-Uhm~ hello-Film said after a long moment of silence

-What are you doing here guys?-Noh asked and I had to avoid see him because for some reason his presence was irritating me 

-We were looking for a present for my sister’s birthday-Film said and lifted the bag with the sweater inside

-Oh~ are you two done? You can join us, we were about to get something to eat-

-Sorry I have to go now-Film said in a hurried voice

I looked him and saw that his cheeks were a little pink. He turned his gaze at me and I felt nervous by this. He smiled at me before speaking again.

-Think about what I told you ok?-he told me and grabbed my shoulder for a few seconds

-Uh…yeah-I said a bit embarrassed

-I’ll see you on Monday-he told me and then turned to look at Noh and Earn-see you guys-and without saying anything he left

-So~…do you wanna join us?-Noh told me and finally I turned around to look at them

-…-I saw the both of them and for a moment my mind went blank

I stared at Earn and noticed that his gaze was glued to the floor, he was purposely avoiding me, again. That fact made my heart ache. I moved my gaze and looked Noh, he was smiling at me waiting for my response.

-I can’t-was the only thing I said because if I talked more my voice would probably break due the effort to contain my tears

Stupid Earn. You can be with Noh all you want.

I turned around and started walking and little by little I speeded until I was running. Running away of my feelings for Earn, but in the end they came back and hit me on the face.

I took a cab and made my way to my house. When I arrived I went straight to my room. I slammed the door and threw myself at the mattress. I was so tired of Earn running to Noh every fu**ing single time like a little dog.

Why he can’t understand that he doesn’t love him?! Is it so hard to understand?!

The wetness under my face made me realize that I was crying. I lifted my face a little to let the oxygen enter my system again.

-Is it..is it so hard to under..understand Pete?-I told myself when my own words repeated inside my mind

It was. That’s why I could tell how hurt Earn was feeling all this time. But also it was hard to know and accept than that person doesn’t love you back.

-I need to stop all this fu**ing feelings-I sobbed while trying to stop my cries

A sudden knock on my door made me jump in panic. And before I could do something the voice of my mom came through the door.

-Pete?-she asked and waited for my response and how I didn’t answer she carried on-Earn is here-she finally said and my hear skipped by her words

I totally panicked and stood up from the bed. I ran to the bathroom and splashed water against my face to hide the fact that I was crying.

-Wait a minute!-I shouted loud enough to let they hear clearly my words

I looked at my reflection and cursed my pale skin. It was too obvious that I was crying. My eyes looked red and puffy. After waiting a little I exited my bathroom and opened my door but avoiding the light from the corridor to hide my face.

-What are you doing here?-I almost snarled him with a bitter tone of voice

-Can I go inside?-he asked with a calm tone of voice

-No, you can’t, what do you want?-now I was pissed off

Fu**ing bastard!

-I’ll let you two alone-my mom said and I was taken aback by his voice, I had forgotten that she was still here

-Would you let me enter your room?-

-What.Are.You.Doing.Here?-I asked making more emphasis in each word

-I was worried, you left without saying nothing more than “I can’t”-

-Well, I’m fine, no need to worry-I said and made an attempt to close the door and finish our conversation-you can leave now, I suppose Noh is waiting for you-

I was closing the door when Earn’s shoe came in between to avoid that the door were closed.

-Move-was the only thing that my mind could process before being pushed away of the door

Earn stormed inside my room looking totally upset. I saw him turn around and close the door by himself. Then he came closer to me. Instinctively I backed but soon my back touched the wall.

-What’s wrong Pete?-he said after a long pause

-…-I stayed quiet and only turned my head to avoid see him

The tense atmosphere started growing between both and I began to bit my bottom lip to refrain myself to say something stupid.

-Pete-Earn whispered near my face and I felt how his arms wrapped me

This is too much to handle.

-Stop please-I pleaded while trying to make him get away of my body-stop this, because you only are making me feel hopeful for you to love me back-I pushed him with all my strength and luckily I succeeded then I walked away of him

-I’m done with you running after Noh all the fu**ing time Earn! I understand that you liked him for so long that it’s hard to let him go but think of me too, because frankly lately I doubt that you care for me and I’m sick of feeling this way-I said and had to stop talking because my tears were accumulating in my eyes

-Pete I didn’t know…I’m sorry-

I laughed but in an instant this turned into sobs.

-I…please don’t cry-Earn said in a tone of panic that made me feel worst

-No…please leave-I said while walking towards him and pushing him until the door

-Pete I am really sorry-

-Stop apologizing!!-I shouted him and looked him right in the eyes-I’m done with all of this, so from now on you don’t need to worry about my feelings, if it’s that you cared, because I’m going to stop loving you-I said and my words made me feel like crap

I pushed him one last time and was about to open the door when I felt how his hands grabbed my face and seconds later his lips touched mine. I was totally startled by this. I tried to finish the contact pushing him toughly but his grab on my face was too strong. I shut my eyes and keep trying to stop him. But seconds after I felt something wet touching my lips, until that moment they were closed tightly too, involuntarily I let escape a muffled moan and by that action my lips parted and Earn’s tongue made his way inside my mouth.

His wet muscle touched mine and another moan escaped me. I was starting to feel dizzy so I put my hands on Earn’s shoulders to gain a little of stability because my legs were about to collapse. I suppose Earn noticed this because few seconds later his hands left my face and they grabbed strongly my waist.

Soon the need of oxygen made us separate. My breath was unsteady and I was panting hard to recover my system. I slowly opened my eyes and tried to focus because that kiss was really intense.

-Don’t stop please-Earn whispered and his tone of voice was more hoarse that I have ever heard

So y. A chill run through my spine by the sound of his voice.

-St..stop what?-I was confused by his words and by the after feeling of the kiss

-Don’t stop loving me-he said and then he hugged me hard and tightly