Why am I thinking about u?
Beautiful HangoverJackson
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We called a cab from the school and left. I told Yugyeom that we are going to get some beer, and he agreed right away. I knew he will never say no to beer. Not even at a school night.
We sat in the cab and there was something that bothered Yugyeom.
''By the way, why do you want to drink? You said you wanted to have good grades? And I bet this isn't a one way to increase your knowledge in math.'' Yugyeom chuckled.
I chuckled back and didn't give an answer to him. I wanted to drink because I was angry. But at who? Jaebum, for not coming with us and rather hanging out with Mark, or Mark, just by his appearance? I didn't know. All I knew right now was that I needed beer. And lots of it.
In our way to my house, we went to the store to get beer and booze. It was only 4pm when we arrived in front of my house. We out of the cab and then I payed the fee. We walked inside to my house and Yugyeom settled down to the sofa.
I lived alone. My mother moved to China not so long ago because she had and still has business to do there and I had to stay here because of school. I had to finish my studies first and then think about moving to China with my mother. But I wasn't sure if I wanted to move there. I'm a half chinese, but living in Korea is much more nicer.
I walked to the living room after Yugyeom. He sat to the sofa with the shopping bags on his hands. I threw my jacket to the sofa and sat next to him.
''You want to play a game first?'' I asked him and suggested the Mortal Kombat. Yugyeom took the challenge and took the joystick and started to play against me. After few hours of playing and drinking a little bit, we decided to just drink. We put the joysticks aside and opened a new cans of beer.
Playing Mortal Kombat was a great way to release the anger, but I still had this weird feeling in me. Why was I thinking about Mark all the time? Did I really hate him so much?
After hours of drinking, me and Yugyeom were so ed up, that we couldn’t sit properly. I noticed that I was talking about Mark and Jaebum all the time. Were they new best friends or something? It has been only one day and he chose him over me, over us! Oh god how I hate him!
We drinked more and more. Jaebum tried to call many times, but I didn’t answer him. He did send messages too but I was so angry at him that I couldn’t answer him right now.
When I was laying on the sofa, Yuguyeom got up.
”I’m going to go to home now, I will take a cab.” He said while he faltered.
”Let me come with you, I need to go somewhere.” I said while trying to get up. Yugyeom asked where.
”To show this little piece of who I really am. He can't just come here and think he's the king of this place.” I said with my drunken voice.
”No, no, no, definitely no. You’re now so drunk that you can’t even stand up. You can talk to him tomorrow.” Yugyeom said while trying to prevent me from getting up.
”I’m going to leave now, so see you tomorrow at school. And don't try anything, okay?” He said while he opened the front door and I waved to him and layed down back to the sofa. He went outside and closed the door.
''I'm going to wipe you out, Mark Tuan. You will not even last a week.'' I said while closing my eyes and letting the alcohol drag me to sleep.
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Jaebum
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I had really great time with Mark for these past few hours. Earlier I introduced the whole school to him and we talked, a lot. I wouldn't believe how much Mark talked about him moving here and having no friends or relatives near this city.
He looked kind of sad when he told me that. I wasn't sure how to react but I said everything will be okay and I will be his friend. He smiled a bit and we continued talking. I had fun with him. I had been so long since I got along with someone this well, or actually even could be with someone.
Jackson is my best friend but he still shouldn't decide if I can be with someone or not. I should be the one who decides it. I don't want to annoy him or anything, but Mark seemed so nice. Even though he hates Mark, he should give him a chance. He should even try to be his friend first, before judging him and hating him so ruthlessly.
When Jackson asked me if I wanted to skip the classes, I did really piss him off by answering no. I kind of wanted to show him that even if he hates someone, I can still be 'that' someone's friend. I really didn't even know why he hated Mark so much.
So, Jackson and Yugyeom really did skip the classes today. I was sitting next to Mark in class and it was the last class for today. Mark focused intensively on what the teacher was talking about.
I stared at him. His red hair was glowing in a bit rusty colour and his pale skin matched with it. His focused impression was so cute.
'Or did you have an affair with him or something?' The sentence echoed in my head. I didn't know Mark before today, but did I already like him? I hadn't liked boys before, but I've always questioned my uality.
It started when I was in 5th grade. I had a girlfriend back then and she once asked why I didn't kiss with her. I said that I didn't know and then she tried to kiss me. I prevented it and then she got really mad and shouted 'Are you gay or something?'. Since then.
I watched Mark writing notes to his notebook. I couldn't stop staring. Did I had a crush on him? When he came here and talked in front of the class, I seemed to be interested in him. Should I even have a crush on him? What if he isn't even gay?
Class ended and Mark started packing his stuff to his bag. I stopped staring and took my stuff and got up. I walked outside the classroom with Mark.
''Are you going home now?'' I asked him curiously. I had something else I would like to ask him too, but it might be too early to ask anything? After all, I have known him only for one day.
''Yeah, I think so. What you have in mind?'' He asked while looking at me. His dark brown eyes had a little spark. I noticed how he started to smile. Should I ask him hang out with me?
''I was just thinking if you would like to go somewhere with me. If you have something to do, then it's nothing.'' I said while smiling.
''Well, actually I don't have anything to do and my mom would like to hear that I have a friend.'' He smiled back at me. Gosh, how cute this guy can be?
''Okay, then let's go!'' I grapped his wrist and walked out of the school.
We went to the mall together, after I suggested this one coffee place in there, which is my favourite. We ordered our coffees and got to the table. After Mark sat down, I didn't know what to say or do.
''Uhm, should we ask someone to hang out with us?'' I asked him and he nod his head a bit nervously.
''Would you mind if we asked where Jackson is? I would like you two to make up and get along.'' I said while taking my phone from my pocket.
I saw Mark thinking about what I said. Mark bit his lips and them a bit too.
''Yeah... I think it would be nice.'' Mark said with a low voice. Would it be a good idea?
''Okay, I will call and ask him.'' I said while dialing Jackson's number to my phone.
I started calling, but after a while, the call went to voicemail.
''He didn't answer. Maybe he is in a bathroom or something. I should call Yugyeom.'' I said and dialed Yugyeom's number and started calling. No answer either.
After a while, after many calls, I got nervous. This is not normal. Usually they answer right away or they call back soon. But now, my calls just went to voicemail. Weird.
''Should we go to Yugyeom's house, I think they are there, because usually they hang out there.'' I said.
''I-I don't think it's a good idea for me to come, I should go ho-'' Mark said, but I cut his sentence.
''No, no! Just come, please. I want you two to get along.'' I said and got up. I drank the rest of the coffee from my cup and then we left the cafe.
We travelled by the bus to Yugyeom's place and arrived to his front door. I knocked to the door and stepped back a bit. I heard someone shouting inside that she's coming to open the door. It was Yugyeom's mother.
''Oh hey Jaebum! Looking for Yugyeom?'' She asked while smiling brightly.
''Yes, I just wanted to know if he's with Jackson here. We were supposed to hang out.'' I said to his mother, but his mother shaked his head.
''No, they are not here, maybe they went to Jackson's?'' She said suggesting. They might be there. We thanked Yugyeom's mother and we went to the nearest bus stop.
Mark seemed to be nervous, after I said that we should go to Jackson's place. I tried to call them both again, but still no answer. I was getting a little bit anxious, but I think that they are just playing games and not noticing that I was calling.
It was late when we arrived to Jackson's place. The lights were turned off. Was he sleeping? We walked to the door and I rang the doorbell.
''The house is really big and pretty.'' Mark said quietly. I agreed. When I first saw that he's going to move here, I was a little bit jealous, but I wouldn't change anything I have.
''Why in the hell are they not answering?'' I said angrily. Anxiety was changing to anger. Was he doing this just because I was with Mark? Really childish behavior.
''Maybe Yugyeom is already at home. And it seems Jackson is sleeping. Why do you worry so much? We can check tomorrow if they are in school, right?'' Mark said with a comforting voice.
''Yeah, I think so. Jackson wouldn't skip tomorrow's practice, he never does. And tomorrow they check everyone's ability to play in a game. They change the captain if necessary. So, that's why he has to be there.''
We started walking towards the bus stop. I was walking queitly and thinking about Jackson. That . Is he doing this on purpose? We arrived to the bus stop and Mark saw a bus coming.
''I will go to this one, we have a different way to home so...'' Mark said while he was waving to the bus to stop.
''Yeah, see you tomorrow at school, right?'' I asked. Mark nodded and was preparing to go to the bus.
''Don't worry, Jackson is fine.'' He said and went to the bus. He sat in the back and waved at me when bus started moving. I waved back.
It was weird that after Jackson wasn't home or was asleep already, Mark seemed to be stressed out. Was it because of Jackson?
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I sat on the bus and waved at Jaebum. He seemed to be anxious about Jackson and Yugyeom. I took my phone and my earphones from my pocket. I plugged the wire of my earphones to my phone and I put the earphones to my ears. I opened youtube and searched for a song to listen.
After I chose the song, I closed the screen of my phone and closed my eyes. I loved listening to music when I'm traveling on the bus at night. It gave atmosphere.
Something still bothered me. After Jaebum worried about Jackson and Yugyeom, I had this weird feeling in my stomach. What if something had happened to them? My mind gave me a flashback about this morning when I rushed to Jackson and Jackson hurt his hand.
It has been bothering me the whole day. What if Jackson is in hospital and it's all because of me? My phone noficated about a new message. It was from unknown number. I got ghoosebumps. Is it Jaebum saying that Jackson is in hospital?
'Hey Markie! It's me, remember?' The text message said. It wasn't from Jaebum. It was from JR.
'Hey JR, of course I remember. How could I forget that annoying nick name you gave me.' I answered. I was a bit disappointed. I thought it would be Jaebum with news about Jackson and Yugyeom.
'Haha! Are you at home now? What did you do today? :)' He said with a smiley at the end of the message.
'I was with Jaebum, he's my classmate. He was really nice to me. We went to the mall after school too.' I answered. It took a while for JR to answer back.
'I see. Did you hang out with Jackson too?' He said. The text message was a bit stiff.
'No, actually we tried to find him, but he didn't answer Jaebum's calls and even after we went to his house, he didn't open the door, if he even was there.' I send the text message.
'Don't hang out with Jackson, you will only get hurt.' He answered right away. I got a little scared. What was he talking about?
'What are you talking about?' I asked.
'Good night Markie! See you tomorrow at school.' He answered. He didn't answer my question. What was the reason for him to say that? Has there been something that I don't know about between Jackson and JR? I was curious, but I think I should ask him about it tomorrow at school.
The bus arrived near to my house, and I got up from the bus. I started walking the rising street towards my home. After a while I was next to my house and then walked to there. I got the keys from my bag and opened the door. I walked inside and saw my parents watching television.
''Oh hey Mark, where have you been?'' My mother asked me.
''I was with a friend, his name is Jaebum and he is my classmate.'' I said while smiling.
''Oh that's great dear! Are you hungry?'' My mother asked and I shaked my head.
''No, I'm just tired, I will go to sleep now. Good night.'' I said while going to upstairs to my room.
I threw my bag to the floor and jumped to my bed. I gasped. What a long day. But someone was still in my mind. Why am I thinking of you, Jackson Wang?
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