Jennie’s POV 

Another day. 

Another tiring and lonely day.

Work-Eat-Sleep that’s my daily routine. It has always been like that and I’m getting tired of it. Even though I'm not alone but i always still feel lonely.

I always seek for warmth and affection. Those are things that I've been deprived of because my dad wants me to grow up not depending and to get attached to other people. As he always reminds, they would always leave you eventually, nothing is permanent. 

---

I asked Mr. Soe to drive me to work because i don’t feel like driving. The weather today is gloomy and it somehow makes me more sad.

“Are you okay, Ms. Kim?” Mr. Soe asked worriedly while driving

“I don’t know, Mr. Soe. These past few months I’ve always been so tired even if don’t have lots of work in the office or even if I’m just at home sleeping all day” i sigh while looking outside the window

Comfortable silence filled the car until Mr. Soe decided ask me.

“Do you feel like you’re happy but not that really happy, and sad but not really sad? Like you’re stuck in between?”

It took me a moment to answer back

“It’s more on the first one i think. I've never been truly happy for a long time even though it seems i have everything, i can buy whatever i want, but still I always feel so empty”

He just nodded with a sad smile.. Then I continued  

“I want to experience it. I want to have something that would make me laugh till I can’t breath and forget about my worries. I want something that would make me feel things that i never felt before. I want to know what happiness truly means” in times like this i feel so helpless

“Do you know what would make you feel and find the true happiness you’ve been seeking for?”

“I think I've already found it a long time ago but i chose to shut it away up until now and maybe that’s the reason why I’m always sad” i sighed

“Why ignore it?”

“I am scared and simply because it’s wrong, we’ll both get hurt”

When we reached the entrance he opened the door for me and said

“Ms. Kim? What you’ve said doesn’t work that way. Pushing them away won’t do any good, both of you are hurting. Both of you will suffer in a long run. You’ve just played the fool yourself thinking it’s for the better. Ms. Kim, you deserve to be happy” 

I was taken a back. I gave him a genuine smile.

---