Kookie~ (cont. Of his flashback)

"Jungkook can we talk" v hyung asked me... i did not give an answer but follow him... leaving jimin hyung there... 

Were now here somewhere far from the members.... i leaned at the fence.. enjoying the night city lights... not looking at him..

"What do we need to talk about?" I speak to end the bothering silence...still not looking at him..

"Can you greet me first... its my birthday maknae.." he said... ohhh god i don't have any time for him...does he wants cuddles why just get jimin..

"Fine. Happy birthday... Happy now...??? I'm leaving." 

"I know your jealous..."

"What?"

"Jimin... your acting like this because your ing jealous jungkook.."

"No i'm not and why am i be-" he grip my wrist...i am now facing him...hes eyes... teary eyes? Are they really dating each other now? So they were not making me jealous.

"You like him don't you? Not as hyung but in a very romantic  way... That's why your avoiding us... that's why your being a right now.. right?" He said... i pulled my hand and turn... back facing him now... i like jimin?... am i? But in not gay... i should not... but jimin hyung...is..

"Silence means.. ye~"

"NO!! i don't...i will never... i'm not like all of you..." i yelled... 

"Then why are you hurting him..."

"You know how much he loves you." 

"He just like me as a little brother...and why are you telling me this when the two of you are dating right?" I said.. looking him now... he smirked... 

"No were not... ill be lying if i say that i don't like him... jungkook can you listen to me? we became best friends because we cant become like that... he told me how much he is really into you.. and your just acting like its nothing to you... all his sweet acts towards you... it doesn't mean to you... that's why he always crying... then i decided to help..." he exclaimed.. 

"That's why you're making me jealous?" He gasp. So i was right i smirked.

"But you failed hyung... i'm not jealous... i will not be.." 

"But you love him right?!JUST ANSWER ME!!" He yelled at me... i was surprised...my mind is not working properly... cant find words.. cant think or anything... yes im jealous maybe... maybe because i like being with jimin hyung always. He cared for me as i was his real brother... thats all right? But why am i...why...im feeling dizzy... is it because of so much thinking or the drink i have... i cant think of anything.

"Jungkook... why... you don't need him... you need me..." i gasp... he hold my shoulders... hes now crying ... what is he talking about??

"Jungkook tell me... i was your best friend before right... but why did change... why did you need to forget me..why did you need to be with him all the times... why do you need to love him.." he continue... hes now crying.. hes my best friend first... and jimin is my best friend also... why does its need to be like this..

"I don't love him..." is it? I dont know..

"Then why jungkook... why?" 

"I don't know.... its just i always angry when your both together... when your clingy... well not only you... but when hes close to other hyungs too... i don't know.. but i just hate him being like that... then i just found myself  hating him but when he focus to me again... it made me feel happy..."

"Because what i said is true.." v hyung leaned towards me... looking at my eyes...i can see more tears falling to his cheeks... 

"No... i don't kn-" lips attached to mine, soft lips not moving at first but when it strats to move i kissed back...its not right its not...i pulled out..eyes moving around looking for a person who should not see what happened... nothing.. hes not here...and i'm hoping...

"Hes not here... i'm sorry jungkook... its just the way i think will help me to forget about you... ill just take it as birthday gift.."

"Hyung i'm sorry....and happy birthday... my dear V hyung..." i hugged him... he hugged me back... hugging each other for a while... listening to each others sobs...when he let go off me..

"Now go to your chimchim... he will confessed to you tonight... go find him and confessed yourself.." he said and give me his signature smile.

"Hyung i'm not going to confessed anything..i told you i'm not"

"Hey maknae... stop with being liar... and just listen to this..." he said as he point my heart...

Silence... thinking if i should or should not...

"Okay... ill help you... just answer this questions.. okay...ahhh why am i hurting myself more" Vhyung said... i just look at him..and nods.. cant think of anything...

"Can you stay like this forever?.. avoiding each other?"

"No"

"Do you you hate being with him?"

"Of course not"

"Do you hate him liking you..and being clingy to you... doing sweet things..?"

"Well its kind of annoying but i don't hate it"

"Do you hate him?" 

"NO!!!"

"Do you want to stay with him?"

"I felt safe being with him" 

"Do you want him to take care of you more?"

"Well ... he always do that..."

"Why did you avoiding him?" 

"Ahhhh... its because sometimes... hes not looking at me... hes busy with things... i get pissed and then..."

"What do you like about him?"

"Hes smile... him being a cute mochi... him being so small beside me... him being a really caring hyung... him being someone i can trust... him who always nags me but taking good care of me...him always treating me and buying me things that i want... him being jealous when i'm with you or the others... and... him being park jimin.."

I saw V hyung...smiling like crazy then chuckled.. and finally laughs... what is he now crazy?...

"Yeyeyeye lying to me jungkook is not good... i mean your not good in lying... HAHAHAH... saying you don't like him but answering questions about him like hes the most important person in your life... hahahah... ahh and by the way... blushing is a different story.." 

I cupped my face... i didn't feel anything but starting to recall what i answered.... i cant stop making myself smile... did i really... jimin??? Did i really like you?

"Now.... go to that person WHO YOU DON'T LIKE... HAHAHAHA" vhyung said and pushed me... i smile....and nods.. about to leave... 

"Hyung... i still don't know what do i feel... but i promise you... i will not hurt your best friend OUR... Jimin..." i said and rush back to where the party is...looking around... suddenly i felt dizzy... i hold my temples...and blinks... then its black...

End. 

That was the last thing i remember... i woke up like nothing happens... next thing i knew jimin hyung is avoiding me... i keep on bugging him about what did i do... 

". Jeon Jungkook can you just leave me alone... don't talk to me... never talk to me again!!!" 

That was the last time we talked... i decided to avoid him also... since he didn't want to talk to me... i always talk with V hyung and Rapmon Hyung... since his always with Jin Hyung and Jhope Hyung ohhh Yoongi hyung also... who's acting different this days...

After the day that Vhyung tell everyone the story.... they understand now why do we keep on avoiding each other... i can see Jimin is faking talking to V hyung sometimes... he still mad... when we don't know why... no ones know WHY.... since he left without saying anything... and not even finishing the story... he didn't wait for my explanation... 

Then ... when everything is going back to its right place... since they know... what i feel now... but one day he told us he has a girlfriend... my world stops for a moment... thinking that he might putting a prank again... thinking that its just a joke... not until... that aeimi visit the building... since i cant control myself... i act like a bitter EXBoyfriend in front of them... somethings telling me that hes just lying but somethings telling me also that he is not....

And then now.... i just keep on missing him on my side... teasing him... every night i stay awake until he came home after practice... i will sneak out to check him is hes sleeping and took my phone to take a picture of him sleeping... or sometimes i will get some milk or anything so i have some reasons to wait for him... trying to have a talk with him but not... he will just talked with me.. when were with the others...and it ..

Now i'm standing here... somewhere private... thinking about what if that night.. he confessed... and i accept it... although i still not sure of what i feel... are we happy right now?? Are we cuddling right now... are we saying sweet things to each other right now? Am i finally can say that I LOVE HIM...

Tears falling down... not minding if someone will see me... or if he will see me crying... i don't care... i'm starting to hate myself right now... why is it making me miserable... why cant we just back to what we really are...memories of us... good memories that i miss so much...

"THAT'S IT HYUNG ..."

"I'LL WIN YOU BACK.."

"JUST YOU WAIT"