Reset Button Interlude - More Nonsense, Amongst More Ramblings

I wish I could tell you that from this point forward, it was happy ever after. That the story could just end right then and we could wrap  this all up with a cute little bow. 

That isn't the case.

Life isn't that easy. 

If we think back to that morning, I realize that I should have seen it coming. Back then, the cracks in our masks were starting to grow. Ominous revelations of things yet to come.

We didn’t think about it then.

We were invincible. Infallible. We didn’t think about the consequences. Completely blinded to anything other than each other.

Even when the dreams started to appear more frequently… Those terrible nightmares…

Of course, this kind of crap is only visible in hindsight. You can never see it when you’re in the moment. And humans only think about these things when they’ve given up on everything. When all hope is lost.

So, can you blame me?

Can you honestly blame me?

Regardless of whether it was subconscious or not, we couldn’t see it in the moment.

We instead went along with our whims. Going with wherever the wind took us.

Skipping and dancing around.

Spiraling and spinning.

Galavanting.

Slaying evil.

Going wild.

Never wanting this game to end.

Like we wanted to forget the past.

Like we were running away.

Like something was up but we couldn’t say.

At least I couldn’t.

There’s a term for it: Human error.

In other words…

I was in lo-

No. Wait.

Those words hadn’t left my lips yet.

The feelings inside my chest then were only starting to bloom. Just a tiny bud that would ache every once in a while. It would take time for it to grow into what they are now.

No, it was something else.

If I were a person more apt to being honest…

I’d say it was because I was…

I was...

Hmm.

I should really stop talking like that. Like I'm including some plausible deniability in that statement.

I'm really should quit.

Especially when it concerned her.

Especially because of her.

Speaking more honestly...

...I’m lonely.

I’m scared of being alone.

But even more so than that.

I’m terrified. I’m practically crippled by it.

I’ve learned to deal with it over the years, I’ve learned to hide that away. To cover it up so that no one could see. And yet, the scars remain. A beautiful reminder.

That’s why, when I saw her there on the dance floor, I knew she was something interesting. This wasn’t meant to be a long term thing. Wasn’t one of those cheap terms that used “destiny” or “star-crossed”. No, at the beginning I would have been okay if it were just a fling. A one night stand and the next day would have been the end of it. Or, at most, I probably would’ve been content with us being just friends. But, you know me. At the end of the day, I’m greedy. I can’t settle for anything besides the extremes.

That’s why it is her.

That’s why it had to be her.

Because she's lonely too.

Because she's broken too.

Because her mask is like mine.

Because my mask is like hers.

So to you, we’ve only just begun. This is just another beginning. And while I don’t apologize for meandering, there is something I can say with utmost certainty since I know how all this heavy stuff ends. How this crazy game of ours plays out.

When the ending screen came and the credits rolled, I couldn’t do a thing.

I couldn’t do a damn thing.

And I’m only thing I’m sorry about is that when the moment came, I wasn’t good enough for her.

Yeah...

It was me.

I was the one that killed her.

That’s why I’m cheating at this game called life… and pressing the reset button.

Well then. That was a thing... 

So some explaining to do.

When the original story was concieved, it was told in volumes or acts. The first was "Game Over" and the second was "Reset Button". Instead of making a whole different place for you guys to read, I'm just going to put the 2nd volume here for all you lovely people to enjoy. Kekekekekeke~! 

Thus, begin this new section... Hope you're ready~!

Good memories and nightmares.