I plastered a smile on my face and pretended everything was okay. I tried to lose myself in what I lost myself best in: work, not letting any opportunity of working till late go. The members were worried for me, my health was deteriorating due to not having had a good rest in weeks but I reassured them (always with a smile) that I was fine.

Because I couldn't risk it, Soojung. I couldn't risk slowing down, because once I did, I would break into a thousand pieces and I wasn't sure if I would be able to get myself together again.