I stroll to the lunchroom with Sara on my back, once we reach the entrance of the cafeteria I set Sara down her feet.

 
" Are you better now ?." She ask

 
" Little bit ." I said 

" Really ." She said unsure 

" Yeah, I want to know if they're gone from the rooftop ." I said 

" Why ?." She ask 

" Well, not to be mean or anything but I really want to be alone Sara ok ." I said 

" Oh ." She said 

" Please just for a little while I just to think about some things so, for now just hang with your friend Kai and his group and tell him thanks for looking my brother's necklace ." I said 

" Arete ." She said 

" Don't worry I'm not going to do anything stupid I promise ." I said 

" Okay well then they're coming so, you have to sneak out ." She said 

" I'm way ahead of ya ." I said with a smile

 
" I'll distract them ." She said 

" Thanks ." I said 

She nods and heads towards Tao and Kris then starts talking to them instantly when I saw my chance. I took it once she saw me disappeared from her line of sight, she knows that she did a good job. But me I quickly head to the rooftop once again I just really want to be alone right now because today has been hell for me. Once I reach the rooftop I just stand there and wondered about my life.

What did I do to deserve this life ?. Please can someone help here ? Please I beg of you.

Maybe I should speak with my brother even though he's gone but I pretend he's here with me. 

" Hey Leo, it's me Arete your sister in case you forgot about me but there's something I want to tell you. I miss you Leo ." I choked on my tears 

I take a breather 

" I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Leo !!!!!." I cried out 

" I'm so sorry that you died and I didn't ! It's not fair Leo ! Oh god Leo ! I'm sorry, I'm so very sorry please Leo can you ever forgive me please ! Leo !!." I said as the tears pour out of me 

But as the tears ran down my face and every time that a tear left my body, a piece of my soul goes with it I feel myself withering away. 

" I'm one that should've died that night not you, you could've survive Leo but no you chose me instead which is really dumb. Everyday of my life I've heard from mom and dad that its my fault and I'm nothing but trash. You had a brilliant future ahead of you and yet you threw away by protecting me, you should've let me died Leo !." I cried out loud that's when I broke down. 

My knees buckled to the ground as my left arm hold me up but I use my right hand to buried my face as I tried to cry the pain. But only seem to make things worse for me as the memories came racing through my head like a typhoon. Such as the day I was , seeing my brother dying, or when I was tortured by own father that's one day I would never ever forget. 

Due to the fact that it haunts me everyday as I dress myself, the visible scars that I stared for least 30 minutes and wonder why ? Why me ?. But for now I just sit there and cry until there's nothing left of me. That's when the world went dark for while but the problem was I'm able to hear everything.