December 7, 2016

Dear Minhyun,

I think you've moved on from me and from us.

There's another girl you've been talking to a lot and you seem pretty close to her.
She's cute and you two have a lot in common.
I think she might be better for you than I was for you.

I think I realized at least a month ago, I just couldn't admit it to myself.
Today when it hit me, I got up from our lunch table and left. I didn't want you to see me cry.
By now, I learned to control the tears, but my stomach was turning and I wanted to throw up.
My hands were shaking because I can't imagine the sight of you with another girl.

Even then, I want you to be happy.

If the two of you start dating, I hope you're able to love her and be willing to give up more for her.
I also hope you'll realize that there isn't a single person that will ever love you as much as I do, not even her.

Because I love you, I must hold back the tears. I can't hold you back from being happy.

Minhyun, I wish you the best. I really do. 
Even though I'm still not over you...

Love, 

Sehee