paradise. (When I Close My Eyes)

One to Want : Countdown to Escape
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His everyday routine is filled with blood, death, cries, wailing, mourning.

Sometimes he wonder if he's a saviour, or the one who sends innocent souls to hell.

Generally, he's considered a hero. But he knows better that he had made mistakes too, causing people who weren't supposed to die in such ways, to die for reasons that should not be.

They would try to make him feel better, saying that he tried and it's better than to not try. But he couldn't help wondering how differently things would have turned out had he not done the things he did.

Still, he had no choice but to continue. Although with every failure, his faith shaken more and more.

Sometimes he wonder if he still belonged in this profession. Sometimes he wondered if he'd end up in hell for the sins he did.

He yearned for an escape.

Sometimes, in between his tight schedules, he would find time to take breathers and close his eyes and he'd imagine being in a place far, far away from here, surrounded by greens instead of deadening white.

His paradise.

 

 

oh no...i have 3 stories to catch up...T^T...

 

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estherahn
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Chapter 15: Sigh. I have no choice but to spam comments. This was beautiful
estherahn
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Chapter 96: noooooooooooooo what does 95 meannn
estherahn
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Chapter 24: Ok i already know my comment will be a little flimsy and sometimes I don't know what to say; I already don't quite know what to say and it wont be everything I want to say,but what I knew how or remembered to say, but i will post my thoughts~ this writing was so shocking and reading it hit my heart so painfully. Subscribed~ I was so curious and had to read even though as you know in life I read only blogs. ohhhh I just realized I do like things that explain feelings and hurting times. Bc I could always read a sad story, but it helps me understand myself and others when I read specific description of one's feelings. Reading this, things like this (which is how i feel reading your blog writings and the voice in those writings... also sometimes youtube descriptions ;) ) makes me feel i am not lonely. i never heard intentionally shinhwa (maybe accidentally when going to a store with korean things ahhaha or some place playing korean music, like if i was in a random person's car and they played korean music back in my childhood) and this song is really beautiful, good and i like the music video also. BUT I ALSO LOVE THE VOICES. Sigh. It was beautiful.