July 5, 2017

Dear Minhyun,

I'm officially with someone else. He treats me the way I always wanted you to treat me.
You've been distant. Did I do something wrong?

I don't want to assume, but are you jealous? It's wrong of me, but I would really like it if you were.
Although I still wish you happiness and a world of good things, I wish you could feel a hint of what I felt the past months.

I'm upset with you.

I'm actually upset with myself.

Daniel has never done anything to make me doubt him except be too perfect. However, I always think of the breakup to come.
After what I went through with you, I'm scared to do this all over again.
It horrifies me when I think about trusting my life, doubts, and love with someone else just to be hurt again in the end.

Why did you have to hurt me?

Even though you just did what you had to do, I still want to blame you. 

It's ok for me to be a little selfish like that after all this time, right?
I think I deserve to put myself above you for once.

Minhyun, I'm mad at you.

Sehee