I talked to Yixing today, I asked if he knew I was dying, he said he did but that has nothing to do with us being friends. I asked him again if he knew that I was gonna be dead in a year and still wanted to be friends with me, he said not to worry about, it’s his choice and the only way he’ll leave me is if I despise him. I can’t show you a picture of him, but how could you hate someone like him.

We talked again today during lunch, he asked me a question.

“Would you rather die alone, or have someone by your side?”

It might seem kind of blunt, but I think he caught on that me dying isn’t a big phase to me. The question though, it kind of stumped me. I was always use to being alone, reading books, playing by myself, but looking back, I used to watch the kids play with their friends and always dreamt of having friends of my own, but I gave up on that dream years ago, but I kinda want it back…

Minseok