Yugyeom was confused. He hadn't seen Youngjae since the party started which was weird because youngjae always waited for yugyeom so they could drag bam home together and talk about whatever had happened at the party (usually being Zhang Yixing grinding on anyone in a 5 mile radius or Jackson drunkenly confessing his love to Youngjae) but youngjae was nowhere to be found. He had disappeared after they talked to Jackson..so did jaebum. Everyone knew how Jaebum adored Youngae, which wasn't suprising everyone did. But with jaebum it was different, for someone with such a cold personalty he was surprisingly warm and caring with youngjae. Yugyeom didn't want to think about it anymore, Its a Friday night! he should be drinking and doing things he regrets not thinking about his crush who will never feel the same way about him.

 "Hey" Jungkook called out, offering him a drink. Yugyeom was glad he found someone he knew, bam ditched him an hour ago to do god knows what leaving him alone with nothing better to do than worry about Youngjae.

  "How's it going?" he asked, trying to keep the convo going so he'll have something to do besides worry about Youngjae. Jungkook hummed softly, thinking about the question.

 "Minghao and i were working on a dance collab, you'd be perfect for it what do you think?" yugyeom perked up when he heard dance. He loved hanging out with them, especially if it involved dancing.

  "Awesome! we haven't collabed in awhile it was a big hit last time, Soonyoung hyungs choreography is really amazing!" yugyeom was fully emersed in the conversation now, no longer worried about youngjae or whatever horrible thing bambam could be doing right now.

  They talked for a couple of hours before Kim Taehyung came to drag jungkook back to their dorms. "I'll see you tomorrow gyeom, oh and you should probably check on bambam i heard he threw up on mingyu, Wonwoo looked pissed!' jungkook yelled, already halfway across the room.

  Why is he just now telling me this.. Yugyeom sighed, Kim Mingyu is a very forgiving person but Jeon Wonwoo isn't and yugyeom doubts he would be happy about the drunken Thai native throwing up all over his boyfriend. Yugyeom found bambam asleep in Jacksons bathtub, he didn't look too bad so yugyeom guessed he didn't get hurt badly. With youngjae nowhere to be found he drove bambam home alone, missing the elder boy that would usually joke around with him on the way home and laugh at how weird bambam gets when he's drunk . He carried bambam to the dorm in silence. He saw youngjae sleeping on the couch,he sighed in relief.

   I guess he got tired and went home? yugyeom thought. He didn't want to come in the first place it makes sense if he left early he tried to convince himself but he couldn't shake off the fact that he had disappeared with Jaebum earlier.

"This is stupid, i should just sleep its none of my business anyways" he muttered.

  He woke up to bambams loud screaming and a twitter notification from mark, before he could even finish reading the tweet bambam had ran to his room and jumped on him waving his phone in his face. He couldn't understand what he was yelling but he guessed bam had seen the tweet too. Yugyeom didn't know what to say. Its not like he expected youngjae to like him back, he never even confessed his feelings to him. He knew he had no right to be upset but he couldn't help but think about if it had been him instead of jaebum. But Yugyeom knew Youngjae would never see him like that, he'd always just be his best friend and for awhile that was fine with yugyeom but now he wanted more than that.

  "Hey don't worry too much you know youngjae isn't like that" bam tried to comfort him, which is true youngjae isn't one to sleep around with anyone. As far as yugyeom and bam knew youngjae had never even mentioned having feelings for anyone. Their best friend may be loved by everyone but he never showed the slightest interest in anyone. Yugyeom wasn't even sure he could trust mark, its not like he really knew the guy well enough to believe him especially over youngjae. But youngjae did leave with jaebum what if...

  They heard a door creak open down the hall, which they assumed was youngjae going to his room. What if he saw marks post? Yugyeom thought, already panicking, he didn't know if the rumor was true or not but either way he didn't want youngjae finding out.

  "Already took care of it" bambam said, waving youngjaes phone in the air. "And his laptop is in my room, he wont find out i promise" bambam continued before yugyeom could even question him. Yugyeom sighed in relief, thankful bambam had thought ahead. Which made him feel guilty, the first thing he thought about was himself he should've tried to protect youngae first instead of worrying about his dumb one sided love.

  Yugyeom groaned, "Thanks bam, i don't know what i would do without you", which is true, he might be a hyper, annoying mess most of the time but bam was pretty reliable. They laid there like that for another half hour, neither really knowing what to do about the youngjae issue.

 "Hey gyeom" Bambam called, turning over to face the younger.

"hm?" he hummed in response, figuring bambam had come up with some solution to their problem.

  "You know, you could make it up to me for protecting youngjae and saving your by making breakfast, I'm kinda hungry" he whined. Yugyeom stared at the Thai native, He knew bambam couldn't hold a serious conversation for the life of him but he figured he would at least try since it had something to do with Youngjae. But just as he figured, the boy was dead serious. Yugyeom "jokingly" shoved him, causing him to fall on the floor with a loud thud.

  "Come on" Bambam groaned, "I'm hungry". Yugyeom smiled, thankful bambam was attempting to cheer him up with his annoying happy go lucky attitude (even if it cost him a bruised ). "You're lucky I'm nice" he said crawling out of bed to fix breakfast (if you count overcooked eggs and burnt toast as breakfast). 

  They spent the next couple of hours moping around and talking about nothing in particular. The dorm was unusually quiet, neither of them had heard youngjaes annoyingly cute laugh at all or heard him fumble around his room to set up his camera for his weekly lives. In fact they hadn't seen him at all, they all knew youngjae was a deep sleeper, (almost impossible to wake up in the morning in yugyeoms opinion) but he'd never slept in this late. Yugyeom couldn't help but worry again, What if something happened to him at jacksons party? what if he found out about marks post?  people on the internet could be harsh, and he didn't think youngjae could handle it, he was used to being adored by everyone (whether he knew it or not). 

  He found himself standing outside of youngjaes room, hand already on the door knob ready to enter. He took a deep breath, he wasn't sure why he was nervous he was just going to youngjaes room its not like he hadn't been here thousands of times before, it just felt different today, like the usual bright aura it gave off was gone. Welp, here goes nothing He thought, twisting the door knob open.

  "Hey.." he peeped his head through the door, not sure if he should go in or not. No response. "Just wanted to check up on you, you kinda disappeared during the party" youngjae stiffened up, not saying a word. Yugyeom didn't need an answer though, judging from the way youngjae responded he guessed what mark said was true. The younger felt so overwhelmed, apart of him felt betrayed, his best friend didn't tell him something like this himself he had to find out from mark, he couldn't really blame youngjae for not telling him but that didn't make his heart hurt any less. He couldn't even describe all the other emotions he was feeling it was just a mix of sadness and regret.

  "Oh, I should go then" he choked out, a lump forming in his throat. He didn't want to cry in front of youngjae. He figured youngjae needed his space and so did yugyeom, he didn't think he could bare being in the same house as him right now. He rushed out the door not bothering to give Bam a proper explanation He just needed time to himself to think. Without really thinking much about where hes going he find himself at the dance studio he uses to practice and record covers. He walks in hoping dancing will help him calm down a bit. 

  After an hour of practicing the same move over and over again he decided to give up, it was a fairly easy move that he had mastered weeks ago but today he just couldn't do it. Needless to say, he was still thinking about youngjae. Yugyeom sighed, which he seemed to be doing a lot these days, if dancing couldn't take his mind off of youngae he figured nothing would. He groaned, covering his face with his hands to mask his loud sighs, not wanting to disturb anyone else with his pity party. He felt someone tap on his shoulder.

"Not today please, im kinda having a breakdown right now" he muttered, not really wanting to be bothered.

  "Uh.. Yugyeom?" Jungkook asked, yugyeom could imagine the stupidly cute confused face hes probably making. When yugyeom didn't respond he decided to continue with what he was saying "We were looking for you earlier for dance practice, Soonyoung hyung was worried when you didn't show up so i went to look for you, i figured you'd be here".

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  Yugeyom jumped up remembering his promise to do the cover with them, he really had been looking forward to it but he got all caught up in this mess and forgot all about it. "I really am sorry i meant to meet up with it but things got super complicated and i just-" he couldn't even finish his sentence he was just so frustrated and overwhelmed, he went back to sitting on the floor with his hands covering his head, Jungkook joined him on the floor, awkwardly trying to comfort him with small pats on his back.

  "Its fine, Minghao rescheduled the practice already" Jungkook reassured him. Yugyeom couldn't help feeling bad though, not only did he forget about his plans with his friends he also bailed on youngjae and bambam without any explanation. He didn't really mean to, he was just so worked up earlier he couldn't help it. He apologized to jungkook again and promised to meet him next time, they sat there for a bit not saying much, eventually jungkook left and yugyeom figured he should head home too he just wasn't sure he was ready yet, he was still upset from his "conversation" with youngjae earlier and seeing him right now might not be the best idea. But he knew he didn't have the right to be mad, he didn't own youngjae, he might like him but he didn't have the right to dictate what he does or who he does it with. With a sigh yugyeom stood up and headed for the door. 

Authors note: WOW I LEFT FOR AWHILE?? AND I CAME BACK WITH A REALLY Y CHAPTER IM SORRY I JUST THOUGHT NO ONE WAS READING AND I DIDNT WANT TO CONTINUE WITH THIS MESS,, ALSO IM KIND OF GOING BACK A BIT BUT I PROMISE THE CHAPTERS AR GONNA ADD UP AFTER THE SCHOOL CHAPTER ITS GONNA GO TO WHERE THE STORY STARTED AT THE BEGINNING SO UM? THATLL PROBABLY TWO CHAPTERS AFTER THIS BUT IM ALREADY WORKING ON THE NEXT CHAPTER OKAY IM OUT PLEASE COMMENT EVEN IF U DIDNT LIKE THE CHAPTER, CRITISM AND MEMES HELP TOO~