The day was going well, classes went by smoothly, and Jongin is getting better at his studies, and he actually sits next to me, and smiles at me. It was all going great, until I got home. Yeah I have some home drama too, did you forget it was a pity party here.

First, I came home to my favorite type of cupcakes, which were delicious, but mom only makes those on my birthday. Second, was her saying Dad wanted to come sooner, so he’s going to be here tomorrow instead of Friday. And lastly, I forgot today was the day my brother was going to call the house. He hasn’t heard the news that I was dying in less than a year, or should I say 11 months’ now. Time flies huh. Well anyways let’s talk about my brother.

So he called at the scheduled time, 7pm, as usual. My mom was keeping up with her fake happy attitude, until the glorious question came up. “How’s Minseok?” And that’s what broke the peace. Mom starting bawling, trying to tell my brother that I’m dying, which he didn’t understand a word she was saying. So I had to go on the phone, and oh god that was a trip.

“Hello, Junmyeon? It’s Minseok.”

“Minseok how are you doing?”

“I’m dying”

“… Oh Minseok, ha ha, that joke is not funny anymore.”

“It’s not a joke this time.”

Cue some voice cracking and a panicked voice.

“Minseok, please, tell me it’s a joke, I don’t like this game anymore.”

“I only got 11 months’ to live. Uhh, so anyways, here’s mom again, nice talking to you”

You bet I shoved the phone into my mom’s hand and ran upstairs, and god my heart was beating so fast. I sounded so casual on the phone, but instead I was actually freaking out. I know everything that is happening to me, but to tell Junmyeon about it. He’s been working so hard trying to become a doctor. He used to tell me when we were younger:

You listen here Minseok, when I’m older I’m going to cure you, you won’t be sick anymore! Be good for brother and wait, okay? Pinky swear me!

It just breaks my heart to tell him. He actually went through with his promise and I didn’t. God I hate crying and especially for this reason. I just need to sleep. Goodnight.

Minseok