-Pete-suddenly Earn talked and that startled me

-Wh..what?-I stuttered and cursed myself for do that

-Thank you-he said and smiled more widely

Oh! It was possible fall in love twice with the same person?

-It’s ok man-I said a little less nervous

But my breath got stuck in my throat by Earn’s actions. Without warning I felt his breathe in my neck, that got me goosebumps and unavoidably my entire body trembled.

-Ea..Earn?-I stuttered and tried to move away

-Just stay still-I heard him whisper too close of my ear

I had to bite my lip to refrain a little moan caused by his hot breath and deep voice too close of my ear. It couldn’t be helped! My ears are really sensible. I was praying to he couldn’t be able to hear and feel my fast heartbeat. Suddenly I began to feel how his body was trembling and almost at the same time my neck started to get wet.

He was crying.

Without can help it I embraced him. This is all I'm able to do for you. We stayed like that for I don’t know how many time but the last thing I remember are his arms holding me too.

The insisting vibration of my cell phone woke me up. I opened one of my eyes and reach for it inside of my shorts. It was harder that I thought because the body of Earn was still half on top of me. I blushed by that. I answered without looking who the person calling was.

-Hello?-I said sleepy

-The heck?! Are you sleeping?!-the voice of Film echoed through the cell phone’s speakers

-…what happen?-I asked while waking up completely

-You know that it’s almost time for the final of the Live Contest right?-

-The Live Contest!!!-I shouted out loud at the same time I stood up

-uhmm~-I heard Earn make a protest sound with his throat

-We’ll be there on time-was the last thing I said before hanging up

I turned in the bed to see Earn. He was lying comfortably and sleeping again.

-Hey Earn you have to change your clothes-I told him while moving him to awake him up

-mmm~ just go, I’m not going anyways-he said and his voice sounded filled with sleepiness

-You just can’t stay at home-

-Be the singer for me-

-I can’t do that, If you’re not there, then it wouldn’t be the P’Cheer band-

 -Just forget it, I can’t do it right now-

-You know, sometimes the things doesn’t go the way we expect, but if the journey is beautiful, isn’t that good enough?-I told him sincerely while smiling and standing up-change your clothes and let’s go to school-were my last words

Luckily we made it just in time. I was checking that everything were ok. When I was sure that everything was fine I started searching for Earn. Where did he go? Fu**ing Earn leaving me alone with all the problems.

I didn’t saw him until were our turn to perform in stage. All the band settled in our positions to star playing. I looked up to stare at Earn when I heard his voice through the speakers.

-When my heart was broken I keep practicing this song-he made a little pause and then continued talking-I just want to that person reconsider the things-he finished and started playing

So is he still stubborn about Noh?

I keep my mind focus on playing well the guitar but the lyrics of the song, along with Earn’s voice, were making me more and more difficult to keep playing.

It might just be a dream

Will there be a day that we will fall in love?

So I’m asking…

How do you feel?

About all the things I did for you

Do you know?

I was so sad when you said that…

I shouldn’t give you so much!

But now, I only ask you to give me a chance…

Please, don’t just run away!

Try thinking about the things I did

Don’t be afraid, it’s just a matter of our hearts!

And I might not be the one…

Just try opening up and accepting my heart!

Please?

ลองคิดดู (Think about it)- Anything Else

In the end I felt like if my heart were being stabbed by knifes. It hurts too much. I was fast to leave the guitar on the floor and escape the whole scene. I needed to calm myself down.

-Hey where are you going? It’s almost time for the announcement of which bands won-Earn told me while holding my arm

-..I’ll..I’ll be right back-it was difficult to talk

I got rid of his grab in my arm and exited the auditory where the final was been taking place. I went straight to the restrooms and tried to calm down. I saw my reflection in the mirror and felt like laughing at my own state. Heartbroken and hopeless, was the description of my facial expression.

-Don’t be a baby Pete!-I scolded myself and I forced a smile on my face-you’ll be fine-was the last thing I said

I went again inside the auditory just when the president of the school's music club, Noh was announcing that the scoring was done.

-The third place is… Band p’Cheer!!-Noh said and the crowd went wild

I turned to look at Earn and smiled because his face reflected how amused he was by the result. Then he snapped out at the reality and turned to look at me. I unavoidably smiled at him just as much as he did to me. He looked truly happy and that made me feel happy too. We stayed stood up on the stage until all the winners were announced.

When we exited the auditory I saw how sad Earn looked, some of our friends invited us to join them in the after party but I wasn’t feeling like going out, neither Earn was because he rejected the invitation too. We walked beside each other until the street where we were going to take a taxi.

I could feel the tense atmosphere between us and because of that, I wasn’t able to speak a word.

Why has he like Noh so badly?    

-Earn...-I started talking but Earn’s voice interrupted me

-Thank you-he said while staring at me

Why was he thanking me out of the blue?

-What for?-

-Because you made me see that I can try to make him change his mind about me-

Auch!

-Don’t you think is better to move on?-

I told him but that sounded more like words for me.

-…but I just can’t, I really like him-

Double auch!

-If continuing torturing you about this is going to make you happy then do it-I said but it was hard to speak without my voice cracking

He only turned to look at me but I avoided his gaze. I was about to start crying.

-Se…see you tomorrow-I told him in a rush

I began to walk away of him. Faintly I could hear his voice calling me.

Again I could felt the tears dropping in my cheeks.

I’m so done with all.

From now on I’m going to stop worrying about him.

After all he is not going to love me the way I do.

There is no point in continuing loving him like I do.

It’s better for me to move on and try to stay by his side, just as a friend.