I throw my memories down the lane, but they keep following me. When I try to fly I hit the ground... I try to forget the dates, I try to forget you. Without you I spend my days in sadness, wondering where you are. Do you remember me? I am not the same. I am lost, I am trying to survive every day, trying everything to keep myself busy.. but at the end of the day, I find myself looking out the window into the night sky. I can not eat, drink or sleep. Come back Sora... my Sora. 

Sunday. Jong Suk was already awake when he heard his alarm go off. He turned to the side and looked towards the window. It was raining outside again. He dragged himself out of bed and into the bathroom. Today was going to be a long and hard day for him. Birthday party. Ji Hoon on the other hand was happy about it.. but then again that was normal for him. Jong Suk sighed and looked at himself in the mirror. He wasn't able to fall asleep at all, every time he would close his eyes he would see her and some strange pain would go through his body. 

A pain that was so bad that sometimes he wished that he wasn't alive. He hated his father and everything about him... Jong-suk would often think that maybe in time the hate towards his father would stop.. but it didn't. It kept growing, by every single minute. Ji Hoon knew what Jong Suk was dealing with, and he tried everything in his power to make Jong Suk laugh or at least smile a little. 

Jong Suk leaned on the bathroom wall and fell to his knees. Today was one of those days when he wanted to be alone. It was the day she left so he was in no mood for any parties. His body felt numb and he just didn't have the power to get up and get ready for the day but he had to. He closed his eyes for a bit and then opened them again. He slowly stood up and turned the water on, he needed a shower. Maybe it would help him.  

***
"Why did she have to move away?" Little Jong Suk asked.

"Forget about her. You will find a new friend." His father said with a cold tone and just walked off. 

Little Jong Suk looked at his father as he walked away and tears started forming in his eyes. He didn't know why she left. It was out of the blue. He looked down at his hand and he was holding her necklace, a necklace she gave him as a token of their friendship. He held that necklace tight and wiped away his tears. 

"I will find you... I promise." He said to himself as new tears formed in his eyes. 

***

He turned the water off and got out of the shower. He dried himself off and got dressed. His eyes were red and he was just a mess. He thought about calling in sick, but what was the use of it? His manager won't allow it. He sighed. Ji Hoon was still asleep and Jong Suk didn't want to wake him up so early. He dried his hair and then walked out of the bathroom and into the bedroom. He made his bed and then walked over to his desk. He opened a small box and picked up a necklace from it. He smiled a little and then closed his eyes. 

Sora gave him that necklace as a token of their friendship and ever since then he would carry that necklace with him everywhere, but he also gave Sora a little something as a token. It was a bracelet and there were initial letters on it that said S + J.

"Do you still have it?" He asked as he put the necklace around his neck and tucked it under his shirt. 

Lately, he had been talking a lot to himself and at times it would scare him. Was he going crazy? He took a deep breath and walked out of his room. As he walked down the hallway he noticed that things were thrown around. He figured that Ji Hoon must have come home late and drunk. He shook his head and entered the kitchen to pour himself a cup of coffee. 

He had to survive today's day no matter what. The good thing is that he had a day off tomorrow. He picked up his cup and sat down at the table. He took a sip and looked towards the window. The sky was gray and everything looked so sad, so depressing. He didn't like this kind of weather for many reasons, but mostly because it was rainy on the day she left. The sky was crying as well that day. He looked away.

"What time is it?" Ji Hoon asked and ya