Part 8
When You Love SomeoneI stare blankly at the ceiling. I am really dizzy now.
Beside me, there is Jae. He sits quietly while reading his novel.
I am so hella tired. And... I think my heart is going to stop beating,
I feel like dying now.
It's even hurt more than mom and dad divorce.
Is it over for me now?
I won't have any chance more right.
Young K and my sister are going to get married... Maybe tomorrow, or 1 month or 3 months later.
So how about me? What should I do?
While thinking of that, I start to sobs again.
I can't bear to see them standing while holding hand at the altar later.
What should I do?
"Hanbyul ahh... Are you okay?" Jae asked me. He sounds so worried.
I can't even answer his question.
I can't say I am okay anymore.
I am not okay. I am really in pain now.
I touch my chest. It feels like someone just stab my heart.
I don't know how many times I cry that night.
How can I live with this pain?
I keep hearing my phone rings. But I don't want to look at it.
I am scared... I am afraid that it is Young K who calls me.
I can't sleep or eat well. Every time I eat, I will throw up.
It feels like the system in my body already wrecks. It can't function well.
It's already 3 days I spend my night at Jae's.
He is so worried and because of me he also can sleep well.
I feel sorry for him but I can't help it.
The only things that I do sitting and crying.
My eyes hurt and so does my heart.
My heart doesn't act like the way I want to.
How can I stop this pain?
Again, I hear my phone rings. But I don't have that energy to even stand up.
I see Jae running to pick up the call.
"Byul ahh... It is from your mom. She says she will come back in 3 days." Jae said and sits beside me.
I just nod my head and give him a f
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