Tae~

I cant sleep, I keep on closing my eyes but my mind don't want to behave. I kick my blanket and sit up. I look at the clock and almost throw it. It's already 4am and here I am wide awake. I decided to leave the room carefully so no one will be bother to wake up. I wake towards the kitchen to drink some you water and after that I don't know what to do. 

I sigh and think. I cant leave the door building, but I don't want to stay here.

"If only I can go to the roo-"

"Right! Rooftop!"

"Woah." I cant control myself in admiring the view here. I look around and find something where I can sit. To my surprise there is a folding bed. Weird but okay, that will be comfortable. I unfold it and lay down. 

"Hello Mr. Moon" i said. 

"Help me?" I've been thinking for days now since Yoongi hyung said that to me. Like what he said I want to try again.... but with him?... What about?.... ugghh

"Taehyung?" I heard that familiar voice.

"H-hyung?"

"What are you doing here?" He asked.

"Uhhhh. I cant sleep, I... I"

"Why are you avoiding me? Is it because of what I said?" 

"Yoongi hyung its not that... Im just thinking.. of something"

"I know you're not gonna say yes to me"

"What do you mean hyung?" 

"you like Hoseok right?" He said looking up to see the stars. 

"How... how did you know hyung?" I asked. He look at me and smiled. His gummy smile

" I just noticed, the way you are with him and the way he made you happy.... compare to when we spend time together... Its really different Taehyung-ah. Hyung is not that dumb not to notice." 

"I like you hyung..... I-"

"But not as much as you like Hoseok?" He asked looking at me, I sigh and nodded. He reach for my hair and ruffles it. I always like it when someone plays with my hair and Yoongi hyung is very good in this.

"Then I guess thats the answer, at least I tried right?" He said and when I look at him he is smiling again but this time I know its fake. 

"Always smile hyung the real one, its a beautiful smile" I said and he nods.

"Ill go now, i still need to get some sleep before going back to work." He said and proceed to walk. I grab his wrist to stop him.

"Do... Do you seriously like me hyung? Is that why you told me that when we went to dinner? Or you just want to-"

"Is that enough as an answer? Because thats my answer. Good night Taehyung" He said and left. Now Im alone, stunned and shocked. What happened? He... He kissed me?! I touch my lips i can still feel his soft lips, I...

"Yoongi hyung....." I starts to cry. Min Yoongi is serious on liking me.

"Tae?" I heard.

"Jimin?" 

"What are you doing here, I know we need to wake up early but isn't to early to.... Wait... Did you even slept?"

"Ahh. No. I can't sleep, how about you why were you already awake?" 

"Uhhh... I told Jin hyung to help me cook for breakfast, but when I checked his room he's sleeping.. Maybe I woke up earlier than what we agreed. But.. Why can't you sleep?" Jimin asked, he went to the kitchen and made some coffee and hot chocolate for me. While waiting for him I'm asking myself If I should asked Jimin and get some advice.. Maybe he can help me right?

"Here" He said placing the cup on the table.

"Jimin..."

"Yeah?"

"Remember when I tried to call you but you didn't had the time to answer me?" I asked he look at me and pouts.

"I'm so sorry Tae, is that important?"

"It's okay... Though, its a bit important?" Why do I sound not sure?

"Tell me? I'm willing to listen.." He said and look at me, I sigh and nods. He take a sip from his coffee and wait for me to start.

"You and Yoongi hyung went on a date?!" 

"Shhhhh!!!!" 

"No Tae you're not gonna stop me from this! Why didn't you just text me!!" 

"Jiminie! Be quite please.." He told me he will be quite and just listen but look whathe is doing. 

"Okay but... You said it's just one time? Why? He didn't asked you again?"

"Well... More like I didn't answer his calls-OW!!"

"Tell me why did you do that?!"

"I... I don't know Jimin" I said, he didn't say anything so I decided to continue.

"I do like hyung and when he told me he wants to try... I swear ... My .. My heart is doing something.... Something like I felt with... Jungkook..." He look at me, then gasp.

"You love him Tae?" 

"I... Am I? I don't know..."

"Then what's wrong?" He asked.

"I... Kinda felt it also.... With Hobi hyung" 

"Oh."

"Yeah Oh." I said and then I felt something on my cheeks. 

"You're crying Tae, come here" Jimin said then wait for me to move. He hugs me and pat my hair. Why am I even crying? To what? To whom? Why can't I answer myself? I continued to cry on Jimin's shoulder while he is just there comforting me. I miss this.

"Everything will be okay Tae. Give yourself a time to think, we can't love two people at the same time. Soon you will need to choose who is better with you, and who you think will make you happy. Just think of it, talk to me or to others you know we're all always here for you."

"Jimin, Yoongi hyung already gave up-"

"Well, we know Yoongi hyung. He never gives up Tae. Maybe, he just told you that because he wants you think of it alone? Or maybr he just needs to do that for himself. And if in case... Just in case he really gave up, we can't do anything with that-"

"And what if he is the one I chose and he already gave up?"

"You need to show him"

"Show him what?"

"Show him how he really means to you". He said with a little pink on his cheeks.

"Like what Jungkook did?" I asked, he smiled.

"Like what he did" 

"By the way how is the two of you now?" I asked, he smiled and stand up.

"We're okay... But I need to wake Jin hyung now, later Tae!" Then he left, they're okay now.... I'm happy for them, they both deserve it...

"Do I deserved it too?"

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Its SLS time to shine.!!! 

Omg. Tae. 🤐