wondered why Momo didn’t have someone in her life. Perhaps relationships with humans were always fleeting due to their mortality, but why hadn’t she met an immortal and ‘fallen for them’, as some of the other girls had? She hadn’t needed to understand love to know it existed between Nayeon and Jeongyeon, as well as a blossoming one with Mina and Chaeyoung. It was difficult to pick up on, as she didn’t know the little giveaways, and not much ever seemed to match the romance movies.

The thought of Momo finding someone gave Dahyun an echo of that feeling—jealousy. Did she want to be that immortal? It would be impossible. Wouldn’t it? Her kind had rarely interacted with the world, let alone found love in it. If they had, it would have been taken out, by themselves, and used for research. From what she had seen of love, she didn’t know if she’d be able to give it up. Not voluntarily at least. 

Not for the first time, and certainly not for the last time, Dahyun asked, “why?”

“It’s lighthearted, even if it’s sad. There’s something about watching two people fall in love that I just, well,” she chuckled, “love.” She turned to look at her. “Did you figure out the genres you wanted to check out?” 

“Fantasy,” Dahyun replied. “Magic in a different world, with different rules,” she struggled to find the words, “I just want to see how that can work.” How could there be so many individuals capable of making their own magic? Magic had rules in Dahyun’s world. It existed just as the laws of physics did, but this magic existed on the pages of a book. She was excited to see how that worked. 

“I know just the thing.” They started walking through the shelves. 

Dahyun let herself be pulled along. Momo had an unbridled enthusiasm and it was contagious. She admired her for it. That gave her pause. If someone like Momo knew what Dahyun had done in her life, what she had done in the past year, not decades or centuries, she would be appalled. Doubt came over her like a wave. Why had she agreed to stay with them? Disappointment would inevitably come.

“Hey,” a squeeze of the hand, “everything okay?” Momo was scanning her face, a frown threatening to form. Dahyun was catching on to facial expressions. 

“Just thought of something,” she said. “So, what books did you have in mind for a beginner?” 

She didn’t look convinced, but didn’t pry. Dahyun appreciated it. “The classic would be Harry Potter. It’s about a magic school, but I’m not sure if they have fairies in there. There’s one mention of a vampire, but it’s not great,” she wrinkled her nose, “there’s also The Hobbit, which has elves, and is one big adventure.”

Digging around in her bag for her wallet, she said, “I can try both, can’t I?”

“Of course.” Then she winked. “Just know that there are seven books for Harry Potter, and another trilogy in the world of The Hobbit.” Dahyun must have looked confused at the word ‘trilogy’, because Momo added, “Three more books.” 

The vampire gave her a small tour to show her what the different genres actually looked like on the shelves. Then they paid and left the shop. 

“I’m still feeling calm, how long does that last?” 

“Does it bother you?” Dahyun was ready to take it if it unsettled her. 

“Nope!” Momo grinned. “I like it. It’s like what I feel around you.” 

“You feel calm around me?” That was unusual. Her aura was a subtle one, nothing to notice unless you had a strong connection to the emotional world. “Do the others notice?”

She shrugged. “I know Sana and I do, you can ask the rest later.” 

“You’ve talked about it?” That was something encouraged. In the few romance movies she’d seen, honesty and communication were crucial to the film coming to an end. It was also important, apparently, to the relationship. Did that apply to other human relationships? Her people might have valued communication, but they still did not do it as was done in the films.

A small smile appeared. There was a hint of nervousness in the air. “A little.”

Dahyun felt the urge to reach out, so she took the girl’s hand. 

Momo’s eyes widened ever so slightly, but she squeezed back. A smile was growing on her face. It was beautiful. 

That was when she felt it, something immortal. Something predatory. It had found its prey. She let go of Momo, the latter’s carefree attitude had disappeared. The air had turned cold. She was already poised to fight without knowing who might be after them. Dahyun knew then that she couldn’t let anything happen to the vampire. 

She looked to the left, out and into the trees. She couldn’t see a figure, but she saw the emotions flowing through the air. She reached out and pulled on their hunger, pink and red, drawing it closer to her. Then something knocked her flat on her back. There was something warm on her neck. Blood. 

Dahyun put a hand to her neck, her fingers tracing whatever had cut her. The marks were laid out as a mouth was. They had bitten her. A vampire. 

She felt lethargic, each limb of hers was heavy, but she saw the emotional world in perfect clarity. Only her eyelids wanted to close. She reached for the presence without the excitement and happiness of Momo. Her ears could only faintly hear the sounds of fighting and ice shattering. She needed to know why they’d been attacked, so there would be no emotional coma for the attacker. Not yet

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The ending is here! Your support had me writing a lot of it in one go and I've never written so much all in one go. Thanks so much for reading this story and being patient enough to keep up with it!

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A_B_J_Ch #1
Chapter 43: A gem, truly! The universe is very well detailed, the characters are consistent, deep and naturally progressing within the story. This will definitely make it to my list of stories to read again and again.
I especially appreciate the difference between the nations. And how those differences are addressed.
I am curious to what is the base for the fae language. I may try to compare it to some of the human or fictional languages to quench my curiosity.
My only confusion lays with what happened to Dahyun's family. Maybe I missed it somewhere in the text. But I did not catch why they would not be able to make it to the "court" scene at the end.
But it is a minor detail, which may or may not be explained in my second read-through :)
Pallas
#2
Chapter 43: I finally end this story. Wow, that was a journey, a long one.
I have so much to praise about the writing and development but I can't put it on the right words.
Just know that you make a excellent job here, author-nim. Even though I came only for the "saidahmo" tag (lol) I stay for the universe that is showing here.
I would love to read more about TWICE in that universe, such as Dahyun finally having some happiness after all the pain she came through. But if we don't have more of this world, it's ok. This fanfic worth every secon I spend reading.

Again, thank you so much for writing this, author-nim. Stay healthy!💜
So_Dry
#3
Chapter 43: Hi! I am not sure if I ever left comments here before, but now I feel more at ease doing so. It took me three times to read the story fully to grasp what I needed. The first time I was going through it, confusion was dominating, I had a great deal of questions circulating in my head. It was hard to grasp the flow of the events and so I was struggling to put the pieces together. Characters conversation sometimes were bundled and I misplaced them many times. It brought more disappointment throughout my reading journey. But I kept going at it despite those feelings I had.

What attracted me in the story was the new concept of fantasy you have introduced, though initially when I came it was for Dahyun main rule in it, but I grew more interest and anticipation for her struggle/dilemma when it came to acting on emotions. It was ongoing at the time, and when I finally read the end, I felt more lacking and dissatisfaction surged mostly.



I took a good break until I decided to come again and revisit the story. This second attempt filled so many holes I initially had in me. The grasp on the reasons that lead to such events were much clearer and I had finally connected the dots to form a good flow of events. And even though I had some questions answered, there was a portion that was left scattered and perhaps I was hesitant to search through it. The emotional part of the story was a challenge on itself, but it's needed to be grasped and understood. A part of me ignored the fact I couldn't translate those emotions been discussed throughout the chapters, and when I reached the end again. I still felt a great deal of discomfort as I knew the emotional part is what's the story is mostly made of. I was convincing myself that it wasn't needed to have full clarity on and I would just be okay without it.



It took me a long while until I decided to come back. I was determined to not miss anything this time and make sure to make effort on the emotional part specifically while reading. I still carried a desire to skim through it, but I was able to stop myself from doing so. And to do that, I created a note dedicated to colors and their correlations to the emotional world. Even included a scent list. The results were shocking, though it shouldn't have been because I knew how that contributed to my confusions. I came to appreciate the story even more after this. You had me thinking and immersing myself on how emotions actually worked. Throughout my break time between chapters, I sat down and thought through all decisions that been made, specifically one's by Dahyun. It had me think that I could be just as lacking as her, specially when it came to the reactions she witnesses based on emotions felt in certain events for certain people. Another part of me couldn't help but see it fit so well to be lacking. As if it carries much simpler answers than those that carries more questions in it then resolution. But the complications been presented showed how being in such state is wrong in itself, specially if you knew how the others actually felt and will feel depending your responds.

The wording in the story was nothing I ever read in fictions but it made sense for it to be that way. Can you believe that your work has built a certain amount of calm within me? Not that I never had it, but this gave me more reasons to reconsider and backtrack my emotional responds. So many topics been discussed here and emotions been fully explored through the dialogues. It's been a worthy journey that I would gladly go down through it again, and I will.



I would like to thank you for what you have gave us and introduced. It was a much appreciated knowledge to imagine and feel through those characters. Being able to present it alone is enough to have me carry so much respect for you. While indeed some of us comes for the pairing, but mostly I get more invested when it touches real life struggles. Yours was one to open many eyes on how really emotions works and what kind of questions and consequences it carries and arises. For that, you have my deep gratitude!
Selina1715
#4
Chapter 2: Oh? Is someone behind Dubu?
Shade4149 #5
Chapter 43: So good loved every second
Shade4149 #6
Chapter 30: This is so good I was so happy to see the completed version here when I was waiting on Ao3
dkdldb #7
Chapter 43: I don't usually read fantasy stories, but this was absolutely amazing. Really loved the plot flow and portrayal of characters in this!
Van1212 #8
Author did you see Dahyun's MBTI test result ? It matches so well with the way you decided to portrait her in this story, it is amazing.
Btopinkforever
#9
Chapter 43: I got to admit at first I was here for Saidahmo but as the story progressed my mind started to come here for the plot and writing. This story was like something I needed in my life. I don’t know why but it was. So thank you so much for writing this. I can go on forever talking about this book but I will keep you from my emotions haha Anyways I personally love how you ended this because it’s not a perfect ending for them but it’s the most realistic ending I’ve seen. Meaning the characters had their ups and downs and they still had problems but like in real life they figured some out but some will still take time. Wow I at expressing myself and writing haha I’m glad you left the chapter like this!
Btopinkforever
#10
Chapter 42: Surprisingly I get where Dahyun is getting at and if she did kill Rila and Yrest then that would’ve probably been the ending point for her. So I’m glad she didn’t do anything.