Jungkook sighs, heavily as Jimin’s words replay in his head, unable to focus on practicing. He has already been scolded twice for his time going under. Even a safe haven as the pool, he couldn’t get over the fact that Jimin and he would never happen. Off course he never made it to Taehyung’s house for the sleepover, in fear of getting emotional and crying in front of them.

The practice came to end and of course, he got a whole speech about pulling his head out of his , not so much in those colorful words but equivalent.

He was not in the mood to go home so he decided to hang in the water, submerging himself underneath, wanting to escape to anymore where everything was perfect, and he was not hurting.

“Planning on sleeping under there!” shouts Taehyung. Jungkook pulls himself up, brushing his hair back,

“Where is Jacob?”

“He left,” says Taehyung, splashing water, Jungkook holds up his hand to stop the water from hitting his face, as Taehyung burst laughing, amused.

He clears his throat, “You never said why you couldn’t make it last night?”

Jungkook sighs, silent as his mind scramble for a reason or a lie.

…

“I had a headache, fell asleep,” he says.

“Oh? That , you missed, we had a pizza party.”

“Yeah, well we can have a sleepover next week,” says Jungkook, feeling jealous that he was busy hurting while his friends were having the time of their lives. They exchange glances as they both float backward, hands extended and staring at the ceiling.

“Jungkook,” calls Taehyung, soft and quiet.

“Yeah.”

“Is everything alright?” 

Jungkook glances at his friend, silent for what seemed like an eternity before answering, “Yeah, why do you ask?”

“You’ve been pretty strange since…nevermind, you would tell us if something was wrong,” says Taehyung chuckling, “The water feels so nice.”

Jungkook sighs.

I wish I could tell you guys but what would be the point now that everything is clear. Jimin and I was just wishful thinking.

***

Monday

Jungkook steps on his skateboard as an arithmetic beat of the music feels him with comfort and warmth, nothing says heartbreak like listening to love songs about what might be. As much as he would love to just get lost in the world of his music and pain, he couldn’t help but glance at Jennie and Jimin who were walking in frontof him. When did they make up? He wonders. Things were back to normal, Jimin chatting and laughing with Jennie and him trailing behind. He wanted so much to just skate pass them but couldn’t get himself to do it, he loved watching Jimin, his smile was really breathtaking. He smiles with his whole face as if the sun was shining down only on him, so bright and colorful.

The way he walks, with the skateboard tucked underneath his arm, the confidence and ego were obvious, to say the least, but aside from that, his body. Anyone could tell he was into sports, not just any sport but dancing, he has such an enticing body, his body lines were no joke.

Jungkook’s bits his lower lip as he lets his eyes rest on Jimin’s perfectly rounded like a peach and his small waist complimented his thick thighs. Jimin glances back, catching Jungkook’s gaze, who immediately turns red, embarrassed he was caught checking him out. Jimin gives him a smile, not just any smile but then I felt someone was looking at my smile. Jimin glances at Jennie and back at him before turning back to the front. 

***

Jungkook sighs as he sits down at his desk. The classroom was filled with chatters and students rushing in the class as the warning bell rings.

“I’m so tired,” exclaims Lisa as she yawns, stretching out her arms, “Hey, how come you didn’t come to the sleepover?”

“Huh?”

“Sleepover?”

“Oh, sorry I couldn’t make it,” he says, clearing his throat.

“Hmm, , you missed out,” she says.

“So, I heard,” says Jungkook, glancing at Taehyung, who chuckles.

Jungkook sighs, “can I ask you guys something?”

“Hmm?” they say simultaneously,

“Is it weird to kiss someone out of the blue?”

“Kiss?”

“Yeah, like kissing someone but they tell you, it only happened due to the situation, that’s strange right?”

“Well…” says Taehyung exchanging glances, “Depends on the situation, were they drunk? High? Or was it a dare?”

“None of the above.”

“So, they kissed you out of the blue then?” asks Lisa

“Well yeah…wait I never said it was me,” he says, defensively.

“Than who are we talking about?” asks Taehyung.

“Can you just tell me what it means?” he says, not wanting to get into the details of who it is.

“Well, people don’t kiss people unless they are attracted to them,” says Taehyung, “At least that’s what I heard.”

“True but then again people do kiss each other for games, but since no game was being played, they have to be attracted to you.”

Jungkook sighs, staring at his friends. If what they are saying is true then Jimin has to be at least a little bit attracted to him, why would he kiss him then?

They quite down, turning to the front as the teacher begins the lessons, Jungkook bits his lip. Thoughts going in a circle, sharing a kiss with Jimin was supposed to be something clear but it just left him confused. People kiss because they are attracted to each other but Jimin told him, it was just in that moment. What about that moment, made him kiss him?

***

With lunch period going by slow, Jungkook sat at his usual computer, there was not a sticky note under the keyboard, they must’ve cleaned it? He sighs, wondering if he should start a new one, it wouldn’t be a problem. Jungkook taps the pen against his lip as he ponders on what he should do. He glances at a time on the computer, only a few minutes remained until lunch period was over, he sighs, as he tries to remember where they left off in the lyrics.

♪ To be the same prophesy? Is it love?
Do-do-do-do-do. ♪

Ps: Hey, how are you? Why is it on bad days, school seems to be longer than usual? I can’t seem to concentrate on anything. Anyway, how about you, did following your heart lead to any happy endings?

Jungkook waves at his friends as they get on the bus, as soon as they were out of sight, he puts on his headphones. As he was about to get on his skateboard, he feels a tap on his shoulder. He turns to find Jimin standing behind him, Jungkook stares at him baffled as he hangs his headphone on his nape.

“Hyung?”

“Going home?” asks Jimin.

“Yeah, you?”

“Same, Jennie has some kind of group study,” he says looking around before locking gaze with him, “Let’s walk together.” 

“Um…” says Jungkook trying to find the words but his mind betrayed him, as nothing came out. He smiles, nodding his head.

Jungkook glances over at Jimin, as continues on talking about a huge math test that he messed up because he didn’t study. Despite him being mad, Jungkook couldn’t help but find him cute, he pouts when he whines. Jungkook gazes at him, zoned out as everything he was saying just went over his head.

“Hey, watch out!” exclaims Jimin, grabbing his wrist as a car drives past, beeping its horn. Jungkook’s eyes widen, he was staring at him, he completely forgot about they were about to cross the streets.

“Are you trying to get yourself killed,” roars Jimin, eyes wide, as shocked as Jungkook himself, Jungkook stares at him, all thoughts erased from a mind as he gawped at Jimin’s hand, still tightly gripping his wrist, “Just what’re you thinking spacing out like that.”

“Sorry,” says Jungkook, clearing his throat as his eyes fall back to his hand, Jimin follows his gaze, quickly letting go of his wrist. Jungkook watches him as he brushes his hair back,

“I don’t want to explain to your family that you got hit by a car because of god knows what.”

“Sorry,” says Jungkook, embarrassed.

As they reach his house, they exchange glances and smiles, as they each waited for someone to say goodbye first.

“Um…Jungkook,” says Jimin.

“Yeah?”

Jimin chuckles, bringing his backpack to the front, Jungkook watches him as he s it, taking out a small box.

“I went shopping with my mom and... “says Jimin, “Anyway, for you.”

Jungkook takes the box, baffled, he opens it, curious and inside it was a small necklace, he takes it out, staring at the four leave clover gold tiny four leaf clover necklace,

“It's for good luck,” says Jimin, biting his lower lip, “I went shopping with my mom, and I know you guys have a competition tomorrow so…”

Jungkook stares at him, blank, loss at words, eyes wide with a smile plastered on his face, his heart was racing.

“Thank you,” says Jungkook, putting the necklace back in the box and closing it,

“You’re welcome,” says Jimin, with a huge grin, “Um, see ya and good luck tomorrow.” 

“Thanks, hyung,” says Jungkook.

Jimin chuckles as he walks away, waving at him, Jungkook waves back at him, standing still, excited, his heart pounding hard against his chest. He looks up, catching his gaze, Jimin waves at him again as Jungkook continues to watch him head home, screaming internally. As soon as Jimin disappeared out of sight, Jungkook opens the box again, taking out the necklace, it never occurred to him that Jimin believes in such things, a simple and yet a well thought out gift.

Jungkook exhales, turning around, fighting back the urge to burst in excitement as he opens the door. 

“Now, I really have to win this competition,” he mumbles underneath his breath.

***

Tuesday

Jungkook quietly eats his breakfast, as the four leaf clover necklace dangled from his neck. He gently caresses it, a huge smile plastered across his face.

“Excited?” says his mom.

“Huh?”

“You seem excited today? she said” says Namjoon.

“I’m always excited about swimming competition,” he says, still caressing the necklace.

“And he should be,” says his father, “Maybe this time you could hold the best record.”

“Oh, come on,” says Namjoon, “You know he swims because he is bored, if he wanted to break the school’s record, he would’ve done it already.”

“That’s bull,” says Jungkook, glaring at his brother, “I swim because I like it, not because I’m bored.”

“Really? Says Namjoon, “Then why do you hold back?”

“I do not.”

“Yeah, you do, you’re really good at swimming, excellent at it, so why not go for the best record, get your name known?”

“Well, because swimming is not always about breaking records,” he roars.

“You’re so talented but you never actually put in the work,” says Namjoon, “Such a waste.”

“Look, if you want to go breaking records than go ahead, I’m not you, I don’t things just to get trophies.”

“Excuse me!”

 “Boys!” exclaimed their mother, glaring at them, “Jungkook, watch yourself, that’s your older brother you’re talking to.”

Jungkook sighs, “Sorry,” he says, getting up and grabbing his backpack and skateboard, “I’m going to school.”

He glares at Namjoon before walking out, he understood where Namjoon was coming from. When he was in high school, Namjoon loved swimming but had to quit in the middle when he was in an accident, that left his knee in pain. Despite getting all sorts of treatment, and walks normally, his knee would sometimes act out. This was a normal routine whenever it was competition season, but Jungkook was not in the mood to be pressured into doing something he didn’t want to. He swims because it’s fun and it keeps him busy, he wasn’t aiming for medals or records.