Chapter 17 - Everytime i see you, I die a little more

Secret Love Song

Loving someone is hard. Specially if that someone you know that will never love you back. But for some reasons you continue to love that person because sometimes even if its hurting you so much, you cant stop your mind thinking of that person, thinking about if that person eats well? If he or she feels good everyday? If he or she always been happy? If that person take good care of him or herself? If that person likes or love other person? Or even thinking if that person will be able to love you back or at least like you. But the hardest thing is when your in love with the same gender. Being gay, biual or whatever they call it, for other people its normal and not a sin. But for those who are against it, were always be against on it and they will never try to understand anything.

But for Jimin, he loves jungkook so much. Though his still hurting of what happened and what will happen in the future. He wants to confessed but he cant. Hes afraid what if jungkook is homophobic? What if jungkook will hate him being a gay. What if  his jungkook will hate him forever. But Jimin is not gay, he still likes girls he still a man. But not for his Jeon Jungkook, he maybe called as Biual but he doesn't care. His Jin and Namjoon hyung are both bixesual, his Hobi hyung too well maybe all of them are biual. Well maybe not Jeon Jungkook. He doesn't know anything, he doesn't know what his kookie feel, he doesn't even want to know because his afraid of what might happen. Hes afraid to loose his kookie more. Not now when they trying... when his trying... trying to gather all his strength to confess, few more days ... he decided to confess on the last day... but every time he see jungkook with taehyung, he dies a little more.

Jeon Jungkook, a golden maknae. He can do all the things, he can dance, he can sing, he can hits those freaking high notes, he can do hosting, he can do comedy and make his hyungs die on laughing at him, he can make those army's fall inlove and cried on him anytime anywhere he wants a international playboy we must say. But he cant make his love of his life happy, he cant make that person smile because of him, he cant make that person stay with him, he cant make that person look at him like what they do in the past. All he can do is to hurt his Jimin, his Park Jimin, his angel, who always gives a ing eye smile to everyone, who always being clingy to him, who always stays beside him telling him "jungkookie kiss". He cant, no he doesn't know how he will make that good memories back. One thing that a Golden Maknae Jeon Jungkook cant do is to show how he loves his Park Jimin. And every time his Jimin is with Yoongi, he die a little more. Wishing that hes yoongi.

Min Yoongi, also called as Suga. Great rapper, song writer and producer. Second oldest among the 7 dorks. Grumpy and cold, but loves his donsaengs so much. Specially Jimin, he confess to him and got rejected. But he cant leave jimin alone, specially now. Jimin needs him, and he needs jimin too. Jimin is hurting because of  jungkook, and he is hurting because of that. But he can accept it, as long as he has jimin safe in his arms. As long as he knows jimin is smiling and laughing in his lame jokes. As long as he can touch jimin, hug him or even kiss him brotherly. Thats all he wants and hes okay with that. So that he will do everything to make his jimin happy,  though just looking at jimin while staring at the maknae, kills him a little more. He still okay with that, if thats make jimin happy hes willing to let go.

Kim Taehyung, 4D Alien. Always funny and witty. Sometimes his hyungs never understand him, sometimes his hyungs never want to talk to him, he was called a Alien because of his characteristic and behavior. But they accept him, they love him and hes thankful of that. Taehyung is a normal person, he tends to be a 4D alien to add some humor inside their dorm, van, studio or anywhere when the environment is a but gloomy. Taehyung hates that. He hate sadness, but inside him is a deep taehyung who always sad. A kind of taehyung that he wish never born. He hates himself being a noisy person but he hates himself being a jerk and keeping himself to others, feeling that they will not accept the fact that the Noisy Alien is just a character in Kim Taehyung's life. That the real Kim Taehyung, is the one who messed with jungkook and jimin's life, the one who fell in love with the one who hes own bestfriend fell in love with. The real Kim Taehyung is the one whos in love with the golden maknae, and ruined his bestfriend confession, he swear he doesnt mean to do it its just he cant control himself. And every time hes trying to look to those person who once been part of his life sharing good and funny memories, the once who called as Maknae Line, he die a little more. Saying sorry all the time, though the two said hes forgiven, he knows that hes not. Jimin doesnt know how kookie love him, and jungkook didnt know how jimin and him loves him so much. But he will let go. For the better, he knows its hard but he will.

Jung Hoseok, funny and called by their army's as Sunshine. Hes the most humorous person BTS and ARMY can have. He always smile and loud with Taelien and Jimin. But things changed. They laughs. They smile. They are noisy. But not like the old times. JHope is not called like that for nothing. He tried, he is trying to get things back together, he made jokes all the times. He felt proud when s will laugh but sad when they will back on their own sadness. What concerns him more is his own sadness. He doesnt know why, hes not part of the Maknae Line War they called but hes concerned. He hates it.. avoidance, pretending not seeing each otther, pretending not to care. He, Namjoon and Jin knows it very well. Now thier granpa MinYoongi joined the club of those who smile for a minute and back on being a stone of sadness. The trio doesnt know what to do. Its killing them. Jin is trying in his own ways, taking good care of the members cooking nice foods, but nothing works. Namjooon being a good leader, giving enough time to rest each member, talking like a good father so one of them might tell or open something but nothing. And the silence in their dorm, van, studio is killing them. Wishing that what happened during Tae's Birthday doesnt even happen. 

  

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LUDI4EVER
#1
Chapter 41: Brilliant!
Yha-mhine #2
Wow.. Clap clap clap
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#3
Amazing
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#4
Wow
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#5
Great
Ashurao2710
#6
Chapter 39: Wish you a very happy birthday..
_Jikook20 #7
Chapter 41: *Le sad* ,_, whale at least my jikook heart is okay ,_,
_Jikook20 #8
Chapter 40: Since you already did what is done... How about just make Yoonseok? :) my babies deserve love :'( -Laura
Ashurao2710
#9
Chapter 37: We would love to have u with us on ur special day, if it's fine with you.. and again no pressure.. it's up to you, when to update and ur birthday in 3 days.. wow... It's not manners to ask someone's age, but I am sure I'm older than you.. waiting for ur special day and wishing it to b very special for u this year...
Thu_Nguyen
#10
sorry for the late... but can I translate this story into my own language for my friends, kookmin lovers?
Would not you mind?
love you and thank you so much <3