September 25, 2016

Dear Minhyun,

Things were getting better for me. I started going out with friends again. I'm eating as much as I used to again.
I found myself smiling again. 

Then you smiled at me.

Getting over you is like climbing the steepest mountain in the world. As I grasp the next rock, sometimes I pull myself up.
Sometimes it breaks off and I fall back to the beginning. The slightest slip up brings me back to the beginning.

There isn't a 'hardest part' of our breakup. All of it hurts and all of it ing .

I realized that it isn't that it hurts any less than the beginning. It still hurts more and more each day.
I realized that I'm just getting used to the pain. I wouldn't say it's numbing, because it's definitely not.
I've just reached a point that all the hurt and all the tears are just part of me now. It's just part of my daily routine.

It's almost been a month, Minhyun. How have I not made any progress yet?

Love,

Sehee