As Monday came, a new week began and also a new week at work. I knew I had dark bags under my eyes as I couldn't sleep anything these past two nights.

When I came to SM, I hurried to my room so no one could see me. I didn't want them to see me like this. But I failed completely.

When I walked into my room and shut the door quick, I heard a pair of feet behind me and turned around.

It was Onew.

He looked at me and saw how I was. He just pulled me in for a hug and I felt like I needed that and hugged him back.

"You know me too well, oppa. You always seems to understand what I need" I told him.

"Well, I'm like your brother. I should know everything about you. So I guess the bags under your eyes are for not sleeping properly and missing your sister." He told me and I just nodded.

"Let's go grab something to eat and we can talk. I haven't seen you for two weeks and we have to talk." He told me and I followed him out the door.

When we were at the cafeteria, Onew gave me a cup of hot chocolate and I smiled. He knew how much I liked this drink.

As we sat down, he looked at me with serious eyes.

"Becca. How many people have you told about your problems?" Onew asked me and I knew what he was talking about.

"All of SuJu, except Henry and ZhouMi, and Xiumin-oppa from EXO knows half the story." I told him honestly.

"I just want you to be careful. Even if you fall in love again, I don't want the same thing happening again." He told me. I just nodded. I knew what he was saying. 

Last year, I had some problems, not only with the love department but mostly, and it got to the point where I wanted to kill myself. Only Onew and Julia knows about this. It's thanks to them that I'm still alive.

If I hadn't talked with Onew, I wouldn't be here today, I thought to myself. 

"I just want you to be careful. And tell me if you start liking someone. He needs my approval if he wants to date you." I chuckled at that.

"Heechul-oppa said the exact same thing to me. You two are like the older brothers I never got." I told him with a smile on my face.

"Thanks for this. I needed this. I felt lonely yesterday because Julia left and I didn't want to disturb anyone of you guys, oppa. I just was a little bit down, I guess" I told him and he just took my hand and griped it tight.

"We will always be here. We ain't gonna leave you. Not for now at least." He said laughing a little.

I thanked him for the hot chocolate and went back to my room.

As I got back to my room, I decided to make some cards for Heechul