Tae~

It's been a while... we're all coming back to our homes. Finally i can comeback home, i wish it will help me. I wish i'll have peace there, these days Jimin and Jungkook is trying to have their relationship back to its place, though i know its because of me. I know, i know its my fault. Me kissing him when i know that my BEST FRIEND is going to confess to him, HECK!! I WAS THE ONE WHO TELL HIM TO CONFESS AND PROMISE TO HELP HIM!!!!. But what did i do? KISS Jungkook and confess? Though i know he already likes someone...he likes him back.

"KIM ING TAEHYUNG!!!!!" I said and grab a fist of my hair pulling it... 

"come on tae.. pull it pull it more.. until it bleeds"

"it's my fault"

"yes, its your fault.. you're selfish"

"no! i just love him... i just..."

"so, you kiss him and confess to him!!!! even if your best friend ask for your help?!"

"i know. i know!!!!" i grab and throw my mirror at the floor.

"and now what?? they are not okay now.. they were trying but nothing is happening...!!!"

"damn you!!! you're just a ing voice!!!! shut up!! and leave me alone!!!"

"huh. crazy.. your crazy... YOU IS ME KIM TAEHYUNG..."

"i'm not gonna listen to you anymore!!!!. you're the one who push me to confess to him that night...it's your fault!!!" i stood up and grab a piece of glass from my mirror scattered at the floor.

"but its YOU WHO KISS HIM"

"ITS YOU WHO TELL ME TO CONFESS!!!!"

"!!! i didn't tell you to KISS HIM!!!! i just told you to confess and let go!!!" the voice said, i look at the piece of mirror i'm holding.

"AND I DIDN'T TELL YOU TO KISS HIM IN FRONT OF YOUR BEST FRIEND YOU PIECE OF !!!!"

"I didn't mean to that, i don't know that's hes there... i do it just because... i love him... i love both of them!!!"

"if you love him... you will tell him that he see you guys kissing!!!! and you will tell you best friend what really happen!!"

"but hes not going to listen!! he will never listen to me!!! he will hate me again!!! both of them!!! all the members they will hate me!!"

"its your fault!!! you tell your members about the confession but you didn't tell them that you kiss him in front of your best friend!!! its your fault!!! your deserve all the hates!!!"

"i just love him!!!!"

"you're just selfish!!!! its not love!!! if you love him... you'll let go of him!!! if you love your best friend you'll be happy for them!!!! BECAUSE YOU KNOW THEY BOTH LIKE AND LOVE EACH OTHER!!!!!"

"I SAID SHUT-UP!!!!!!!" holding the sharp object... gripping... seeing blood running down..placing it on my wrist.. i'm ready.... pain is all i want.. physical pain...

"what??!! your gonna cut??? GO!!!! cut!!! the more you cut!!! the more PAIN!! is that what you want!!!???. just show them you're hurting and not keep it to yourself!!!"

"Never!!! I will never show it..!!!"

"KIM ING TAEHYUNG!!!! I'M TELLING YOU OPEN THE GODDAMN DOOR!!!!!" i heard a loud bang from the door...

"yoongi.. hyung..."

"see??!! somebody wants to take care of you!!! somebody really wants to listen to you!! don't be such dumb for one person!!! and accept all the hatreds that's the only way for you to go in peace... just listen to me"

"TaeTae!!! Open the door... what are you doing.. please tae... open it" i heard another voice, the one that i miss to call me and talk to me..

"Jiminie" 

"He's there tae, he still you best friend still cares for you. All your members is there outside waiting for you.. come on.. don't be such a coward. Stand up and open the door, let them in in your life again" 

"No. I will not let them see me right now. I'm such a mess i will n-" 

"Here.. i got the keys!!!"

Keys??!!!... no no no... they cant...i'm such a mess right now... i cut... bloods.. i need to clean i need to...

". Tae WHAT DID YOU DO!!!!!" I look up and see yoongi hyung...

"Hyung.."

"You alien what came to your mind this time..." he said..getting his handkerchief and put it on my cut to stop bleeding.

"Tae.." i look at the voice owner. 

"You're sad again, Jimin don't be sad please." 

", what do you want me to do celebrate that you cut? Don't be a complete idiot tae, i don't want an idiot best friend. An alien will be good enough" he smiled and kneel down to cup my face, wipe my tears.

"Best friend?" 

"Hmnn... you'll always be, right kookie?" Jimin said and look at Jungkook. They nods and smile. I didn't notice that they were all here in front of me.

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry" 

"It's okay tae, now get up and let me see your wound." Jin hyung said and yoongi hyung let go of my wounded wrist.

"I'm gonna get the broom to clean the mess here" hobi hyung said.

"Thanks Jin Hyung, hobi hyung... i'm sorry"

"It's okay tae.. just don't do it again okay?" Jin hyung said.

"It's good that, you did not cut so deep. Or else were going to call for an ambulance." Namjoon hyung said.

"I'm sorry hyung.. i didn't mean too.. i was just..." 

"Tae... hey... stop it's okay, just take a rest were all gonna have our vacation you need to prepare for that" he said 

"Ahhh about that, hyung can i stay here?" 

"What?" He asked.

"You're not coming home tae?" 

"Neh, hobi hyung... i just don't feel like going home"

"But you told me, you're excited about this vacation right?" He asked, well yes we are all excited about this, a long rest for us before going to a battle again. But i don't really feel going back... 

"What if we all go to Busan?" Jungkook said, and we all look at him. He's smiling like he was so excited about what he said.

"What? I mean it's been a while for me and Jiminie hyung since we visit home, so i was thinking if you want to visit too. I think that will be great as bonding?" He said, that's a good idea since we don't usually go out together for a while with all of us. 

"Well Jungkook is right, i think we need to have some bonding. What do you think jimin-ah?" Jin hyung said. 

"Jimin?!" He asked again, and Jimin look at him surprised.. is there something wrong?

"Huh?... ahhh yeah that's right... we can all visit busan, its been a while but don't you want to go home?." He said and smile, he look at Yoongi hyung like needing some help. I look at Yoongi hyung beside me... staring at Jimin. Whats happening?

"It's okay for me, visiting busan once in a while will not hurt. Right?? Its a 2 weeks vacation so we can stay they for days or a week before going back to our own home." He answered.

"So... what now... am i going to get tickets for 7 persons?" Jungkook asked excitedly.. with some jumps. Hes cute.

"Yeah. Go buy it jungkook" namjoon hyung said and we all smile. No not all.. jimin has his fake smile again. And yoongi hyung seems to know something.

"Well.. i just want to thank you all.. i may not show it all the times but i'm thankful that i have all of you" 

"That's okay tae..." yoongi hyung said and ruffles my hair... they all smile. This time jimin made a real one.

"Now... let's get prepared... were going to busan!!!" I shouted.. and punch the air..

"Aaahhhoooowww" 

"Pabo. Now Taelien is back" jimin said and they all laugh at me. Such bad hyungs.