faded. (Looking At Pictures)

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Today, I found an old photograph that brought back all memories I've long forgotten intentionally, when a friend posted that picture on her SNS account.

The exhilarating crush who often made other girls filled with jealousy towards myself with the way he gave special attention on me despite myself never believing he liked me even until today, the hoardes of hate I received in the form of bullying from many classmates, the feeling of always being an outsider looking in even when I was already in, the feeling of being unfairly misjudged just because I was who I was. The friendships that were rare, but somehow, manage to exist every once in awhile with some special souls. The betrayal, the heartbreak, the feeling of having no one to trust or depend on but yourself at the end of the day.

Everything, everything that made me appreciate myself even more.

All the feelings felt fresh as I stared at the faded picture.

two drabbles today cuz last night i missed posting when i fell asleep early...><...

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estherahn #1 Dec 24, 2016 04:20:12

Chapter 15: Sigh. I have no choice but to spam comments. This was beautiful

estherahn #2 Dec 24, 2016 04:15:44

Chapter 96: noooooooooooooo what does 95 meannn

estherahn #3 Dec 24, 2016 03:12:54

Chapter 24: Ok i already know my comment will be a little flimsy and sometimes I don't know what to say; I already don't quite know what to say and it wont be everything I want to say,but what I knew how or remembered to say, but i will post my thoughts~ this writing was so shocking and reading it hit my heart so painfully. Subscribed~ I was so curious and had to read even though as you know in life I read only blogs. ohhhh I just realized I do like things that explain feelings and hurting times. Bc I could always read a sad story, but it helps me understand myself and others when I read specific description of one's feelings. Reading this, things like this (which is how i feel reading your blog writings and the voice in those writings... also sometimes youtube descriptions ;) ) makes me feel i am not lonely. i never heard intentionally shinhwa (maybe accidentally when going to a store with korean things ahhaha or some place playing korean music, like if i was in a random person's car and they played korean music back in my childhood) and this song is really beautiful, good and i like the music video also. BUT I ALSO LOVE THE VOICES. Sigh. It was beautiful.