The cure for

anything is,

saltwater

-sweat, tears,

or the sea.

 

~

''He doesn't know how to love.''

''What the are you talking about, Youngbae?''

''He doesn't know how to love and you're choking him with your love, you dickhead!'' Youngbae rolled his eyes but Seunghyun hit his head.

''At least you can try to understand him!''

''Hyung--'' Youngbae whined, caressing his head. ''--do you know what happens if you love someone so much, who doesn't know how to love?''

''He wants to love you too.'' Seunghyun said his thoughts loud.

''Exactly!'' Youngbae turned at Daesung. ''But he can't love you, because?''

''He doesn't know how to love.'' Daesung mumbled.

''But when you keep loving him, he can't stop wanting to love you back.And then?''

''He runs away.'' Jiyong chuckled sadly. ''He is running away.''

~

''Are you guys dating?''

Jiyong suddenly asked and Daesung almost choked with his own saliva.

''What--- With who?'' Seungri asked back, had no idea what Jiyong was talking about.

''Shin.''

''No.'' He grimaced. ''We both don't love each other that much.'' Youngest smiled but Jiyong was seeming angry.

''Love should be a scary word for you.''

''It should be scary for everyone.'' Seungri said smiling and kept eating his lunch, but Youngbae sighed deeply.He was sad while watching Jiyong, who couldn't give up.Why it had to be Seungri? Couldn't he love someone else? He could date with almost everybody he wanted, he was handsome, nice, ing handsome.He could have a normal relationship, but he didn't give up on Seungri.Somehow, couldn't.

''It's not scary for me.'' Jiyong said and everyone was waiting for Seungri to get up and leave.Because he was like that, everytime the topic was serious, Seungri was running away with an excuse.

But he didn't run away, he lifted his head and looked at Jiyong.

''Why?''

Jiyong looked at him, surprised, very surprised.

''This is the moment you should get up, saying that you have to do something.''

Seunghyun was biting on his lip nervously.

''When you don't love, it's easier.'' Seungri said, ignoring the mocking. ''Shin doesn't love me enough for pass the dangerous line, and same goes for me.So when our friendship is over, it will be easy.We can see and help each other for now.''

Jiyong chuckled, Youngbae could sense that he was getting even more angry.

''And, where is the fun?''

''What?''

''Life, Ri.'' Jiyong's expression changed into a serious one when he looked into youngers big, brown pretty eyes, which he ing loved.

''You can't have fun with that logic.You need to love people, you need to get sad when they leave, you need to miss.''

Nobody dared to say anything when Seungri stared at Jiyong for a while.

''You know it better, right? Feeling those makes you feel better?''

There was a reason, why they called him dangerous.

''Can you tell me any benefits of loving someone?''

''Stop ing being this much cruel!--- No-- hyung-- let me go!--'' Seunghyun quickly pressed his palm against Youngbae's mouth and dragged him away.Daesung got alarmed, everyone was looking at them so he helped Seunghyun.Because really, there was a reason why they called Youngbae mom too.

Actually, all of them could see how cruel was the younger.Everyone was angry for that, but Seunghyun didn't want to ruin that moment because it was rare, Seungri wouldn't even talk this much deep.So he stopped Youngbae.

''It makes me feel like human.'' Jiyong said, they were still looking at each other like the other three didn't make a fuss.

''What about you, Ri? When you will start to feel like one?'' Jiyong decided to talk harsh because he didn't want him to back off.But it didn't mean that youngers words didn't hurt him, because Seungri knew, the person Jiyong loved and missed was him, but still asked it while looking at Jiyong's eyes.

''I'm already feeling like one.I just don't believe love or whatever you call it--For example, me and Shin.'' He said, taking another bite. ''You can call us friends but I don't miss him if I don't see him for a long time.I don't put myself in danger for him, because I know he won't do it for me.See? Everything is easy and painless.''

Jiyong didn't talk, but his expression wasn't angry as before.He slowly reached his spoon and smiled, started to eating like Seungri.

''Keep kidding with yourself.'' He mumbled and Seungri cocked an eyebrow, looked at him.

''What?''

''You're kidding with yourself.'' Jiyong said, his smile disappearing slowly. ''You can keep saying that to yourself, but it doesn't change anything.''

''It does.''

''A man who got shot feels the pain even he keeps saying that he is okay to himself, Ri.You can't change your feels.'' He stopped and smiled again, his eyes locked with youngers. ''A boy who fell in love,'' He saw Seungri gulped uncomfortably, but younger kept looking at him because he didn't want Jiyong to know that his words affected him. ''-can tell himself he doesn't love.But it doesn't change anything.''

''Then he can run away.'' Seungri said quickly.

Jiyong was already aware of it, so he chuckled softly.Not even feeling angry to younger anymore.

''Yeah, he can do that.He can run away from everything you know, anyone.Except one thing.''

Seungri was listening him carefully, didn't even blink.

''Himself.'' Jiyong said, his looks got softer. ''You can't run away from yourself, never.''

~

''Come on get in--- they're getting ready.'' Daesung said smiling to the girls standing beside Youngbae.

Jiyong and Seungri thought this was one of the, let's-go-out-and-drink-until-we-pass-out nights.Seunghyun said the two girls were his friends, but the truth was different.They were Youngbae's friends, and Youngbae picked them for another reason.

One of them was for Seungri, the blonde one, smiling to bright.And other one, more classy and shiny one, was for Jiyong.

Because come on, how could they keep living like this? One of them wasn't even being busy with his life because he was in love with other one so bad, and the other one was trying to stay away from the drugs, couldn't even trust himself for go to his own house.

They need to take their paths.

The separate paths.

''Stop calling me Jiyongie!''

''Jiyongieeeee--''

Youngbae smiled at the girls nervously, their voice were filling the whole house, which was coming from the bedroom.

''Ah...you already came--'' Seungri appeared in the hall, smiled at them.

''Sorry for being late, Jiyongi-- Jiyong hyung is obsessed with clothes.''

Jiyong rolled his eyes.

''He doesn't stop whining while I'm trying to get ready.''

''Me?-- Of course, I'm gonna whine! I was ready one hour ago and I kept waiting for you.''

''I wasn't late, you were early.''

''Oh..Sorry, prince Kwon.''

''Shut up.''

''Oh---Guys, let me introduce the girls--''

''Don't tell me to shut up!''

''Then stop talking too much!''

''Sorry-- I can't take you serious in that pants.''

Jiyong got closer to Seungri and pressed his index finger on youngers forehead.

''I can't take you serious with this hair.''

''Nothing is wrong with my hair.'' He glared at older.

''It is the same color for years.''

''But you love it.'' Seungri grinned while teasing him and Youngbae sighed.Because the girls were obviously trying to understand what kind of relationship they have.

''Take risks, Ri.''

Jiyong finally stepped out from their own world and grabbed his keys, smiled kindly when Daesung introduced the girls.

Seunghyun wanted to go to a new restaurant, others quickly accepted because they knew Seunghyun had a unique taste.And they were right, the place they went wasn't close to city center, it was warm, like you're in somewhere you already came for few times.But at the same time, it wasn't cheap, obviously.It had weird paintings on the wall, expensive decorations.

That was the reason why they trusted him when Seunghyun wanted to take them somewhere.The guy definitely has taste.

They pick a table beside the windows because the view was soothing, the restaurant was at the seaside.
One of the girls sat beside Seungri, the blonde one.

Seungri smiled at her and when he looked for Jiyong, he saw him sitting across, between Youngbae and other girl, the classy one.

Seunghyun and Daesung were together, as always.

When they started to talk, Seungri didn't feel like chatting, so he leaned his chin on his hand and turned his head to window, looked at the wavy sea.He couldn't help but smile, somehow he always liked the water.It didn't matter if he was on it, or looking at it, or swimming in it, the water always made him feel calm.

Youngbae sighed deeply when he looked at Jiyong, not even chatting anymore but looking at the boy, who wasn't aware of the fact that olders eyes were on him.

''I think you should take a walk.'' The girl beside whispered to Jiyong, which startled him.

''I-- didn't understand?'' Jiyong said, quickly averted his eyes from the youngest in the table.

''He looks like he wants to go out.''

This time he got what she meant and looked at Seungri again before smiling at the girl.

After few minutes, when the others were talking about something, Jiyong slowly stood up and put his hands on youngers chair, leaned to his ear.

''Wanna look closer?''

A grin appeared of Seungri's face before he nodded and stood up.

Youngbae just sighed, for nth time.

''I believe I can fly~~'' Seungri opened his arms and run on the sand like a kid.

''How old are you? 7?'' Jiyong chuckled.

''What about 8? Your favorite number.'' Seungri winked at him and he laughed.Because youngers mood was obviously light and it made Jiyong happy to see him like that, not trembling, not crying, not seeming nervous, not itching.

''I didn't notice that you liked sea this much.'' Jiyong mumbled and sat on the sand.It was already late, the beach was completely empty but the view was really nice, especially the voice of the waves.

''Because I never told you.'' Suddenly Seungri run to him and stand in front of him, blocking his view. ''Why did you sit? Get up.'' He grabbed one of his arms and pulled him up, Jiyong looked at him surprised.

''We should do it like they do in movies-- You can't just sit.''

Jiyong paused for a moment, for see if younger was playing around but when he noticed Seungri was serious, he laughed loudly.

''You're--- serious.'' He said still chuckling but he quickly pressed his lips together, seeing the pout on youngers lips.

''Okay, what should we do?'' 

Seungri's pout was gone with that, he smiled like a child.

''Come after me!'' 

Jiyong smiled so wide when younger started to run towards the other side of the beach, followed him without being able to stop smiling.

''Your shoes.'' Seungri said while taking off his shoes, Jiyong did the same and put them beside Seungri's on the sand.

''And now?'' Jiyong said and Seungri grinned, opened his palm like he wanted something but Jiyong didn't understand what he wanted.

''Your hand.''

''My hand?'' Jiyong said, eyes little bigger with surprise.

Seungri sighed at the man and grabbed his hand.

''Now, we need to walk from here--'' He pointed at the end of the beach. ''To there-- like a romantic ost is playing.''

''You're not serious.''

''It's always like that in dramas.''

Jiyong chuckled and quickly facepalmed with his free hand.

''You're serious.''

Seungri just giggled and started to walk, pulling older with him.Younger was walking in water in purpose, making his feet wet, but Jiyong was trying to step on the sand.

''You should hold it like this.'' Jiyong said after looking at their clasping hands.He felt so weird when Seungri just opened his palm, let Jiyong show the way how should they do it.Now he was really feeling like one of the guys in dramas, who is desperately in love with the other character.Because Seungri did the same when Jiyong intertwined their fingers.

It was more than different, because Jiyong knew they didn't hold hands like this, not even once.They used to touch each other so much, holding hands wasn't a thing they didn't do, but not like this.

''You're getting out of the role!''

''What?'' Jiyong tried to avoid how the tight hold his hand made him happy.

''You should put your feet inside the water!''

''But it's cold--''

''Come on!'' Suddenly, Seungri wanted to pull him closer for make his feet wet but when Jiyong accidently stepped on youngers foot, they both screamed before falling into the cold water.

''God!--- '' Jiyong tried to get up, the cold water against his skin made him shiver.

''What-- are you doing?'' He asked because Seungri didn't let him, pulled him down again with their clasping hands.

''Your fancy clothes are already wet, Jiyongiee~''

''Because of you!''

''If you step in the water, it wouldn't be like this.'' Seungri said giggling, obviously he was happy with the unexpected falling.Technically they were sitting on the sand, the wave already made them wet and it kept making.Jiyong really, really didn't like this kind of things.The clothes he picked was ruined but when he looked at Seungri, somehow the boy was seeming cheerful.

''It's like this in movies--you don't even know--'' Seungri mumbled, more to himself.

Jiyong couldn't help but chuckle, it was cold, really cold, but he always loved to see Seungri like this.Because it was rare, Seungri didn't act like this.He didn't do the things he wanted to, didn't say the things he wanted to, he always acted like he could deal with everything.But Jiyong knew, he was just an adorable kid inside.

''You're cute.'' Jiyong said without even knowing, and he was being honest.Seungri was seeming so damn cute with his wet hair on his forehead, water splashed on his face, making his smiling lips wetter and pinkier.

Now it wasn't even cold as before.

''Why you're so happy? Our clothes are ruined.'' Jiyong said, ruffling youngers hair.But Seungri grabbed his wrist and held that one too, clasped their two hands.

''I think---'' He said while putting their intertwined hands on the water, playing with them. ''--it should be like this in movies too.Walking in the beach is not fun.''

''So they should just sit in the water and play with their hands like an idiot?--- Yah!'' Jiyong closed his eyes and grimaced when Seungri splashed water on his face.

''You're an idiot-- I love water, the waves of the sea help me get back to me.''

''Oh..We finally found something you love.'' Jiyong said, not able to wipe his face because Seungri was still holding both of his hands tightly, so he let water rolled down on his face.

''I have few things that I love.''

''I thought you didn't like love.''

''Too much love.'' Seungri stopped playing their hands on the water and looked at the older. ''I don't like too much love.Because I don't want to have someone that I can't live without.''

''Why?''

''Because everyone goes away one day.Welcome to the real world, Alice.'' Seungri winked at him, tried to change the subject.But Jiyong paused for a moment, like something just hit his head.

''Was it--''

''What?''

''All of it because of that?!--- You idiot!'' Jiyong suddenly hit their hands on the water, made Seungri close his eyes because of the water splashing to his face.

''That's why--- I'm waiting--- That's why you're not coming.'' 

Seungri tried to pull his hands but Jiyong held them tightly.

''There is no running away this time.'' He got closer to Seungri in the water, until their knees were touching. ''Your dad-- He left your mother and you, right?''

''Hyung-- I want to get up.Let me go.''

''No.'' Jiyong quickly answered, not even bothered with cold water anymore.He finally understood what was Seungri's reason for not feeling like he is worthy for love.

''He left you---and you watched your mom falling down.'' Jiyong smiled, something was too bright in his eyes. ''How I didn't understand--''

''You don't understand anything---Can you let me go? I want to go.'' Seungri's voice was cracking.

''I can't.'' Jiyong pressed their clasping hands on the wet sand, getting even more closer to younger.

''I can't, don't you see?''

''Nothing lasts forever.''

''How do you know?''

''Because it is the truth.''

Jiyong suddenly started to chuckle and Seungri surprised, looked at him with a confused face.

''You love me.'' He looked at Seungri, still chuckling. ''God--- Seungri, you love me.''

''Hyung--''

''You love me.''

''What are you doing in the water?! What are you--Nuts?!''

Seungri wanted to turn his head back for look at his hyungs, but Jiyong suddenly wrapped youngers hands around his waist and left them there, cupped Seungri's face with his own hands.When Seungri sensed what Jiyong was about to do, he wanted to back off, run away.But when he felt Jiyong's wet lips against his, he couldn't even move.His hands were now holding the edge of olders shirt.He couldn't pull himself back.He couldn't kiss him back.He just, stayed like that.

Jiyong didn't kiss him hard, he was painfully slow.Seungri could feel the light pecks on his lower lip.

''You love me.'' Jiyong whispered, smiling against his lips.

Seungri didn't want to love him.He didn't want to miss him, think about him, he didn't want to want Jiyong close to him.But he always felt so good with him, couldn't hold himself but wanted more.

Trusting someone, opening your life to someone could be one of the biggest mistakes of your life.He knew it, because his mom did it.And after that, she could never be the same person again.Seungri watched her tearing apart, he saw how she couldn't trust anyone again, how she couldn't love anyone again.He watched his mothers loneliness.

But, why he was feeling good?

Jiyong kept loving him despite all the things and Seungri wanted to love him back, and he did.He loved Jiyong, he just didn't believe the big happy ending things.Because the life was like that, everyone was getting tired of each other after some time.

But he didn't know why his fist were holding Jiyong's shirt tightly.He didn't know why he couldn't just get up and turn his back at the older like he always did.He didn't know why any words didn't come out of his mouth.He didn't know why he just gulped hardly.

''Sorry girls.'' Youngbae chuckled.

~

I have a thing for Jiyong smiling whenever Seungri opens his mouth :)

Seungri being boss with others and being the cutie pie with his hyungs is the c u t e s t    s h i t   e v e r

nyongtory in their own world~ ♥

Why do we love the sea? It is because it has some potent power to makes us think things we like to think. -Robert Henri

♥