"So ... are you ready to tell me what happen to you ?". Asked Jiyong while washing Seungri's hair with shampoo .

Seungri looked quite troubled for it , but Jiyong cant see how Seungri react since Jiyong was behind him . Seungri then connected his fingers onto each other , and rested it below his chin .

"If I tell you . Will you still act nice to me ?".

Seungri can feel the movement above his head suddenly stopped . He's began to feel scared .

"Dont worry . I will at least let u stay for a night haha . Kidding ! Of course not ! ". said Jiyong before he continue his work .

Jiyong was gigling , but to Seungri , its not funny . He still afraid that his story will affect his relationship with Jiyong .

"Can .. can I just keep it as a secret for now ? I really am not ready to tell you , of all people ..".

Jiyong can see those trembling body of the younger and its getting more obvious .

He's afraid . He scared that his story might make me hate him and chase him out . It must be so hard for him to tell his past to a stranger . 

What am I doing ? Forcing him ? He's so far , a very demure and good man to me . He didnt give me any harm . 

He give me a lot of nice feelings , and i feel like Im being loved so much .

Yeah , he will tell me one day , and I will wait for the day to come .

"Alright Riri . Dont worry . U can tell me whenever u ready okay ? Dont be scared , or any pathetic feeling u had inside u right now . Because Im here to get rid of all that . I'll help you whenever I can ". said Jiyong in his sweet voice , only to make Seungri turned back to Jiyong and hugged the older in the midst of tears .

"I promise I will protect you with all I had in me , Jiyong . I will do everything you want . From now on , Im yours". declared Seungri .

Jiyong was utterly happy , and he reply back the hug . 

"No need to go as far as to be my bodyguard lol . Ure so cute !". Jiyong laughed while patting softly onto the younger's relaxed shoulder .

***

Jiyong showed Seungri his new room , and Seungri was obviously looked happy . 

The room was styled as a musician themed style . A big linkin park and MCR poster was being hung on the ceiling , which made the younger looked more impressed . There's also a loads of music equipment , and edm player and also electric guitar which being displayed at the corner of the room .

The smell of artists in here .. is so strong .

Jiyong smiled as he knew how much Seungri loves the room .

"U can use everything in this room . This is all my hobby once . Now Im not capable of using them anymore so , if u can , then use it to your hearts content , Riri . Maybe you can write a song for me one day hehe". explained Jiyong , missing a bit about when he was younger .

Seungri felt disheartening hearing Jiyong's talks . He somewhat felt concerned and curious .

Jiyong was pluckering his electric guitar's string to make the sound went smoother . He was smiling when did that .

"Haha . Its still strong lol , the string . Yeah , I used a branded string , dont u dare to break apart . haha". Jiyong's smile was enough for Seungri to go closer .

Seungri then holded Jiyong's hands , with a concern looks beaming from his sharp eyes to the older .

"Why you cant play again ?". asked Seungri .

"Well .. Im actually losing my eardrum in my left ear , and eventually I lose my capability and my interest because of it . I lose one because I hear the music in a very loud frequency . Then , it happens . Nothing serious so dont you worry , Riri . Im fine now ..". Jiyong smiled with his outmost sincere .

Seungri was suprised to hear that kind of accident . He learned new info again . 

"Can music damage our inner organ too ?". asked Seungri , feeling curious .

Jiyong nodded . "Of course . Our body is weak for many many things , thats why we have to take care of our body more than we thought we should be . And Im getting old , and this kind of hobby is not gonna age with me too , so I decided to quit ". 

Seungri was still feeling concerned . How does he live with only one ear functioning ?

Seungri took his time thinking about something , before he went back to stare onto Jiyong .

"I will write a song for you one day . I promise , Jiyong ". 

Jiyong nodded , felt elated .

"I will always wait for what you wanna tell to me through your music. Im looking forward to it , Riri".

***

*Brother !!!! Brother !!!!! Dont leave me alone here !!! Im scared !!! Take me with you brother !!!!!!!!!*

*Brother Ri !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

***

Seungri woke up abruptly from his sleep . He's sweating all over . He's even losing his breathe .

He rubbed his chest several times to calm himself down .

He barely able to pull himself up from his dream he had just now . 

Its the same dream he saw every night . 

Seungri buried his sweating face onto his palm , literally regretting about something .

God ... how can I get a good sleep without dreaming about her ??? Please let me rest even for just one night . I cant go on with my life if she keeps appearing in my sleep and haunt me . I had enough for something Ive withstand for years . 

Please stop . I just need to breathe for a better life . I need to move on . I have to forget it all .

I dont want to remember my past . Never . Please ! Give me one last chance to live !

Suddenly , someone was knocking the room door . It was Jiyong .

"Seungri ? Are you awake yet ? I prepare breakfast . I have to go to work now . Please eat ok . I'll coming back for lunch . Dont go anywhere ! I"ll leave now ok ". said Jiyong from the back of the door before he was wearing his shoes and went to his workplace .

Seungri can hear the safety sound after Jiyong departed . Its a lock sound .

... tbh .. I wanted to leave today . I cant depend on him to take care of me . I have to find my own living .

Although he's a nice man , I cant use his kindness as my own . I have to help him financially if I were to stay with him .

Im not capable of knowing how's a working life will be , but after I get a job , I will learn more .

I want to be with Jiyong , so I have to start from the bottom .

I hope , he will never ever think Im useless .

After what Ive declare to him last night , and what kind of things Ive learned from him ,

I could never leave those thing he called "warmth" that he gave to me sincerely ....

- TBC