- Sunday morning - 

   I awaken to the sound of birds but I'm getting this ominous feeling in my gut and I can't shake it as much as I want to. When I look out the window I see the clear blue sky then I look to the right and there's a cherry blossom tree, its almost finishing blooming. Its so pretty that I can't help but smile at it and it makes feel warm on the inside.

I put on black cargo pants then black combat boots and grey dago tee. But then I look at the alarm it's 6:00am and I wondered what should I do I mean there's nothing to do everyone is still asleep. Should I called the FBI and ask when Leo would be back ?. I put out the iPhone that Sara gave to me and I dialed the FBI in Washington, D.C., and there answer. 

" This is FBI, this agent West ." He said 

" West it's me Arete ." I said 

" Oh Arete ! How you been ?." He ask 

" I've been good but can you tell me when Leo would be back ." I said

 
" What ? Arete Leo died two years ago protecting you ! Don't remember you were there when he died ." He explained 

I dropped the phone. 

" No, no, no , NO !." I finally shouted 

 NO ! That ain't true they said he was undercover. They lied to me ! Why they did lie to me ? Why ? WHY ?????.

I then feel someone behind me and theres arms around coddling me. But what captives me the most. 

"  To protect someone is to know hate for someone 
An unknown pulse 
Swallow it and it becomes mere hope, it falls apart with a sound 
The savage pain inside me is fighting tragedy
I never wished for this power; the stars to wish upon have already fallen
This sad fate screams out loud 
Tear me apart, my loved ones
Now, grab hold of your dream 
However much you scream about your sad fate 
light and prayers will change to betrayal 
It's tome to be brought to justice 
Ah! Where did that smile go?
The answer is nowhere to be seen this daybreak ." He sang softly but mostly it's was hauntingly harmonize 

Tao !

I look up at him and starting punching him lightly but it didn't seem to phase him.

 
" Why ? Why did you lied to me ?." I cried 

" Arete we had no choice if we were to tell you that day, you would've lost it ." He explained 

" How did he died ? I mean according to his best friend Eric West, he said that he died protecting me ! Is that true ?." I said 

" Yes it's true but what's even more terrifying is that you died that night for 30 minutes while your brother stood dying ." He said 

" How did I died that day ?." I asked 

" You died from five gunshots wounds but then your brother only had two gunshots wound and there's only one ambulance ." He said 

" What else ?." I said 

" He chose for you to live while he bled out ." He said 

I can't stand the pain it's eating away at my soul that's if I even have one. 

" Arete please don't cry ." He said painfully 

" And what did I do ?." I ask 

" You didn't want to let go and so you hold on to him but in return you want him to live even now you're beating yourself because he chose for you to live ." He explained 

" But still that's not fair Tao ! He could've lived instead dying ." I cried 

~ Flashback ~
My head is starting to hurt as I closed my eyes and I see that day it was nighttime and a black sedan passed but Leo knew what was going happen if I didn't move. Yet I couldn't move because I was in fear what was happening but when I saw Leo jumped in front me, taking the first two gunshots. I remember vaguely that there's something in me that snapped to where I took five bullets.I also remember Leo crying as I took the five bullets then finally when they saw my knees buckled to ground that's when it also started to rain but there's no thunder nor lighting as well that day. But never forget when he screamed my name as I fell in front him or when came over to and hugged me and in return I hugged him as well but when ambulance came. He said to take me first and fought with him to stay with me but they wouldn't let me they pulled us apart. 

~ Flashback Ended ~

" LEO !!!! YOU FOOL !!!!." I cried 

" Shhh Arete you're safe ." He said 

" LEO !!! YOU STUPID IDIOT !!! WHY ?!?!?." I cried 

" Arete please I beg of you ! Don't override yourself with this guilt !." He said 

" DAMN YOU ! YOU JERK ! YOU HAD A BETTER FUTURE THAN ME !!!!." I cried out 

I couldn't stop sobbing in Tao chest, in that moment I mean I just got one of memories back and it's stab to the heart literally.

How do I with this pain ? How do I survive this ?.

Knowing that I got my brother killed somehow but why did he chose me to live ?. I just sat there and sob, couldn't stop no matter how much I tried to stop the tears and I out.