''
I am learning
to love the
sound of
my feet
walking
away from
things not
meant for 
me
''

~

''Finally! You're all here! I wanted to see you guys so bad!'' Seungri cheered and smiled when he saw his hyungs inside.

''Hey--- What happened?'' He asked while looking around, noticed the pieces of glass.But nobody answered, everyone was looking at him like they saw a ghost.

''What happened here--- Oh, Ji-- your hand!'' He quickly put the bag he was holding on the couch, walked to Jiyong.

''What did you do?!'' Younger opened Jiyong's palm, who didn't even resist.Jiyong was looking at him like he was trying to understand if he was real or not. 

''God---Does it hurt?'' He mumbled, still pulling the little glass pieces from olders hand.

''Stop ing staring at me!--- God!--'' Nobody said anything and he sighed deeply before he grabbed Jiyong's wrist, dragged him to the bathroom.

''Can you please start to talk?'' He asked while washing olders hand, but Jiyong didn't even look at his hand for a second, the boy in front of him was more interesting.

''The--- key.'' Jiyong tried to talk, still trying to understand if Seungri was real or not.

''Yes, you forgot it at home.''

Jiyong kept staring at the boy, who was putting some cream on his hand.

''What did you do---Did you break--'' He grumbled while going back to room, Jiyong was following him like a pup.He was trying to understand the situation, Seungri was there, was he?, really?

''You broke my glass!'' He glared at older when he noticed it was his glass.

''I loved that.''

''Where were you?'' Finally Jiyong asked, now he could feel the burning feeling of his hand.Finally.

Seungri stopped collecting the pieces on the ground and lifted his head, smiled brightly. ''I went to my mom.''

Everyone kept staring at him.

''Can you please--- stop looking at me like that? What's happening?''

''We thought, you were gone.'' Daesung said when Seungri sat on the couch.Everyone was sitting except Jiyong, he was standing in front of the younger like a freak.

Was he...really there?

Seungri sighed and grabbed Jiyong's arm, pulled him to couch.

''I went to my mom.'' He repeated, made Jiyong sit beside him. ''She missed me-- Oh and-- She sent some food.'' He pointed at the bag he was carrying and then quickly turned to Jiyong, looked at his eyes. ''Why did you break my glass?''

''I--- I thought you were gone.''

''We thought you went to Shin's place again.That's why Jiyong couldn't stop himself.'' Seunghyun explained but Seungri didn't even turn and looked at the eldest, he kept looking at Jiyong, who was looking back at him, with the sparkle in his eyes.

''You broke my glass because of that?'' He rolled his eyes. ''If you did anything to my carafe I swear---''

''I mean now--- you--'' Jiyong tried to talk, but he really didn't know what to think, what to feel.

''If you're gonna break it, at least throw it.Why the you're holding it in your hand?'' Seungri kept grumbling, like he always did and grabbed the bag.

When he started to put the foods on the little table in front of them, everyone was still looking at him.Jiyong didn't know what should he say, minutes ago he was feeling like his whole world burned up, like Seungri never cared about him, like it was all lie.The sleepless nights they've been through, the long hugs Seungri gave him when he said he wanted to be there for him, the little touches on his face when he acted like he was sleeping, it was all lie.

Well, it wasn't, obviously.

''Okay, okay-- I get it, you're surprised.'' Seungri sighed and leaned his back on the couch. ''I just--- I just wanted to try it.I wanted to see where my legs will to go.''

''I can't believe this! Finally Seungri!'' Youngbae grinned, he couldn't believe that Seungri get out of that house and turned back willingly.Their dangerous boy had a chance to run, but he didn't.

''But how--- how did you hold yourself-- I mean-- I know a part of you wants to go there.'' Daesung said, still surprised.

''Honestly, for a moment, I wanted to go there.It was like a part of me begged me for go there and find some--- you know.'' He shook his head. ''But...''

''But what?'' Seunghyun asked, too impatient.

''I guess--'' Seungri looked at Jiyong, who was sitting silently beside him.His hand was resting on his lap with the cream on it, his eyes locked on Seungri.He was dying for know the reason, because if he needed to be honest, he never thought Seungri wouldn't go.But he was there, sitting right beside him.

''I guess, I found something worthier.'' He said while looking at Jiyong and Youngbae let out a laugh.

''God!--- I'm going to-- lose my mind!'' He stood up still smiling, walked towards the kitchen for find himself a glass of water.Because seriously, they waited this for a while.Long while.

Finally Jiyong wasn't looking at his back, he ing turned around.

''Aren't you hungry?'' He asked to Jiyong, like it was a normal day.But when Jiyong didn't respond, Seungri chuckled.Because Jiyong was looking too cute, still looking at him like he was trying to believe that this scene was real.

''Come on, Ji--- Stop it.'' He mumbled and opened his arms, looked at him. ''Come on, it will make you believe.'' He smiled and Jiyong looked at him, didn't understand what he meant.But after a second, he got it.

Youngbae chuckled again when he saw Jiyong getting closer to Seungri on the couch.

''I'm just---'' Jiyong mumbled, wrapping his arms around of the boy.

Seungri didn't say anything, Jiyong was hugging him really loose, but he wrapped his thin arms around of the older and hugged him tightly.

''Is it okay like this?'' Seungri asked quietly and Jiyong nodded without even noticing.

''It is, sweetheart.'' Older whispered against his ear.He didn't call him that because they were lovers or something, but he always used that word on the unforgettable moments, so he did it again.But when Seungri giggled, Jiyong felt like he wasn't the person who shattered a glass in his hand because of the heavy feeling.He ing would do anything for hear that giggle again.

Jiyong smiled when he pulled back, and he saw Seungri smiling.

This wasn't one of his fake smiles.

This time, it was real.

Like the Seungri, years ago.

Like the Seungri, he knew so well.

~

''Will you stay here for a while?'' Seunghyun asked after the dinner, they were about to leave.

''I don't think I'm ready to leave, hyung.''

Youngbae nodded, and hugged Seungri, his back.

''Finally.''

~

''Can we go out?''

Jiyong looked at him unsurely.

''Ri...''

''Today, the half of me wanted to go there so bad.I wonder--- if it will happen with you too.''

Jiyong didn't say anything for a while, he knew that it was a big thing for Seungri.He ing went out, and didn't even go anywhere.If he wanted, he could find that candies so easily, and Jiyong wasn't an idiot, he knew it.

But Seungri said when he felt like he was about to give up, he quickly went to his mother.Remembered the things Jiyong said about her and took the medicines, which he brought there with his bag.

And Seungri was smiling, because he couldn't believe what he did.

He ing did, he went out, saw his mother, talked to her, and came ing back.

Without any candies.

''We can go for shopping, there is nothing to eat anyway.'' He said and smiled at younger.

Seungri was okay, at first, but when they were out of the car, they needed pass in front of a pharmacy.When Seungri noticed that, he started to itch his arms uncontrollably.Jiyong didn't want to say or do anything.Because younger could do that, and he took a big step today, so he let Seungri choose it himself.But younger quickly turned his back to the other side and clinged to Jiyong's arm.One of his hands found Jiyong's, held his hand tightly, and the other one was hugging his arm like he really didn't want to think what he was thinking, he just wanted to stay close to Jiyong as much as possible.

Jiyong gladly accepted it, squeezed his hand and lead him to the market.

And when they were inside, Seungri was all okay.

Well, too okay.

Jiyong glared at him when he put the third ice-cream on their basket.

''What? I like it.''

Jiyong tried to put it back but Seungri didn't let him.''

''You already bought two, Ri.''

''But still-- Fine.'' Seungri let him take the ice-cream and pouted. ''I don't want it.''

Jiyong sighed and put it back in their basket, which made Seungri grin.

''When you say that you're sick, I'm not gonna look after you.''

''Did you believe that?'' He grinned wider.

''I'm serious.''

''Okay, then I will go to Shin and tell him to take care of me.'' Seungri said while smiling but Jiyong hit his head hard in the middle of the market.

''Yah!''

''Stop talking nonsense.''

''It was just a joke--- oh! Look at them!'' Seungri pointed at the big cups.

''What do you think?'' He grabbed two of them, they were all black but had a Tom&Jerry picture on them.

Jiyong just smiled and ruffled his hair, they were caught up in the moment when they heard some giggles.

They looked their right at the same time, saw some school girls.

''Hey-- No, no! It's not like that!'' Seungri quickly realized what they thought and tried to explain but Jiyong grinned evilly.

''What do you mean it's not like that baby?'' He asked with a very flirty tone, grabbed younger by his waist and pulled him closer.Which was easy because, really, he needed to gain some weight.

Seungri rolled his eyes again.

''I shouldn't have came back-- Ah!-- Stop hitting my head!''

''Then stop talking nonsense.''

Seungri pouted and looked at the girls when Jiyong kept walking.

''He is horrible in bed.''

''I am putting the ice-creams back!''

''No-- I'm sorry!'' He started to run after Jiyong.

~

''Eat it slow-- you're gonna choke.'' Jiyong said while putting youngers new cup on the table, filled with water.

Seungri was sitting beside him with a bowl on his lap, he was seeming even more thin inside Jiyong's clothes.Actually, he could bring some clothes from home, but he liked to wear Jiyong's, and no, he wasn't going to say that loud.

Seungri grinned and hold the spoon against Jiyong's lips.

''I don't want to--''

Younger didn't let him talk and rubbed the ice-cream on his lips while chuckling until he gave up and opened his mouth.

''My mouth is frozen!''

Jiyong couldn't help but smile when Seungri grabbed his cup and make him drink from his cup.

''Strawberry ice-cream, your favorite.'' Younger said and Jiyong surprised, looked at him with raised eyebrows, holding the cup between his hands.

''You still remember--'' Jiyong tried to say more but Seungri quickly fed him again with another full spoon.

''I remember everything about you.'' He said like it was a daily thing and turned his head back to TV.

Jiyong was taken a back, because Seungri really didn't care about him enough.That was why others wanted Jiyong to stay away from Seungri.Because older was begging for attention, ing aching for it, but Seungri was never giving it.

''Like what?'' He asked, because really, there was no way to Seungri remember everything about him.

Jiyong was looking at him but younger was still looking at the TV, eating his ice cream.

''Your favorite color is red, you hate it when i keep hitting my feet on the floor while whining, you always put your wallet in your left pocket, when you feel nervous you're playing with your rings like a lunatic, you keep watching romantic series secretly, you love, really love, white chocolate and even you tried to be sure that we didn't notice, you didn't like Seunghyun hyung in the first times.'' He suddenly turned his head to Jiyong. ''That's all I can remember now.'' He grinned. ''Ah and--- when you don't know what to say, you always on your lip.'' He smiled and pointed at olders lip with his spoon. ''Like this.''

Jiyong quickly hit his hand.

''I'm just--- surprised, very.''

''Why?'' Seungri crossed his legs on the couch, still eating his ice-cream.

''I mean.. I didn't know that you know me like this.''

Seungri smiled.

''I knew a lot, but I just can't remember it all.Ah---'' He moved the spoon in air. ''I don't know why but, you don't like it when I walk in front of you.''

Jiyong looked at him with shocked eyes.

''How did you understand that?''

''I have my ways.'' He winked and Jiyong couldn't help but chuckle at that.

''I guess I have something on my back that you don't like.''

''I just--- don't like to see your back.''

''Are you sure? I have an unique .''

Jiyong chuckled and his lips.

''Do you want me to bring something to drink, to your ego?'' 

''Come on,'' Seungri whined, the spoon clean. ''You know that I'm telling the truth.''

''Stop eating it--'' Jiyong tried to pull the bowl.

''A little--more!''

''It's enough.''

''Hyuuuungg~''

''Fine! Go eat all of them! It will make you feel worse and you will throw up more! Loose more weight and I will show you how it works, Seungri.'' Jiyong turned his back at Seungri, walked to bedroom.But he smiled when Seungri shouted from the living room.

''I'm putting it in the fridge!''

He threw himself on his bed but he still couldn't believe how this day ended.Seungri didn't go.Seungri, really, didn't go.He was sitting on his couch, eating ice-cream.

He started to chuckle and quickly buried his face on the pillow.

Why he was feeling like he was breathing in ease?

Seungri could hold himself, he said that he still wanted to go, it wasn't all gone, but still, he could hold himself.He said ing no to his other side and took the medicines, threw himself inside his mother's house.

He couldn't force Seungri if he wanted to go back to house, but he chose to lean on Jiyong.Because he knew, the only person who could save him, was Jiyong for sure.

He was smiling against to pillow, like an idiot when he heard Seungri's voice coming from the living room.

''That drama-- you keep watching secretly is starting!''